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Oh my goodness that sounds awefulll... I’m so sorry its so hard for you... if your not in contact with a certified therapist for ocd, i strongly recommend you get in contact with one- and you can do that through this platform if you need too. I totally understand your experience i have experienced the same in the past... its really hard... and awefull... but i have come a great long way since i started thank God... and you can see succes as well and I’m confident you will. It sounds like the issues your dealing with may be a little too icy to be addressed by posts on this chat, but we are with you every step of the way. Be brave. Hold on. Be strong. Don’t be afraid of talking this
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*not icy- big*
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One thing which can be helpful, just for now at least is, search up meditation for panic attacks by gentle soul on YouTube, hes very calming, and helpful wether you’re currently feeling like a mess or not
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Thank you.... I will try. But here's the thing... I have a serious case of Bronchitis. That's real. My anxiety... Isn't. When I have compulsions, they stop me from breathing & something like meditation turns into a panic attack & I feel like I'm going to die. I struggle to breathe and get dizzy. But I will try. I have to.
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Don’t give up! It took me several tries and years to find a helpful therapist. I was so straightforward with my current one on our first phone consult. Make a list of what worked and what didn’t and share that with therapists when you call them up. I’ve had therapists tell me they couldn’t help me, too. I’m grateful for their honesty, but it hurts. I’m sorry you feel abandoned.
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Thank you, hon. That was useful advice.
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Do you have a pet? Pets can really come in handy when you have depression or anxiety. And it gives you something to put your mind on because you have to take care of it. That’s my advice. Get something to take your mind off of your obsessions. Could be reading/writing a book, yoga, talking walks, dancing, or just whatever you love to do. I know this isn’t the best advice but it’s what helped me whenever I’m depressed. Just wanna let you know that you are welcomed in this community. We all have problems here but that’s what makes us a community. Ima put you in my morning prayer today. God bless.
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Thank you so much for that. It really means a lot to me.
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@SamanthaSarah No problem. Just wanted to let you know that you are loved. Every human has flaws and insecurities but that is what makes us human. No human is perfect. Even Lele Pons, a famous comedian, has OCD. We can make it and get through this. There is always a way. There’s a song I recommend called ‘Orange Juice’ by Melanie Martinez:)
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@sillybilly Thank you so much. Yeah, I'll check it out. I watched the video Lele put out and it was such a trigger - the accuracy. I'll be watching the rest of the series. She's done a good job with it.
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Have you reached out to any professional in the past?
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I have... I was in therapy but my therapist was afraid of me. Others just gave up hope. Everyone I've ever considered close, abandoned me or got pushed away. It reached a point where I wouldn't shower. I couldn't leave my bedroom. I couldn't go to work. Leftover food was rotting in my room. Nothing made me function, let lone happy. People that tried to help, I treated so badly & I didn't mean to & I'm guilty to this day about it. What triggered this out of proportion is when my ex cheated on me with my best friend & started to raise hands on me. I already come from a family of domestic violence. My mind is racing so fast. I obsess over absolutely everything. Then I clean... Non stop. I clean for hours. I mop the floor thrice per room. I keep changing the water after every room. I hate bad handwriting. I hate dog ear folds on pages. I hate loud noises or people yelling at me. I'm afraid to be alone. I'm afraid to be around people. I need someone to talk to. I don't want to die... But I don't want to live either. Thank you for showing me kindness.
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@SamanthaSarah Would you consider a residential treatment program for anxiety and depression? You may know all of the techniques but having that 24/7 support can be hugely important.
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@Fear Strikes Out What country do you reside?
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@Fear Strikes Out Unfortunately, India. If there's anything worse than the actual treatment process, its the stigma.
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If not it is crucial that you do.
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I've studied Psychology back in school and college and have covered Abnormal and Clinical psychology. The worst part? I know what a therapist is going to say and what counselling techniques they'll recommend. Which makes matters worse. It's so difficult with me because there is so much opposition for every type of solution you could think of. I'm a mess.
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I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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My ocd has been at an extreme all time high the past 2 weeks and I am in dire need of some relief. I’m not sleeping right anymore. for context: I live in the south and found a springtail on my sheets about 2 weeks ago. This was like 2 days before our bug guy came and sprayed (it’s a normal maintenance thing here) so it’s a common bug down here and I’ve found them all over different areas of the house before. Finding it in my bed sent me on a bit of a spiral bc I started to doubt if it even was a springtail and that i was wrong and that it was a bed bug, not trusting my brain. It was a bad, sleepless night and carried over continuing feelings. Typical ocd stuff. Well two days later, I’m a nurse and I had a patient that actually had bed bugs. This wasn’t the first day they were here and I did not see any myself but it still freaked me out. There had one 2 founds after visitors came the day before. Of course I wore PPE in the room (coveralls shoe covers and hair net) going in and took everything off before exiting the room. When I came home I stripped in my garage and bagged everything down to my shoes. Threw everything in the wash and did multiple cycles. There were no other steps I could take but I still had a terrible night. Hours of ruminating and going back and forth about tracing my tracks, thinking of new ways I could’ve taken one home with me. Just checking everything. I was already on a spiral from the springtail. Having two such back to back triggering events for me so closely related has made me deteriorate significantly. I was already doing bad with my normal OCD and starting therapy here. I obsess over the thought of having bedbugs constantly and haven’t been able to sleep. I am constantly checking my bed while in it and can’t settle down. My bed is heavy too and I keep hurting myself lifting my mattress to check. But I need to check. I’ve become obsessed. I check everything and go down Reddit rabbit holes looking for new things. And of course, I talk myself into it every time. I can’t take it anymore, it’s bleeding off into other parts of my life like friendship and marriage because I am so high anxiety right now. I need relief so bad. I’ve never felt this unstable to be honest. I feel like even someone without ocd would be really struggling with this topic, nevermind me, with ocd to a point where I just started treatment. These aren’t even my normal intrusive thoughts and compulsive acts. It’s just taken on a life in the last week and I can’t find any sign that it’s going to slow down. when I think rationally I know I did everything right to prevent but I can’t shake it. 💔
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