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I'm 26 and live at home because I'm severely mentally ill lol. My parents pay for whatever, just like MJ I procrastinate and I also struggle to work full-time and that makes me feel like a total bum. And just like MARS, I was constantly blamed for things and accused of being manipulative when I was a child and nobody else thinks I was in the slightest, it was projection of my mother's own mental issues whenever she felt jealous (of course her being awful made my dad more protective and it was a cycle). I never dared ask for things as a child and now I feel awkward about getting anything. I look at my belongings and all I feel is guilt and like I don't deserve them. But am I spoiled? Probably not. I'm comfortable, my parents def aren't poor and they don't let financial stuff become a stressor to me. Society tends to condition us to feel unworthy of anything we haven't slaved for. And I feel as if I'm just taking from my family when I want to be able to give. It's rough. But feeling guilty about it isn't going to motivate me to change what I'm not happy about, it only puts me in a worse state of mind to improve things.
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Yes. I'm 22, I live at home. I'm an online student because I didnt do well in my exams the first time round. My mental health is crap. I dont work, my parents pay for my tuition too and they said i dont have to work as long as i pass my exams. I procrastinate a lot when I'm stressed and i feel like a spoilt brat. I dont think in my heart I'm spoilt, I know how lucky I am but i feel that others will think I'm a brat and I've not had struggles because my parents helped me out so much. :(
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When I was a child before my parents lost their jobs/my mother got sick, I was an extremely spoiled child. It didn’t help my dad put a lot of blame on me and said i was manipulative (me being a literal child at the time) so I completely understand your guilt. I can see where the ocd in my own childhood would come from now that I look back because I too felt this same exact guilt to where I would stop asking for things because I felt so bad. Katie is right, ocd takes things completely out of proportion.
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Look at OCD there ready to leap into action at any moment! It's blowing this out of proportion
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So I’m so bored lately I have everything I want and could ask for but I’m a dopamine junkie so I jump from item to item and I’m still bored and I have “toys “ stay with me I’ll explain … so I have actual toys like dolls and stuffed animals because I still enjoy younger things at times … yep I’m still an adult … but that being said I won’t “play “ or interact with younger toys because I feel it’s not age appropriate and I want to fit in with society’s norms … that being said I have a Xbox s I have a Nintendo switch … a legion go hand held system … a portable dvd player and I’m sure other things I can’t remember… no I don’t act like a spoiled brat and want or need for everything and I’m very grateful…. But that being said out of all the things I have nothing really keeps my attention I just impulse buy them… I obsess about buying them for months I buy them and use them for a little bit and get bored …… then I feel ungrateful for not using an expensive item or gift.:. Go back and use that item and then the cycle repeats … I just can’t find anything that truly keeps me entertained and engaged … and keeps me wanting to fool with it every day or interact with it …. I want to find something that gives me a sense of accomplishment and excitement… and game systems and whatever else just don’t do that for me … like I said I promise I’m not a spoiled adult /brat ❤️
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Yesterday I kept thinking about something sad about God like yk when you feel disappointed in God sometimes :( so I had just gotten a really bad thought of God turning into a demon …. And it felt like like I was thinking it for a sec like intentionally… and I quickly started to panic and feel really bad bc I Love God a lot but I’m afraid I committed the Unforgivable sin aka blasphemy my brain gets to addicted to think about certain things I can’t think about
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cause immense guilt when receiving gifts? Or when someone is nice to you, the guilt just floods every vein of your existence. I feel so awful :( awful about my compulsions, about some of my thoughts, about who OCD has made me. My boyfriend just gifted me something, and I have such a heavy feeling in my chest. Worst part is: when I’m not feeling guilty I’m spiraling over that gift was enough, if it could’ve been “better.” I feel like an idiot. I don’t understand why I’m like this
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