FatherIimaginedyoutaller
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- 5y
FathomableFathomable
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- 5y
I'm 26 and live at home because I'm severely mentally ill lol. My parents pay for whatever, just like MJ I procrastinate and I also struggle to work full-time and that makes me feel like a total bum. And just like MARS, I was constantly blamed for things and accused of being manipulative when I was a child and nobody else thinks I was in the slightest, it was projection of my mother's own mental issues whenever she felt jealous (of course her being awful made my dad more protective and it was a cycle). I never dared ask for things as a child and now I feel awkward about getting anything. I look at my belongings and all I feel is guilt and like I don't deserve them. But am I spoiled? Probably not. I'm comfortable, my parents def aren't poor and they don't let financial stuff become a stressor to me. Society tends to condition us to feel unworthy of anything we haven't slaved for. And I feel as if I'm just taking from my family when I want to be able to give. It's rough. But feeling guilty about it isn't going to motivate me to change what I'm not happy about, it only puts me in a worse state of mind to improve things.
MJocdMJocd
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- 5y
Yes. I'm 22, I live at home. I'm an online student because I didnt do well in my exams the first time round. My mental health is crap. I dont work, my parents pay for my tuition too and they said i dont have to work as long as i pass my exams. I procrastinate a lot when I'm stressed and i feel like a spoilt brat. I dont think in my heart I'm spoilt, I know how lucky I am but i feel that others will think I'm a brat and I've not had struggles because my parents helped me out so much. :(
MarsMars
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- 5y
When I was a child before my parents lost their jobs/my mother got sick, I was an extremely spoiled child. It didn’t help my dad put a lot of blame on me and said i was manipulative (me being a literal child at the time) so I completely understand your guilt. I can see where the ocd in my own childhood would come from now that I look back because I too felt this same exact guilt to where I would stop asking for things because I felt so bad. Katie is right, ocd takes things completely out of proportion.
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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- 5y
Look at OCD there ready to leap into action at any moment! It's blowing this out of proportion
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