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- FatherIimaginedyoutaller
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I'm 26 and live at home because I'm severely mentally ill lol. My parents pay for whatever, just like MJ I procrastinate and I also struggle to work full-time and that makes me feel like a total bum. And just like MARS, I was constantly blamed for things and accused of being manipulative when I was a child and nobody else thinks I was in the slightest, it was projection of my mother's own mental issues whenever she felt jealous (of course her being awful made my dad more protective and it was a cycle). I never dared ask for things as a child and now I feel awkward about getting anything. I look at my belongings and all I feel is guilt and like I don't deserve them. But am I spoiled? Probably not. I'm comfortable, my parents def aren't poor and they don't let financial stuff become a stressor to me. Society tends to condition us to feel unworthy of anything we haven't slaved for. And I feel as if I'm just taking from my family when I want to be able to give. It's rough. But feeling guilty about it isn't going to motivate me to change what I'm not happy about, it only puts me in a worse state of mind to improve things.
Yes. I'm 22, I live at home. I'm an online student because I didnt do well in my exams the first time round. My mental health is crap. I dont work, my parents pay for my tuition too and they said i dont have to work as long as i pass my exams. I procrastinate a lot when I'm stressed and i feel like a spoilt brat. I dont think in my heart I'm spoilt, I know how lucky I am but i feel that others will think I'm a brat and I've not had struggles because my parents helped me out so much. :(
When I was a child before my parents lost their jobs/my mother got sick, I was an extremely spoiled child. It didn’t help my dad put a lot of blame on me and said i was manipulative (me being a literal child at the time) so I completely understand your guilt. I can see where the ocd in my own childhood would come from now that I look back because I too felt this same exact guilt to where I would stop asking for things because I felt so bad. Katie is right, ocd takes things completely out of proportion.
Look at OCD there ready to leap into action at any moment! It's blowing this out of proportion
my mom said do you wanna stay here or go to walmart, and the first thing i thought of was kids and if there was gonna be any and i didn’t feel guilty ?, am i a monster?i feel like if i’m not guilty from these thoughts, i am a monster and i don’t wanna end up like a nasty pedo ??
I feel so guilty I never asked for this. A certain intrusive thought that I’ve been having that won’t go away came up at the wrong time last night if you know what I’m talking about and now I feel like I’ve acted on the thoughts and I never would never want that. I feel so ashamed
My birthday is coming up in about 2 weeks and my friends are planning to celebrate with me and they told me they all got me presents and I feel so undeserving and I keep telling them no because I feel like if they knew my past they would hate me 😭
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