Is racist ocd a thing? I've been having thoughts a lot lately if am I a racist? Or do I not like black people? Am I against them? I just want it to be know that I'm not against them, black lives matter! But I just keep on constantly having these thoughts and they are causing me distress cuz I don't want to be a racist. I even get feelings of not liking them even though they have done nothing wrong. I feel like a horrible person and want these to go away.

Same I'm worried I should be more outraged than I am.

@Lina Exactly! And of course I’ll do everything I can, but I’m just worried about my inner self / intentions.

Yeah I can relate I've started to have it more and more frequently.

@poni_poki What do you mean by looking at someone the wrong way?

@poni_poki I see what you're saying. I shouldn't even provide reassurance but I think the fact that we are worried about being racist means we are not. Yes we can do more and should continue in the future to support Black Lives. Because Black Lives Matter. Racist people don't give a crap if they are racist. They're awful human beings. I think we just think too much sometimes which can cause us to come to all these conclusions.

@Lina Also there is this Youtuber called Zoe Amira. She made a video to support Black Lives Matter. You watch the whole video through and don't skip the ads and all of the money goes towards bail organizations and other things. She explains it on her channel. There are instructions on how to do it. I'll be watching the video every day for a while to help support.

@Lina Yesss! I’ve been replaying it all day. Plus signing petitions and speaking out. It’s clear to me right now that I’m not racist. My anger and sympathy show me that. But there’s times where it fades and I get dropped into a pool of uncertainty. We’ve all just got to remember our hearts truly lay in a good place. To be anxious about it is proof. But sadly, that’s reassurance