I can’t even handle this anymore, on Instagram there was a post with the names of black men that were killed and I had a thought that said my brother (who is 2) is gonna be on that list. I’m actually sobbing right now, what the actual fuck...I can’t even handle these thoughts right now....??.... its not even the brutality that’s triggering me, it’s just the thoughts that make it seem like the things that are happening are my personal issue, which they are not, I get it this is sad and terrible and needs to stop but at the end of the day, ocd is turning this into something that it’s not? I don’t wanna talk about this anymore... I’m done

This whole thing is just so sad. I am deleting social media for awhile because it seems like every thing I see in the news just makes me ruminate and ruminate even more and then I feel an immense amount of guilt and I’m like okay I have to post because everyone else is and I just ruminate and ruminate to the point to where I don’t even know what I actually feel because you have so many people yelling on social media, and then you have your voice on your head. A life was lost and that’s a fact and that is extremely heartbreaking and there is clearly a problem in this country, but I agree the social media is just terrible and it’s making my OCD worse.

❤️❤️❤️ I’m so sorry u feel that way its hard , OCD latches on to everything important to you and I understand that feeling ur post actually made me cry but its just OCD I know its hard but we can overcome it ❤️❤️❤️ u got this !!!

I would delete social media for a while. That’s what I did. It’s helped tremendously. Ocd is trying to make you scared, don’t give into the fear! Things are so bad right now with the riots and the police brutality it pains me to see how racist our country has become. But remember that there is hope and change is possible and I’m always here if you want to talk! I’m so sorry I can’t even begin to understand what you’re dealing with. But know I’m here!

lmao, who put the notice under my post, I’m not gonna kill myself ? I’m okay