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Jake, please remember the path to recovery is not linear. There might be ups and down. Also, if your mind says, “it’s not OCD,” then use ERP for that thought! “It might or might not be my OCD, I am going to accept the uncertainty and move on.” Also, I feel like... you trying to see if you are feeling better is becoming part of your OCD. Maybe use ERP for that thought too? “I might never get better. Who knows.” I know it’s hard but you have come this far! I have faith you can do this. Just accept uncertainty & keep doing what you need to!
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Jakeman you got this bro. I'm going through the same thing. It's a debilitating and cruel disorder and it sucks. Keep fighting the fight.
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I’ve experienced this too at first, I’m a month in treatment and I’m seeing more progress. But I also go from 0 reassurance for a few days, to then all of a sudden asking for it like 7 times in one hour like AH. But listen, Don’t give up!! Like Jenn said, it’s not linear! And you are doing so well by cutting the number of reassurance down by so much! Celebrate those victories too. And Always keep doing scripts on each obsession it throws at you. Ocd gets threatened everytime you do ERP and it’ll keep throwing you more obsessions, but don’t worry because ocd does this when it’s being threatened and it wants to keep alive. Everytime it gives you another obsession, write a script/loop tape on it. Every single time. Don’t give up!!!! I promise you it gets better!!!!!
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Someone pls respond haha
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Hello jake I’m going through the same thing well I was in a sort. I know that erp is tough and we have to be self disciplined and do not do compulsions. Though it’s hard, we have to just agree with the thought. Like “yeah okay” what you say. Is what I say. Some times when I haven’t been on top of my erp I get those feelings where this isn’t OCD this is reality. I remind myself that is exactly what ocd wants me to think. It’s playing tricks. So during some erp I have incorporated the it’s not ocd into my scripts. Such as “this isn’t ocd, this is real.” And I would respond like “yup, your sooo right” and laugh about it. Do this for 15 minutes give it a try or do it until you no longer feel bothered by it. Though we don’t want it to be real ocd wants us to think that way. So we must be smart. Agree with the thought accept uncertainty and move on
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We are with you! You got this!!
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- 25w
Lately my OCD has been very horrible, it’s been more convincing than ever to the point where I’m genuinely convinced that I like this stuff, when I get a thought, I’ll hear my intrusive thoughts go “oooh, I like that, I’d do that.” and I just don’t freak out nor feel bad, I just feel like I like it even more, and feel like I would do/act on it and like it, and the feeling is strong and it lingers forever? It genuinely feels like I do, and I’m just lying now, i can’t tell if I make these thoughts worse or anything All I remember mostly just being like confused sometimes when these thoughts happen, but since I’m getting strong emotions that I like it, my brain says that means I did and I’m worried about that being true because I don’t understand nor know It’s like I am resisting to like this stuff now, it’s even tougher now than it was before
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- 19w
some days I wake up with so much dread and guilt. It makes it so hard to keep going. I open my eyes and I’m hit with a wave of nausea and terror. I feel ashamed of my compulsions and my OCD. I feel like a monster for my checking compulsions. For momentarily sexualizing things that shouldn’t be sexualized out of anxiety. I’m ashamed of a lot that I give into because of anxiety. Confessing things that are meaningless to my boyfriend. I feel so awful and unworthy of existing and of love. I feel hopeless I don’t want to keep pushing, the more I push the more meta my OCD becomes and the more guilt I feel for this mental illness. The more confusing it becomes to do ERP. If compulsions are a choice, they feel like life or death and it’s driving me insane, I beat myself up so badly over them I’m scared of compulsions, I’m scared of thoughts, I’m scared to be awake, I’m even scared of sleeping because my intrusions and compulsions haunt me there too. I spend my dreams trying to explain or justify my OCD and compulsions to people. I’m exhausted, I want this to stop so badly. My severe OCD isn’t feeling any less severe and it’s been months. I don’t want to keep questioning my every move but I’m so hyperaware of everything I do. I’m so tired. Some days I don’t even have tears to cry with. I’m just so full of despair and shame
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I find while doing exposures, rarely does my anxiety lessen. It usually amps up and stays that way for the remainder of the day. I could be having a fairly decent day, but dutifully do my exposures and then the rest of my day is anxiety filled. I guess that’s just how it is now? Also, I’m wondering if my therapist even believes I have OCD. I totally understand my therapist cannot provide reassurance. But it’s to the point it seems my therapist acts like I actually did the thing I fear. I feel so isolated.
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