Has anyone thought about something and have it come true? So for instance I thought about suicide and then one of my cousins committed suicide. I Think about something bad and then next thing I know it happens to me or someone I know. Now I'm having such bad anxiety about all these bad things that may happen to me and my family that I obsess over it causing me to extensively pray. It's exhausting and idk what to do or how to control it. I feel like every thought has or will come true that I'm having a hard time.

Happened once, I imagined someone dying and a few weeks later they died randomly. I knew that if I thought too much about it it could turn into just that kind of magical thinking loop, even though I didn't know I had OCD. So I've deliberately not ever dwelled on it, I occasionally have a thought about it or remember that it was eerie, but I refuse to spend extra time obsessing, so the feelings of anxiety and responsibility never got big and are easy to not dwell on. Rationally I know that reality doesn't work that way. I can see how it would be harder if it happened multiple times. That's a really sucky set of coincidences to happen to someone who already has OCD. But you need to go against it, yeah? In fact, deliberately thinking those thoughts would be the best way to quickly show your brain that the link isn't real. I'd actually recommend starting with things which feel less probable and less personal like "the USA could get nuked by North Korea and everyone will die", and working up to specific things like "my sibling could be hit by a car" and "one of my friends could fall down the stairs". Weirdly although the first one seems worse, it would probably cause less anxiety, so it could be a good lower step on the hierarchy for you. You know rationally that your thoughts can't make things happen, and you CAN prove that to your feelings. Go for something big and vague to start with, preferably something immediate. "A comet could hit the international space station today". Something that causes genuine anxiety because you're thinking it deliberately, but not a huge amount because it's also a bit ridiculous. Then response prevention: don't argue with it, don't imagine ways you could escape the disaster, don't ruminate on it, don't pray, just let that idea be there in your mind, and carry on with your day. Look at some lists online first about mental compulsions so you can identify all the things you mustn't do and be able to direct your attention away from doing them if you notice them starting. Tomorrow, boom, nothing happened. Then keep going, working up a hierarchy. The great thing about ERP is you don't have to start with flooding and scripting things which give you top tier anxiety, you can start with much lower ideas and build up your confidence as you go.

Or, maybe think hard about how awful it would be to win a $10M lottery (family, friends, et al, would be begging for money, you would become a recluse to avoid these people, you would die in a crash involving your cherished Maserati, etc.) and see what happens. But, maybe nore seriously, write down the names of a family member or two and state that you hope that the person(s) die in the next two weeks and then let us know what happens on June 15. We want to hear more evidence of your special powers.

Not your fault. I'm really on edge with everything. My OCD and anxiety are seriously debilitating at times. I wish I could shut it off. I dont know anyone that has this and nor does my family understand anything I'm going through so I feel isolated and alone to deal with this. I have a counselor but with this stupid virus we can only do zoom meetings and I feel I don't get the help I'm looking for when it's all virtual. I hate this and hate feeling so miserable all the time. I just wanna feel normal. I wouldn't long for such a feeling had I not known what that felt like but I do. My OCD was manageable when I was younger as it was just silly odd things separating colors,counting ect. But about a year ago I started having harm ocd and its terrifying to say the least

No. I have a regular counselor. I dont even know where to begin to look for one that specializes in ocd or erp

No, never heard of it. I'll check it out. Hopefully it's something I can utilize