I just saw a video on YouTube about how people with schizophrenia see things . I got really triggered . And the worst part is that there was a comment on the video which said that it starts with thoughts . And after sometime people start to see things . And it really scared me. Because from the day I came to know about schizophrenia. I think I have it. I know I don't have it but my mind tells me maybe . So whenever I do something a fear comes into my mind . What if iam schizophrenic . It can morph onto anything . I started doing erp and it relly helped. But today I got triggered due to that video and that comment. Please help me !!.

vanitas

Date posted: 5y

i have this fear constantly haunting me and it’s really frustrating :((

harshit

Date posted: 5y

I also read that people have delusion like someone is spying them etc . I didn't have these thoughts when I didn't knew what schizophrenia was. I am not afraid that someone is spying me but I am scared because these thoughts make me belive that I have schizophrenia . And if I do erp for these thoughts than I will have these thoughts forever. And thats what people with schizophrenia have I think . It's really frustrating . Please help if you know what we can do about these thoughts . Thankyou

Yayfortherapy

Date posted: 5y

I have similar OCD but about bipolar disorder! It’s so frustrating and scary. It sounds like you’re tangled up in a lot of layers of fear about it. The ERP really will help you start to break that down. Stick with it, you can do it!!

harshit

Date posted: 5y

Moreover I didn't knew about it . But when I got to know about its symptoms I had fears that I have it. People with schizophrenia think that they are being spied . And today in the video I saw that he observes a man standing behind him . Now I have fear that I will look back to constantly check but that will be a compulsion. What can I do? . And thanks for the advice❤.

Yayfortherapy

Date posted: 5y

If you’re afraid of looking back over your shoulder, that could be a really good exposure if you feel ready to do it. Look over your shoulder and let yourself get anxious about maybe having schizophrenia. But if that feels like too much you should talk to your therapist about it!

harshit

Date posted: 5y

So if I keep on facing the fear . Will these thoughts go away ? . The problem is that whenever I get to know about any mental disorder I obssess about it. When I didn't know about ocd . It wasn't a problem for me. But from last year this disorder has made my life hell . So u should face my fear and rise above this fear.

Yayfortherapy

Date posted: 5y

@harshit Yeah, I think it’ll get a lot better if you keep facing the fear. Make sure you’re working with a therapist who is specially trained for OCD and I know you’ll get better.

harshit

Date posted: 5y

@Yayfortherapy I don't go to a therapist because there are no good therapist in my city. And I live outside the united states.

Yayfortherapy

Date posted: 5y

@harshit Oh, okay. I think this app is a good idea for you then. Maybe you can buy a workbook for ERP? ERP is the best treatment for OCD and it helps a lot.

harshit

Date posted: 5y

@Yayfortherapy Yeah iam working on it. But things never come under control. I was never stressed before i came to know about ocd. But sine last 1 year i am stressed out 24/7 .It is really interesting with my life.

harshit

Date posted: 5y

@Yayfortherapy *interfering

Yayfortherapy

Date posted: 5y

@harshit I’m sorry that it’s been such a hard year. I think if you keep practicing ERP, you will start to feel better. OCD is also much worse when our life changes or when we are stressed. So maybe if your life has changed recently, once things settle down you could feel a lot better.

harshit

Date posted: 5y

@Yayfortherapy I think you are right . Before this lockdown and quarantine . Whenever I was with friends and going to school and to play cricket. These thoughts were less convincing. But since last 2 months it is worse .

harshit

Date posted: 5y

*I should face my fear

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