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Be patient, or find a different way to contact her as god knows if shes even using that email or it's a leftover dud from the past days. Also you have a fiance? I'm almost 21 I haven't even had my first real kiss yet and my OCD has basically destroyed my life beyond repair I think. So cheer up. Life may not have been kind to you, but it could've been worse. I drove someone I love away (not forever but honestly idk about that) and it was because I was a miserable piece of shit. I have supreme trust issues and I can never get someone to like the real me. Everyone loves this people-pleaser version of myself and I'm never happy and I always feel alone and unsatisfied and horrible and nothing can fix this. You still have a chance of reconciling with your friend and you have to let go of the past. What's done is done, make the best of the future, cuz some people can never have bright futures ahead of them.
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That's a lot of emotions: sadness, rejection, uncertainty, loneliness, hurt, fear, confusion. Kudos to you for being able to notice and name so many pieces of what you're feeling. You made yourself vulnerable with the intention nof improving your relationship. That takes courage. You said "I feel that we need to have a deeper conversation about some stuff". What I'm taking from this is that YOU wanted a deeper conversation. From what you said, your friend hasn't expressed the same desire or need. Especially if she was satisfied with your previous relationship, pouring your heart out may have overwhelmed her. If it were me, I would send a brief message to ask if she received your previous letter, and then let it alone. The ball is in her court now. Trying to force her into a heart to heart conversation that she hasn't expressed interest in is likely to alienate her further, if indeed she is intentionally not responding (which we don't know for sure (
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