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I understand what you mean. I’m the same. I can’t even go out sometimes, I feel anyone who looks at me is thinking something bad about me
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Hugs. The helpful answer would be to think “yes people are thinking the worst of me” while you’re out. I know it’s painful but you can do it.
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Thanks
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@reza same! I’m also Persian. I’m assuming you are based on your name. We’re sensitive people and when we feel betrayed, it hurts so bad our ancestors feel it. Lol. Pair that with OCD and it’s just— not ideal. And you know how you look in the moment of anger and hurt, and it makes the insecurity even worse. Mindfulness helps a lot to get out of your head in these times. Also reminding yourself that you don’t know what goes on in anyone else’s head. They could be worrying the same about you. The funny thing is that everyone’s got a story and most people think theirs is exposed but they can’t read others. Yours isn’t exposed. They may or may not be thinking bad things about you. After all, you’re thinking they are passing judgment! But you have to accept it. If they think something wrong about you it’s because they don’t know you :)
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I wonder if it would help to write all the thoughts you think people are thinking about you so you can fave them on paper away from people and be like “ok why would *anyone* think that?” Sometimes our own beliefs about the way people see us is our worst fear about ourselves- what we don’t want to be. Accepting that you may be that way or you may not be that way could help- because then you can at least realize your fears and work on becoming the person you do want to be.
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Face them^*
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I may try that. That’s a good idea ! The paranoia gets the best of me sometimes but I’m learning to handle it.... Reza is a popular name in Trinidad believe it or not. We pronounce it Reeza
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Yes. I take things too personally. Someone called me a loser when I asked a simple question. I was extremely upset even though he has no significance in my life
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Thanks so much ! That makes me feel better :) does it bother you a lot?
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I’m actually from Trinidad but yes my name is Persian :)
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It does bother me. I just tell myself i have to act like a bad betch and pretend i don’t care - then ruminate on it later until i come to the conclusions i sent above lol. I always get in my head about it. Its worse in groups and has definitely caused me to sit out of events. But I know the key to getting better is to expose myself to discomfort. So back to the start it goes- and I act like it doesn’t bother me! Lol
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I just hope with each attempt, getting to the good thoughts comes faster and I spend less time worrying. My goal is to be more present.
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And that’s so cool! How did you end up with a Persian name?
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Yes I am trying to let it not control me as well
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It gets better with practice for sure
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Everyone is frustrating me at work and I’m about to crash out😭!! Maybe it’s how I grew up and have been gaslit a lot but does anyone ever feel like whatever they do they are in the “wrong?” I don’t know …my coworker made me feel like that. What’s wrong to her might not be wrong to me and vise versa. I just wanna scream and throw hands lol. I don’t know if anyone else feels like this. And they wanna have this conversation in front of customers and then I look like the “bad guy” 🙄. So over it. Workplace is toxic asf and I’m trying to find a new job but it seems impossible these days . I feel like I’m not the best at conversations on the spot. That’s why I keep quiet so ion look dumb, but both coworkers came up to me and approach me. I feel like I try and smile and nobody really smiles back. Or when I say thank you and go to places like ulta, all the girls are bitchy. It makes me think am I not smiling enough? Am I doing something wrong? Etc. Maybe it just the people I’m around . I just feel nothing but anger and I’m trying to calm down but I really just wanna go off
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I’m constantly finding myself getting irritated easily and sometimes it even confuses me because I was happy and fine two seconds ago. Like I feel emotionally unstable. I also randomly will get sentimental or sad and I just start crying. Is this just me??
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Recently I’ve been getting these very intense episodes of feeling extremely annoyed, irritable and touchy. I start to think narcissistic thoughts like feeling extremely entitled, envious of others and just overall snotty and rude but also horrible about myself. I take everything personal in these moments even though I know it’s stupid to do so. with harm ocd it also makes it 10x worse because they urges are worsened by the anger and intense emotions and sometimes I feel like just crying or this deep pit in my stomach of fear and dispare about the future like where am I heading and who am I becoming? I’ve excessively been on Gemini asking about covert narcissism, because my family disagrees with the idea of me being a narcissist along with my therapist but I just can’t let it go because I actually genuinely believe it. When I want to make things right it feels so self centered and I don’t know the right way to genuinely care about others. Maybe I already do?? I can’t tell if this is all just anger, intense fear and overwhelm, from med changes (went from lexapro to buspar) or processing grief (grandpa died in February) but sometimes I feel even worse because in my head I believe the grief only effects me and I need total attention and care 24/7. and start wondering if this is a subconscious way of thinking for me that I just assume is ocd and anxiety. I feel so tense and when I get in these moments I feel like I’m about to combust, I dissociate, feel like sobbing, isolating, or yelling but can’t tell if it’s all caused from an “ego blow” or something that someone did that made me feel bad about myself and that’s why I feel such high self pity. idk anymore but this feeling is terrifying especially the more I believe I’m a narcissist everything is evidence. I even start wondering what if this is rage, or hatred or resentment? like deep down dark feelings?
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