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- PureOSushrut
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I’ve had ocd all my life, so I can relate and I’m sorry. It’s not better to end it. Sometimes I have those thoughts. It is especially hard when I have a good streak and then suddenly feel terrible. I just have to constantly remind myself that there are a lot of things in life that make fighting ocd worth it, even through the really bad times.
If OCD thoughts are there everyday and makes life unbearable then what's the point of living It's better to end it once and for all Good you can live through it I don't find anything for me to live with suffering
@PureOSushrut I understand, and I know it's hard, but you're special. I don't know you, but I am sure you have many amazing things
@ckate Thanks for kind words I am just clueless on how to tackle OCD thoughts I have done CBT but I can't seem to connect it with my OCD intrusive thoughts.Cant disregard the thoughts I have to analyse ,if I don't then I won't be able to think what I want to think without feeling guilty
@ckate I agree. Do you have a therapist or someone you can talk to? Sometimes just talking helps me to feel a lot better. Also, don’t be afraid to call a suicide hotline if you need to (1800-273-8255) . I also think something that helps me is allowing myself to feel proud and accomplished when I don’t give into ocd, even if I do a few hours later. Another thought is to try the app headspace if you haven’t before. It’s great and has helped my ocd some over time
@PureOSushrut We are all in this, we understand how you feel, because it's our daily battle and that's what makes you amazing, because you've done a great job.
I always feel like my OCD is the worst and sometimes it is among the OCDers I speak with but one thing I know is everyone thinks they have it the worst. So try to remember we are battling this together and any future solutions that come up will be shared. My OCD has only mildly gotten better and to a degree that I’m not satisfied with At All! But there are developments that are being introduced that give me hope and I’m 54! If I can hang in there I think anyone can. Mine has been so bad in relation to the field I’m in, music, that I feel like I need to write a book. It’s been crazy but then again life is crazy, look at Covid!
I would read that book!
Feeling awful like this won't last forever. I wouldn't want you to miss out on feeling better. I wonder if there is something you could have in your life which can't be taken from you by your fears. So even when your life seems broken and you don't want to be you, there can be something you can hold onto, something good to live for. For some people this can be their body, so they use the gym or get tattoos because they can put their focus into it, and for some people it's art. So even if life was awful and you were hated or alone and all your worst fears were true or even if you still struggle with your OCD, you could have something for self expression which can't be threatened by your OCD.
I feel the same, but there is always something good!
Getting hope end everytime an OCD thought comes and makes me suffer only makes it tougher to survive
@PureOSushrut I know, it's hard... Do you like to read?
@ckate Yeah ,I do
@PureOSushrut I suggest you to read " Turtles all the way down" and " Every last Word."
@ckate Will it help me in my OCD ?
@PureOSushrut IT will help you to see things different. I really want to help you, would you accept?
@ckate I will try reading these books
@PureOSushrut Okay
You are beloved
Fortunately it's not endless. Everything cones in waves and right now you are cast out, lost as sea. Soon you will ride the sea back up.
sorry, which book?
I don't know how to put this but... I'll try my best... The pain that I'm suffering now is too deep. I'm struggling to catch my breath every second. I can't sleep, I can't be awake... I can't do anything. I'm freezed in this stage of endless pain that has teared my soul apart. There's nothing left now... I can't see things work for me. I'm too tired of this... I can't take any step further. There's no end to this. My soul is dead from inside...
Anyone think that maybe some of us are just too far gone I’m serious don’t sugar coat like no matter what you do your doomed to become homeless can’t keep a job can’t have confidence can’t find yourself it’s like once you’re this low it’s hard to pull yourself up because it looks like everyone around you is able to at least keep there head up and have confidence most days I don’t even want to wake up
Been on this OCD roller coaster for 10+ years, I’m tired & nothing seems to get better. I want to leave this earth without hurting those who care about me, I’m done tbh. No hope left in me. I wish I had someone irl to talk to, cry with, someone who understands OCD (not a therapist). I hate this life.
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