Dess
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gitoutmeswampgitoutmeswamp
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I do the same thing! I freak out and want to gtfo and then I start freaking out again because everything is different and unpredictable. But the issue for me right now is that my "normal" environment is still rather volatile. Not as volatile as my childhood environment but still there isn't a lot of consistency. I feel like I can't win. That's why I downloaded this app and am seeking professional help as well. We will get through this together!
DessDess
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We got this! Yeah I’m stuck at home and just am not feeling good about it
gitoutmeswampgitoutmeswamp
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@Dess Same! And dummy me put myself in a situation that is almost impossible to get out of. But we will work it out.
DessDess
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@gitoutmeswamp Haha how old are you? I’m 21 and I feel like I am running out of time! Ugh!
gitoutmeswampgitoutmeswamp
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@Dess 22. We have decades ahead of us!
DessDess
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@pure093 It’s okay guys. We are in this together. We got this!!!! Also tik tok is amazing lol that’s mostly what I spend my time on
gitoutmeswampgitoutmeswamp
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@pure093 I dug myself into a hole trying to raise my BIL's 9 year old for him with my husband. So I also feel like my life is kinda over before it has even started. My husband and I (once I get more serious treatment with a professional and probably medication) want to start trying for our own kids. We got married the end of Feb and always say it's like we got launched 10 years into our marraige right away. Shit is tough. My childhood was crappy and while BIL is a good person, he is a single dad of 3 and has a 4th with someone else. And his younger 2 from the first 3 are disabled so it is extremely hard for him. It was hard for me to see needs and not jump in, but fortunately my husband's parents are going to help take a lot of the responsibility so that I can focus on healing and we can focus on our lives. I guess part of me just feels guilty for not finishing what we started.
christinechristine
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I’m experiencing this too. I delete apps all the time just to bring them back. You are not alone at all ?
gitoutmeswampgitoutmeswamp
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I am just glad I found THIS app. You all rock!
asgolbeckasgolbeck
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I do the same thing! I’m 27 and I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve deactivated and reactivated my Facebook account. I hit an emotional rough patch yesterday, so I’m debating whether or not to take a break from it...21 and 22 is so young! You’ve got plenty of time ❤️
gitoutmeswampgitoutmeswamp
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Thank you!!! It can be tough. Especially with social media.
felmasalonfelmasalon
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Same here man. I feel like I'm just wasting my time everyday. I have many plans but I dunno, I just can't do it.
gitoutmeswampgitoutmeswamp
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Same!!!! And my goals are so simple so it always is so frustrating because I feel like the lifestyle I want is that of the most basic functioning adult.
christinechristine
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Ugh. It’s honestly been discouraging me a lot. I feel like each day I sit on my phone the whole day. I think it’s been was harder during quarantine. Then I catch myself being down on myself that I’m on my phone so much. :(
gitoutmeswampgitoutmeswamp
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It is hard! I have been binging YouTube which is like the WORST thing to be binging for me when I am having issues.
christinechristine
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@gitoutmeswamp Yeah. I feel like I end up just feeling more down
gitoutmeswampgitoutmeswamp
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@christinezak I have been trying to replace vids with reading. I find it helps but it can be hard to focus at first
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