- Username
- SamanthaSarah
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Oh my goodness that sounds awefulll... I’m so sorry its so hard for you... if your not in contact with a certified therapist for ocd, i strongly recommend you get in contact with one- and you can do that through this platform if you need too. I totally understand your experience i have experienced the same in the past... its really hard... and awefull... but i have come a great long way since i started thank God... and you can see succes as well and I’m confident you will. It sounds like the issues your dealing with may be a little too icy to be addressed by posts on this chat, but we are with you every step of the way. Be brave. Hold on. Be strong. Don’t be afraid of talking this
*not icy- big*
One thing which can be helpful, just for now at least is, search up meditation for panic attacks by gentle soul on YouTube, hes very calming, and helpful wether you’re currently feeling like a mess or not
Thank you.... I will try. But here's the thing... I have a serious case of Bronchitis. That's real. My anxiety... Isn't. When I have compulsions, they stop me from breathing & something like meditation turns into a panic attack & I feel like I'm going to die. I struggle to breathe and get dizzy. But I will try. I have to.
Don’t give up! It took me several tries and years to find a helpful therapist. I was so straightforward with my current one on our first phone consult. Make a list of what worked and what didn’t and share that with therapists when you call them up. I’ve had therapists tell me they couldn’t help me, too. I’m grateful for their honesty, but it hurts. I’m sorry you feel abandoned.
Thank you, hon. That was useful advice.
Do you have a pet? Pets can really come in handy when you have depression or anxiety. And it gives you something to put your mind on because you have to take care of it. That’s my advice. Get something to take your mind off of your obsessions. Could be reading/writing a book, yoga, talking walks, dancing, or just whatever you love to do. I know this isn’t the best advice but it’s what helped me whenever I’m depressed. Just wanna let you know that you are welcomed in this community. We all have problems here but that’s what makes us a community. Ima put you in my morning prayer today. God bless.
Thank you so much for that. It really means a lot to me.
@SamanthaSarah No problem. Just wanted to let you know that you are loved. Every human has flaws and insecurities but that is what makes us human. No human is perfect. Even Lele Pons, a famous comedian, has OCD. We can make it and get through this. There is always a way. There’s a song I recommend called ‘Orange Juice’ by Melanie Martinez:)
@sillybilly Thank you so much. Yeah, I'll check it out. I watched the video Lele put out and it was such a trigger - the accuracy. I'll be watching the rest of the series. She's done a good job with it.
Have you reached out to any professional in the past?
I have... I was in therapy but my therapist was afraid of me. Others just gave up hope. Everyone I've ever considered close, abandoned me or got pushed away. It reached a point where I wouldn't shower. I couldn't leave my bedroom. I couldn't go to work. Leftover food was rotting in my room. Nothing made me function, let lone happy. People that tried to help, I treated so badly & I didn't mean to & I'm guilty to this day about it. What triggered this out of proportion is when my ex cheated on me with my best friend & started to raise hands on me. I already come from a family of domestic violence. My mind is racing so fast. I obsess over absolutely everything. Then I clean... Non stop. I clean for hours. I mop the floor thrice per room. I keep changing the water after every room. I hate bad handwriting. I hate dog ear folds on pages. I hate loud noises or people yelling at me. I'm afraid to be alone. I'm afraid to be around people. I need someone to talk to. I don't want to die... But I don't want to live either. Thank you for showing me kindness.
@SamanthaSarah Would you consider a residential treatment program for anxiety and depression? You may know all of the techniques but having that 24/7 support can be hugely important.
@Fear Strikes Out What country do you reside?
@Fear Strikes Out Unfortunately, India. If there's anything worse than the actual treatment process, its the stigma.
If not it is crucial that you do.
I've studied Psychology back in school and college and have covered Abnormal and Clinical psychology. The worst part? I know what a therapist is going to say and what counselling techniques they'll recommend. Which makes matters worse. It's so difficult with me because there is so much opposition for every type of solution you could think of. I'm a mess.
Hey guys, I’m new here and just joined. My OCD has been so paralyzing that I was actually scared to post something, but hopefully I can get a little support. On April 30th I had my first bout with hit and run OCD and since then my life has become so hard. I get drive anywhere without tracing my routes, checking the news, and seeking reassurance from loved ones. My OCD has now morphed into thinking that I’m going to go to jail for something, and the thoughts are so awful I’m not sleeping well, eating well, and affecting my work and relationships. Please any help or comforting words would be appreciated. OCD sucks, and I just want my life back.
I just joined this app today and need someone to understand me or just listen to me. I have been suffering from extremely violent and gruesome intrusive thoughts mainly regarding my 3 year old toddler. I have noticed a peak in my intrusive thought struggle with a mass shooting occurs. I have a debilitating fear of a school shooting happening at my sons daycare. I am not going to get into the details but it is just so sickening that I can’t even type out what my head thinks. My problem is I self sabotage by reading about shootings until the story consumes me. Most recently the Highland Park shooting. I am worried because it has gotten to the point where I simply CANNOT sleep without taking something that knocks me out, otherwise I lay in bed with my chest so tight I can’t breathe letting these horrible visions play over and over again. I don’t want to be dependent on a downer to put me to sleep and an upper to get me through the day. This is the first time I am sharing my experience and it feels really good to get this off my chest. Please if anyone has gone through this and can offer anything please share it with me. I can’t go on like this
Hey everyone, I’m really struggling right now. Here’s a little backstory. I’ve had extreme OCD since I was 10. I’m 18 now and for the last year I’ve had crippling health anxiety. The first 6-months of my health anxiety was all physical health related like heart attack’s, cancer, tumors, ect. I probably went to the emergencies 10 times and I had 14 EKGS done, 3 Ct scans and a mri. I would go to the er because I was convinced I was having a heart attack at 18. Eventually I got over my physical health anxiety and haven’t been to the emergencies in 6 months. Sadly things have been much, much worse. Now my worries are purely mental health related. I switch between schizophrenia, bipolar and borderline personality disorder, and Dissociative Identity Disorder. Ive been sure that I have every one of these at one point or another. Some nights I’ll be sure I have schizophrenia or someone nights I’ll be worried about bi polar. I was prescribed lexapro a year ago but can never get myself to take it for more that a week. I’m suffering so bad, whenever I try to take medicine I get convinced I’m in mania and end up stopping the medicine. I want to take the medicine, but I get so scared that I’ll go into mania and loose my job and my girlfriend.But I need medicine, I spend hours at night researching mental health conditions. But I’m also a health freak and am into dieting and exercising and I try to tell myself that supplements and a large dose of cbd oil will do the trick that lexapro does. I’ve laid down on my floor convinced that I’m going to go into phycosis. l started experiencing dissociation, which made me start worrying I have DID. Im in a constant cycle of pain. I just want to feel better again. I can’t even go to to public highschool anymore. My senior year was ruined by my ocd. Every day I wake up fully convinced I will go insane. Deep down I know I won’t but I just can’t stop thinking it. Im begging for anyone to give me advice, or atleast for someone to talk to about it. My insta is Triston_keifer if anyone can give me some advice.
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