Anonymous
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JennyJJennyJ
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Gay people know they're gay. And they've known for ages. Stop trying to find out. Take a leap of faith. Getting better is worth the risk.
AnonymousAnonymous
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❤️thank you. I think I’ll take that leap
Padders79Padders79
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Nothing is further from the truth, gay people, know they are gay, they want it and desire it... you are in a different category but even so you need to confront the thoughts with acceptance... ERP will be scary but if you stick to it you will get better and boobs will be just boobs and you will be able to look at them and say nice rack and not think anything of it... trust me... you are not alone!!! Check Chrissie Hodges on YouTube and go to ocdonline website and listen to Dr. Stephen Phillipson article called Choice. These things together with ERP and mindfulness will help you tremendously
AnonymousAnonymous
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Thank you so much. You’ve really given me hope. I appreciate you taking the time to help me, it’s really hard to see the light when you’re in the darkest places
Padders79Padders79
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@Yikes1000X I’ve been there! Something that threatens your very core is so f’ing scary and you are welcome... giving you a big digital hug from the UK and just hang in there... we who have OCD are monsters of strength that deal with the most horrific thoughts bashing our brains daily, sometimes every second of every moment we are awake!! When you get through this you will be so badass in other areas of your life
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Padders79 ❤️thank you so much
Padders79Padders79
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@Yikes1000X ?
Padders79Padders79
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There is a light at the end of the tunnel, you are just not seeing it!
Padders79Padders79
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Do it!! You can do this and sooooooooo many of us have felt the same way
Padders79Padders79
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CBT with ERP and then mindfulness... do those 3 things and you will get through this and gain tools that will make you even more bad ass!!! Think of how strong you need to be to deal with this bs daily, in every second of everyday!!!!
AnonymousAnonymous
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You’re so right. I know it won’t be comfortable at first but I don’t want to be like this forever. It’s ruining my relationship ironicakly
Padders79Padders79
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It won’t be like this forever! If you dive head first into ERP and do it with discipline and purpose you will see changes, big ones! When I first had this, I had it in silence for 10 years and it broke my heart everyday until I couldn’t take anymore and collapsed completely... I was and am married to the woman I love, the thought of loosing that then because I thought I was gay, game over, couldn’t hide it anymore, etc, etc I’m sure you know what I’m talking about. But something wasn’t right, that’s when I got help and with CBT I got my life back!! Fast fw 7 years and I relapsed, out of nowhere really but because I knew about CBT I went back in and this time did ERP, the results are to be seen!!! I’m not yet symptom free but feel my attraction for girls coming back (especially my wife) and my fake attraction to guys loosing power... OCD is a mofo, it will make you feel Gay 100% and it does it because it attacks what you love the most in my case girls and my wife!!! What OCD can’t tell you to do is to live a life you don’t want to so get CBT with ERP done and start doing meditation to deal with anxiety through mindfulness!!! Trust me when I say when you start feeling the results you will feel such joy!!!!! Good luck and stay strong !!!
AnonymousAnonymous
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Thank you. I’m only concerned because I’ve been turned on by boobs since I was a kid. And someone truly not gay wouldn’t have these memories. So I’m unsure if I’ll ever escape this
Padders79Padders79
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And there is a lot more to the female body than just boobs
Padders79Padders79
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Also talk to your therapist about everything, leave nothing out!!
AnonymousAnonymous
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I have talked to many therapists about it, and the spectrum of sexuality, and I still can’t let it go. I’m afraid this persistent thought will always ruin my relationships with men
Padders79Padders79
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Were the therapists CBT certified and specialised in ERP?
AnonymousAnonymous
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Sadly no. Most of the therapy was talking through the Kinsey scale and how I can like boobs and still be into my boyfriend. But I’m afraid that was just reassurance and it will never help me
Padders79Padders79
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@Yikes1000X F’ that... you have to do CBT and ERP, it will change your life!!!
Padders79Padders79
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Also what you just said there “this persistent thought will always ruin my relationships with men” seems to me to be the definition of an intrusive thought I.e. you don’t want these thoughts, they are intrusive and unwanted!
AnonymousAnonymous
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It really is. I think the turn on by boobs is mostly a porn/fetish thing for me and my brain won’t let it go. It’s very intrusive
Padders79Padders79
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@Yikes1000X Not necessarily, breasts are beautiful and thinking that doesn’t mean it’s a fetish... you are not alone in feeling this way!!
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Padders79 I meant more like I don’t think about women that way and I think about breasts in terms of my own and having men admire them! Like I think that’s why I get so turned on because I love men paying attention to mine. And it’s not like I’m seeking a woman for her breasts, it’s definitely related to me and my attitude towards my body. But even typing this my OCD is like this is just gay repression
Padders79Padders79
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Will you look into CBT with ERP treatment?
AnonymousAnonymous
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I have signed up to meet with a NOCD therapist next week. I just still hold these fears that when all is said and done ill realize I’m gay or bi and need to leave my boyfriend
Padders79Padders79
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OCD gives out a lot of fake memories!
AnonymousAnonymous
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No these were definitely real and it’s still real sadly
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