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I understand what you mean. I’m the same. I can’t even go out sometimes, I feel anyone who looks at me is thinking something bad about me
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Hugs. The helpful answer would be to think “yes people are thinking the worst of me” while you’re out. I know it’s painful but you can do it.
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Thanks
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@reza same! I’m also Persian. I’m assuming you are based on your name. We’re sensitive people and when we feel betrayed, it hurts so bad our ancestors feel it. Lol. Pair that with OCD and it’s just— not ideal. And you know how you look in the moment of anger and hurt, and it makes the insecurity even worse. Mindfulness helps a lot to get out of your head in these times. Also reminding yourself that you don’t know what goes on in anyone else’s head. They could be worrying the same about you. The funny thing is that everyone’s got a story and most people think theirs is exposed but they can’t read others. Yours isn’t exposed. They may or may not be thinking bad things about you. After all, you’re thinking they are passing judgment! But you have to accept it. If they think something wrong about you it’s because they don’t know you :)
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I wonder if it would help to write all the thoughts you think people are thinking about you so you can fave them on paper away from people and be like “ok why would *anyone* think that?” Sometimes our own beliefs about the way people see us is our worst fear about ourselves- what we don’t want to be. Accepting that you may be that way or you may not be that way could help- because then you can at least realize your fears and work on becoming the person you do want to be.
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Face them^*
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I may try that. That’s a good idea ! The paranoia gets the best of me sometimes but I’m learning to handle it.... Reza is a popular name in Trinidad believe it or not. We pronounce it Reeza
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Yes. I take things too personally. Someone called me a loser when I asked a simple question. I was extremely upset even though he has no significance in my life
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Thanks so much ! That makes me feel better :) does it bother you a lot?
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I’m actually from Trinidad but yes my name is Persian :)
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It does bother me. I just tell myself i have to act like a bad betch and pretend i don’t care - then ruminate on it later until i come to the conclusions i sent above lol. I always get in my head about it. Its worse in groups and has definitely caused me to sit out of events. But I know the key to getting better is to expose myself to discomfort. So back to the start it goes- and I act like it doesn’t bother me! Lol
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I just hope with each attempt, getting to the good thoughts comes faster and I spend less time worrying. My goal is to be more present.
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And that’s so cool! How did you end up with a Persian name?
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Yes I am trying to let it not control me as well
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It gets better with practice for sure
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Does anyone else read other peoples post and think it’s for them or about them and their situation and start to think that’s what they are going through themselves ? Or like I’m blaming ocd but it’s my brain actually telling that’s how I actually feel?
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