sunlight034
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MJocdMJocd
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I have the same issues. OCD loves this sort of thing. The answer is accepting uncertainty.
sunlight034sunlight034
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you’re right, but it’s so difficult. i forget about it and it comes back to me again
b2192b2192
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Yep I'm exactly the same Its horrendous. If you want to talk about it feel free I'm not judgemental. Try not to give your thought any attention
sunlight034sunlight034
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i keep confessing to everyone and even last year on this app i kept confessing and i still don’t feel like i’m normal and i still feel weird, can i explain what it is to you (if you don’t mind )
b2192b2192
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Yeah OCD does that, it's awful. Honestly though what you are telling me does not shock me at all, you did not do anything bad. I'm not supposed to reassure you but I will on this occasion because I think it might help for now. I get this sometimes with my own children. My mind will say things like move your hand further down to their bits, but I'll just move my hand like further down the stomach to see if I get any arousal response.. sometimes I do but I know it's a false groinal response and I would never ever touch them inappropriately. I've just learnt to stop testing myself like that as it only makes you doubt yourself more. Everythime you get a memory/thought just dont pay attention to it. You might know its it's there but just focus yourself on to something else. Keep yourself busy. You may have the odd day where you relapse but this is normal just keep reminding yourself to not acknowledge the thoughts
sunlight034sunlight034
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you’re so right ong, thank you so much?i’m going to learn to accept uncertainty and move on
b2192b2192
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Ovcourse you can, we've no idea who each other is so it really doesnt matter. I have the same problem Share anything you want.
sunlight034sunlight034
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alright thank you. basically this happened last year when i was 14 (i’m 15 turning 16 now) so, there was this newborn baby staying over at my house and everything was fine and normal. i knew i had ocd at this time because i’d literally just got through months of hocd torment and i’d read about POCD so i was so afraid to get that as well. so this one time i was playing with the baby and i kissed it on the lips and it licked my lip. so i panicked and thought that was weird and wrong and disgusting. so, to prove to myself that it’s not weird and it’s normal and i didn’t do anything wrong, i placed my lips on the baby and waited for it to lick me again and i did thsi repetitively bc i was panicking. now, when i look back at this it gives me intense anxiety and even back then i felt so disgusted and weird and i kept asking for reassurance. i forgot about it for months and just accepted the uncertainty and told myself i’d never harm a baby and didn’t have bad intentions. but now, (especially during lockdown) my ocd thoughts are getting worse and worse and i keep on reminiscing about the past. so many people have told me to move on and forget it but i can’t. i DONT forgive myself. I CANT. i know that i wasn’t trying to hurt the baby and it didn’t give me any arousal or anything at all but to this day i still question myself and wonder WHY i did that and my brain keeps telling me i’m forgetting why i did it and maybe i wanted it to lick me. i just can’t get it out of my head. i wrote it down this morning and ripped it up so i can move on but it’s still circling back and forth in my head
Fear Strikes OutFear Strikes...
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@sunlight034 Have you seen an OCD therapist? I can almost literally feel the emotional turmoil you are experiencing. This is an area that you can really benefit from mindfulness and Acceptance and Commitment Therapy. You can learn some self-compassion.
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I have a horrible memory from childhood and Adult memory and it terrifies me. I did a sexual thing with my dog, and I feel sick everytime I think about it. I would have let it go if i were a child but the fact i done it again ad an adult haunts me
sunlight034sunlight034
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there are people who film themselves doing stuff with animals and it’s a whole fetish for them. you did it once and it sounds like you regret it. it’s not a part of you and you have to allow yourself to move on
b2192b2192
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Yeah I dont have any feelings like that what so ever like I still try and figure out exactly why I did these things. I didnt have sex with the dog but it's still doesnt make it ok. I think it just felt normal at the time and I hate a point in my life where I was like omg this isnt normal. And I just stopped Then years later i suddenly start obsessing and feeling like a monster
sunlight034sunlight034
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well that’s not you anymore and you understand that now. you have to speak to a therapist about thsi because it sounds like it bothers you a lot
b2192b2192
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Hit a point *
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b2192b2192
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Yeah that's so true I keep telling my self that.
b2192b2192
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It really does, yeah I'm hoping to when this lockdown ends. Its strange isnt it how we advise each other that we should move on yet we cant tell yourself the same thing Like OCD has such a hold on out own self
b2192b2192
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Sorry my auto correct is horrendous ha How old are you btw, just curious?
sunlight034sunlight034
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sorry for the late reply, i’m 15 and 16 in a month
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