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What is bdd?
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Body dysmorpgic disorder. It's similar to OCD in that it has obsessions and compulsions, but the symptom content is all about a perceived physical defect in appearance
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Well I thought I did but then it turned out I have a bunch of conditions which are actual congenital and medical disorders which is why I have certain weird body parts ??? I literally had tubular (but v large) breasts that I've had a surgery for, have type 2 syndactyly and lipoedema. Put that together with my autism and hyperlexia etc and I'm basically a mutant. And hate my nose (ain't nothing "wrong" with it). But actually though, I think my being so focused on them and wishing they were different would probably qualify as BDD. Other people probably wouldn't give them as much thinking time as I have over my life, but it's hard to tell. I got a breast reduction because I hated having big ones anyway (I'm agender, etc) plus massive strain on my neck and shoulders plus the reality that I hated how they looked and never saw mine represented anywhere, I'd had people make comments etc. Since that surgery I feel better about them cause I don't think about them, the scarring is bad and they're far from perfect especially as I'm losing weight, but I don't have a preoccupation with them anymore and the feeling that I'm deformed. It did give me more confidence and took a weight off me knowing that it's behind me after wanting to change it for so long. But tbh my focus of upset then just went to the lipoedema, which isn't too bad right now but it's a progressive and pretty painful condition that I'm gonna need surgery for at some point. I really overthink it, I hate how it looks and I don't feel normal. Idgaf about the syndactyly anymore, just call me Froggy. And the nose-hate comes and goes but can be very intense, I've even had fillers. But yeah I kind of don't really think that it matters that much whether the defect is really there or not, if you've got tunnel vision about it and the ideas that you get about the body part really upset you and interfere with having a normal life and take up inappropriate amounts of time, that's BDD. I know it could be considered normal to have some anxiety and depression about a genuine defect from a condition, but tbh what does "genuine" mean anyway? We're all people, we all look different, not being able to accept some part of how you look is really the same thing whether other people would validate what you see or not. I think the best way to capture BDD is the feeling that you look abnormal, flawed to the point that it overshadows or ruins anything you do like, and you just can't take your mind off it or stop comparing and ruminating etc. My best friend has severe BDD that her arms are too long and that something is wrong with her nose, she can get a panic attack from leaving the house without makeup. She's a 5'8 Swedish blue eyed elfin ACTUAL BABE with ridiculous legs but she hates the way she looks. I am, objectively, a potato next to her. Most of the world is. She just can't zoom out of the stuff she hates, she can be really preoccupied with it, even when she's not talking about it I can see her checking and judging herself when she looks in a mirror and when she holds her arms awkwardly. Her arms are exactly normal arm length. So BDD will find anything. Swedish babe or deformed potato, if it's distressing you and preoccupying you and hurting your self esteem and you do compulsions around it like comparing or googling or staring for hours etc, you deserve to get treatment and feel better. What I always tell my Swedish friend is that I love her, her family loves her, her boyfriend loves her. She can change something about her appearance if she wants to and we will all support her. But "fixing" the things she feels are wrong isn't going make us love her more or remove some kind of barrier for our love. It's not going to make her safer in the world. She's safe now.
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I think I might have bdd along with OCD. What are you doing to treat your bdd?
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Can anyone who is diagnosed with both OCD and BPD tell me a bit more about their experiences, especially when it comes to friendship and relationships?
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i’ve thought that i have OCD for about 2 years now, but i’ve had a lot of the symptoms for as long as i can remember (but i don’t really remember a lot of my childhood- i need to check w family to confirm). i’ve talked to my gf about it, and she thinks i just have GAD and am a hypochondriac. i definitely do have GAD, but the things i have obsessions and compulsions ab aren’t just health related (even tho a lot are), ill imagine that people are injured or dead if i don’t hear from them, i ruminate on childhood events and think about if i could have changed things, i blame myself for things that aren’t my fault, i check all of the locks in my house every night to make sure nobody can break in (even tho ik they’re locked), etc. my GAD more shows up in worrying about like worrying about an upcoming exam or about going into work, or that my friends/family/gf are/is mad at me. i know you guys can’t diagnose me, but the i can’t see a therapist on here until i am able to tell my current therapist that i need to see someone else. i just wanted to talk about it i guess, ive taken so many online quizzes and psych classes that i feel like i somewhat know what im talking about.
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Hey, so idk if I have ocd, I would like to think I’m a very self aware person but I don’t wanna self diagnose at all, lmk what you guys think. So pretty much my whole life since I was young I remember having irrational fears im sure it was all trauma induced but when I was a kid I thought my father was poisoning me until I asked him, he started crying and was so shocked that I could ever even think that, my parents broke up when I was legit fresh out the womb, mom worked two jobs and disciplined me, dad let me do whatever on the weekends and got me snacks so I was obsessed with him so obsessed that it was mandatory for me to kiss his picture 20x everyday before school. Growing up I always felt followed by cameras or like someone out there was recording me waiting for me to do something embarrassing to expose me in front of the whole world and my life was over 🤣🤣 I thought my abusive ex bf was stalking me through my I phone camera after we broke up and it would truly stress me out, it made me believe that it was the reason he never reached out again bc I probably looked ugly in the camera he was stalking me through. If I fall out with a friend Ill over analyze everything to see if I did anything wrong and god forbid while I’m self reflecting I realize I did something wrong I feel like an evil person, verbatim the people I fall out with is bc they’ve done me wrong in some way and it has to b something hurtful or repeated mistakes for me to really stay away for good, so I’ll beat myself up for making mistakes with another person who’s made the same amount of mistakes if not more and in most cases I always fall short, and this when I question if it’s ocd or I’m just to self aware and see the ugly in me bc I’m not perfect and it’s just makes me feel so unsettled but again that’s a normal feeling and the next step is to forgive yourself and do better moving forward, not obsess over it like your trying to convince yourself you’re a good person. I’m also hot tempered and will say hurtful things when I’m mad I’m definitely a crash out in the way, you push my bottoms way too many times and I will shred you, and I’ll say things ik will hurt you and that’s just so low, then the anger goes away and I have to face the guilt, which makes my “ocd” 100x worse, it almost feels like I have to do everything right to not trigger it yet again I don’t have the self control to do it all right, I actually have a lot bpd tendencies again not diagnosing but I’m just trying to understand my brain. I worry about dying, getting a terminal illness. uti turning into kidney infection then into cancer kind of thing, knowing that life in general can b tragic is so scary to me, like what will be my story? What will be my life experience?. I believe that people see right through me and discuss it amongst each other, I always tell myself I am not that important but I can’t seem to shake it off sometimes. When I would break up with my ex I would have pre written paragraphs ready to b send if he ever decided to reach back and I would do this to make sure I didn’t forget a single thought, that every point i felt I need to prove was there, and that bothers me bc do I want win an argument or fix the issue. All of these feelings make me feel so pathetic and embarrassed people move on with their lives and I’m still stuck on something that happened 3 yrs ago. Then I’ll get manic get a tattoo, change my hair, go out clubbing do what I can to b the sexy young girl that I am and it helps in the moment but it worsens my mental after the euphoria is gone. I’m currently staying home, not going out, have only 1 friend so I feel like ocd progressively got worse now, I don’t remember it getting this bad in a while. lmk what you guys think don’t judge or think I’m embarrassing I’m actually so cool and if have to convince you I’m cool I will LMFAOO no but fr help
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