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Hey girl I'm 22 but have had it since highschool although it went away a bit after I moved out of my mom's and came back so much worse after an abusive ex. Not sure what subtypes I have since I don't know the subtypes. All I know for sure is that I have contamination. I have a lot of other symptoms that I'm sure belong to subtypes i just don't know them yet! Also in college fourth year! Congrats on honors!
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Thank you!!! What kind of compulsions do you struggle with and how do you love past them?
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@Kate I don't really know the lingo or what subtypes exactly but I have problem with counting, double tripple checking, things being in the right position, superstitions, intrusive thoughts although rare for me but do happen, and things in my relationship although I'm not sure yet if that's OCD or because of my ex but hopefully I can talk to the counselor about it Monday!
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@Kate Oh and pretty positive I'm a hoarder
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Hey Kate! I’m a college student as well and would love to talk with you if you have any questions about managing school with ocd. I’ve struggled with scrupulosity and other forms of pure o, but am work on it, just like you!
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I would love to talk more about scrupulously with you!!!
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@ocdhere Definitely! Feel free to message me :)
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@Hope8 Wait I’m dumb, I don’t think there is a DM function on here.... but id be happy to exchange numbers or group me or something
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One of the areas that my perfectionism OCD affected me when I was around your age was constantly obsessing about getting good grades in school and college to the point I often re-read book assignments by re-reading individual sentences and paragraphs over and over and over again for fear that I might have missed something very important. I did the same when writing term papers by re-writing over and over again. During exams, a test might normally take me and most people maybe an hour, I would use the full 2 hours going over every question to make sure that I did not misread a question and answer incorrectly and also to ensure that I did not select an unintended answer. I did the same at work. It's a very emotionally exhaustive way to live. The underlying fear was that I would fail a class, people would think that I was stupid, my family would be disappointed, and I would end up not graduating, never get a good job, and either be living at home or on some form of public assistance all of which would be very humiliating to me personally. That's just a general overview. The same mindset has affected me in other ways. But, I have had some of the more standard compulsions such as tapping or blinking a certain number of times to prevent something bad happening, avoiding "bad" numbers, apologizing to God if I heard someone else utter blasphemous words or phrases, etc. There have been so many over the years that I do not remember all of the different manifestations. What has helped me immensely is ERP, mindfulness, and having more self-compassion. You will learn those things as well in therapy.
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I have been struggling a lot with class, during my senior year of math, I couldn’t write notes without having to repeat writing it and then I’d fall behind so I had to have my friends send me photos of the notes
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@Kate Is this just in math or does it happen in other classes, too?
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@Fear Strikes Out Any classes with note taking
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Kate, welcome to the group! You must be excited about beginning your college career in the fall. Will you be attending a larger university or a smaller one? I must say that your educational aspirations run a pretty wide range (nothing wrong with that, of course) from kindergarten teacher to dermatology. The type of OCD that I have experienced over the years is perfectionism or just right, symmetrical, good and bad numbers, and compulsive tics when I was very young around 7-8 years old. There have been other manifestations, but those are the primary ones. I am excited for you that you will be receiving treatment at a young age so that you can live life as it should be, to the very fullest!
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I would love to talk and know more about your ocd!! I have scrupulously and have had pure o and some other types but have had a range of them through the years!
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Any classes that involve note taking
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How long has this been happening?
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Started when I had religious thoughts, if I had a bad thought, I’d have to do it over again
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ERP will help a lot. Are you using an OCD specialist when it is safer to do so?
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Hi I kept seeing this app on repeat on TikTok over and over and I thought I give it a shot. I have never been diagnosed with OCD but I know that I have it. I’m a young adult and I found out the first time I had OCD was watching lelelons truth video? I was 14 at the time She had to resist sitting back down in a chair after her having sat down she started having a mental break down when she was told to resist. That’s when I knew. It started with myself going up and down a staircase twice buckling unbuckling my seat belt everytime I’m in the car ect I have always been super anti social but trying my best I can socialize but my mind wants to make it sexual with family and friends ughhhh I hate it because that’s not me when I graduated thoughts of hurting my loved ones corrupted my mind I broke down outside of church one time asking if this was really me or not i question if I’m a good enough friend or person in this world to begin with thinking everyone is judging me so so close how can I make this situation better did I do something wrong I struggle with depression as well not to bad but it’s there I come from a loving family but broken as well i believe in god and my OCD makes me go often he’s not real that stuff isn’t real no one is there to save you the list goes on. Anyway I struggle a lot and I really hope that this will help me because I feel extremely hopeless. Lucky for me I do have the ability to seek therapy and I am excited. The only person I ever tell my thoughts to is God no other human has heard so I’m really really hoping this helps me out if your reading this thank you it means a lot because this is my first time ever admitting all this it’s a lot to take in I know and I hope you are ok and that you have a great night and know that we got this
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Hi, I’m new here!! I’m praying I don’t get judged for this. But, back in late May of 2022 ( literally right before I graduated high school), I added this one random girl from my school on Snapchat. She posted something about a graduation party , so I swiped up on her story basically saying how I can’t believe we’re almost graduated. She replied and we had a really short and simple conversation. The next day ( i believe) , we started talking a lot , and I just so happened to see her at the highschool when we were grabbing our graduation outfits and doing the rehearsal. When I saw her irl, I kinda got turned off ( I heard she was kinda crazy) , and on top of that , she was a little ugly irl. I remember seeing her Snapchat bio , and she was close friends with my female cousin ( a year younger than me) , who I happened to experiment sexually with when I was 10-11 years old. I remember going to work later that day and having sort of a lightbulb flick thought ( it wasn’t a good thought though) , what if my cousin told her about what happened when we were younger? So I started to kind of panic and immediately distanced myself from that girl. I also experimented sexually with one of my female friends when I was 10-11 , and from that day onwards, I’ve been pretty much living in paranoia and a little bit of guilt about someone finding out and my life being ruined . On top of that, It’s gotten worse to now sometimes I wonder if a girl I added off of quick add ( Snapchat) is underage even if they told me they were 18+ or had 18 and above in their bio, and I get so much guilt and anxiety about that. I even had a quick thought last February on what if I did something inappropriate with my younger cousin when I was 15-16 but I just can’t exactly remember when it happened , and it still eats me alive when I think about it, because I don’t know if it happened or not. I’m sorry for the long vent, I just wish I felt normal again. No matter how much I try to do things that old me used to do, life always feels “ off”. I always kept the top part about when I was younger a secret up until early (ish ) 2024, then I vented to one of my best friends and he told me that that’s a normal thing to do at a young age. Since then, I have told multiple friends and they all say they did similar stuff, but my brain just can’t accept that. Please help me, I quite literally overthink everything nowadays. 2021 was the last full year that I felt normal ( coincidentally, the best year of my life so far) . It’s not just about sexual related things either, sometimes I’ll wonder if I messed up something at work or hit a car while driving/hit someone and drove off. I just wanna live my life how I was supposed to live it after highschool ( carefree and happy) before whatever it is ( I think it’s ocd) hit me unexpectedly. Thanks to anyone who read this , I just needed to pour it out regardless of how negative I felt typing this, I hope someone can relate , because I feel so alone in my head at times.
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Hey friends, I hope you all are well. I just wanted to check in and ask people's experiences about being on medication. I have had OCD pretty much my whole life, just got recently diagnosed 4 months ago and my therapist recommended that I get on meds for it so I have a psychiatrist appointment set up. I'm a little apprehensive about getting on them, but I've realized that I do have some sort of chemical imbalance in my brain that plays a part in my OCD and anxiety. I would love to hear anyones experiences or words of encouragement. Thank you, I hope you all are well.
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