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- 4y ago
Ziyah, May ALLAH Make recovery easy for you and May you have access and the ability to follow and use the best resources available for the treatment of OCD. May ALLAH Give us all shifa. Ameen. Stay strong. What helps me even now is just reciting all my prayers or reciting surahs or reading the Quran or performing Wuzu etc only once (by that, I mean not repeating actions again and again for eg reciting Bismillah again and again because your brain tells you, you are reciting it wrong( on purpose) and so ALLAH Will Be Displeased. ALLAH Knows that you have OCD and you are NOT doing things on purpose. He Is Most Merciful), in one go smoothly despite what my thoughts are telling me to do or saying so for eg: I used to do wuzu multiple times thinking I had messed up when in fact, it was just OCD. So now what I do is, before let's say, Zuhr, I'll do the wuzu just once ignoring all thoughts telling me that I have messed up- i.e. I did not wash my face with water thrice, I only did it twice etc etc and just offer my prayers. Eventually, the anxiety will reduce In Shaa ALLAH. Hope I was able to explain a bit better.
Salam Alaikum I was diagnosed with religious OCD. I know the best way is 5 daily prayers. Plus OCD specialists. Whatever your thoughts are accept it and im not sure what your thoughts are but agree with sarcasm. Religion is not the problem. You love Allah and thats why its doing that. Don’t engage but let it pass. You have to get a therapist. No one understand it but you will know how to learn to cope with it. You found NOCD use it.
I always have intrusive thoughts. Everytime and everyday. Like all times (when reading about religious content, when doing a simple mistakes, when I'm seeing other religion's symbol). I always pray/say any words to stop it. It comes over and over, every minute. Sometimes it is as if saying "You're...murtad!" and I quickly pray and I feel so bad. I'm afraid..really afraid tho. Those thoughts are just taking over my head and my heart. My heart beats so fast tho I'm so afraid if I did something wrong.
AOA Ziyah. I know what you are going through to some extent. I too get really scared of the thoughts I have. I have improved a little. I had started reciting my prayers in a very strange way. What helped me then was that I started reciting my namaz Infront of my mother loudly. I had to do so quickly (in one go), even if I thought I made a mistake. Then I started reciting surahs on my own, alone. It is important that one does these practices alone after some help because we are the only ones who are going to beat it. It is going to be hard. Also for intrusive thoughts, when things were really bad, I started let the thoughts just pass, not fighting them and reciting Astaghfirullah at the end of the day (once). When things got smoother for me, I was able to come a little closer to normalcy. I would suggest you seek out a verified Psychiatrist if you haven't received any mental help yet and confide in someone you trust, who understands your problem and is willing to help you (It was my mother for me). Also search about your OCD online. Some great resources I found were iocdf and OCD stories (the latter is on YouTube). Read about ERP and work on your OCD. Most of all, I know it is hard but don't blame yourself because as Snuggles mentioned above, your OCD is only bothering you because you care about your religion and love ALLAH. Also, as a Muslim, we know that ALLAH Knows what is in our hearts and He is the Best of Planners and we will be tested with different tests in this world. ALLAH Knows that these thoughts cause you distress because you don't mean them and you don't want them. ALLAH Knows that practicing religion is hard for you because of the nature of this disease. So don't give up. Keep trying to manage your OCD. In Shaa ALLAH I pray that we all learn to manage our OCD. ALLAH Is Most Merciful.
@Nijah Thank you Nijah. I surely will try to manage it. But yknow my family doesn't know about this and they don't even understand what OCD really is. So, I have no family support I can tell. But InshaAllah we all can overcome this all.
Wa alaiykum Assalam. JazakaALLAH Khair for your help. The problem is that I am yet to find a healthcare professional that fully knows how to carry out ERP. I tend to avoid religious activity altogether atm since it causes me so much anxiety. Whenever you have the time and are comfortable informing, can you please outline what you did in your ERP treatment (exposures) so I can start practicing them? I don't want to share my thoughts here because I am afraid that they may trigger you. If that is not the case, I can give you a brief outline of the thoughts I have. Again, thank you. It is really reassuring to find that I am not alone.
Aamiin
Suffering from religious ocd
Hi everyone. I have religious ocd and i am muslim and i pray 5 times a day. There is an ablution ritual where we wash parts of body in certain steps before prayer. I get doubts on purity, doubts on my ablution steps, doubts during prayer in each step. I also have tetribke intrusive thoughts where my mind curses god and anything related and it scared me and still does, especially since i hate hearing curses about god or even curses in general. All these things make me always spend so much time making sure i am clean...and make me repeat ablution and prayer. Most times i cannot even begin prayer because i doubt my intention, doubts if i even did a step, get terrible curses against god in my mind, and doubt every step. I try to ignore, especially the curses...but fail every time. I also know some things i do are not logical but still cannot help not doing compulsions like asking god for forgiveness and starting all over. I cant go to a therapist because i do not want to take medications and also do not have the money or means to commit to it. Also, not sure if they can help because it is very specific. Anyone with my type of ocd and muslim? Were you able to recover? How did you ignore and go on doing ablution and prayers? They have become extremely hard. Please be kind. I am in a very depressed and helpless state. Please dont tell me to do anything blasphemous or sacreligious. I love my religion and god and know this is a test. Thanks.
I am suffering from religious OCD for the past 32 years. When I am practising disregarding my OCD fires back with strong thoughts of until when u r going to disregard. When I say to myself God is with me it fires back with thoughts of what God has done until now. You will never recover. May I ask you what is this. Azhar from India
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