Guys I would like to hear your experiences: What is your theme and what exposures you'are doing. Right now I'm dealing with pocd and sensorimotor ocd and I'm doing self erp and I feel it's working,mindfulness has been helpful too,even though I'm not seeing a therapist.

That's nice Katie Is Indecision also a symptom of ocd? I didn't know that

@Diego It can be

*feared not geared

That's awesome Are you feeling better after the exposures?

@Diego Compared to before it’s better but I still get bad days if that makes sense, I’ve only been doing ERP for 2 and a half months so I think needs more practice?

@Evelyn4416 I think it's normal to have bad days But are you seeing a therapist or doing the exposures on your own?

@Diego I’m seeing a therapist but I do the exercises on my own now, when I see her we talk about how I have been doing and what new exercises to do

Hey! I struggled with HOCD more than half a year ago and without therapy i managed to deal with the thoughts and it doesn’t bother me anymore. It feels impossible now but i promise you will get better

@sunlight034 I feel like I can’t get over it because there’s evidence I might actually be gay even though the thought makes me sov

@Yikes1000X *so upset

@Yikes1000X what evidence are you talking about?

@sunlight034 When I was little I would look at naked women and get turned on and I’m still more turned on by naked women than naked men. I’ve kissed men and not totally loved it and I have a hard time with sex. On the flip side, I’m in love with a man, I’ve felt very physically attracted to a man (butterflies, sexual fantasies, etc.) and need porn to be between a man and a woman to be turned on. And I only get crushes on/want to be with men

I'm sorry you're going through this Exposures can be scary,but it will be worth it You got this

@Yikes1000X When you were little, it’s understandable for you to get turned on because you’re seeing something sexual and regardless of what it is you will get turned on because it’s sexual. If you have a hard time with sex, that doesn’t mean you’re not attracted to men. You need porn to be between a man and a women to be turned on, this shows you’re attracted to men. There are many straight females who can admit to being turned on by lesbian porn, it’s normal. You’re also in love with a man so of course you’re attracted to men. Your ocd will hyper focus on one thing and make you analyse it. That’s what you have to fight. Solving the thought isn’t the issue, the issue is fighting the need to solve the thought. That’s what you need to work on

@sunlight034 I just hate how real it seems. Like regardless of never questioning anything until my episodes, when it happens it’s like the world stops

@Diego Thank you, I know it will. I was doing so well and suddenly it just came back

@Yikes1000X that’s the trick, it convinces you it’s so real. i hate it too to be honest. it’s ruining my life, i don’t even want to have kids or have a husband or anything of the sort

@sunlight034 It really does suck. And it’s funny, because I’m an ally of the LGBT community. If I was gay, I don’t know why it would be such a problem aside from ocd

@Yikes1000X Yiked1000x and sunlight034, in skimming your conversation it seems to me that theres some reassurance seeking and providing going on. How can you move towards accepting uncertainty instead of arguing against the fear?

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I really don’t know, I’ve tried so hard to just let it go and accept it but I’m getting married so I almost think I have to know now? But, I know it’s not healthy and I try so hard not to give in. I wish I didn’t, I just feel really weak

@Yikes1000X Your OCD is taking advantage of a stressful life transition to trick you into giving it more power in your life

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I didn’t think of it that way. That’s really true. It only came back with a vengeance recently and I can see why.