Guys I’m struggling. So I’ve been doing erp and my therapist is amazing. She’s supportive and doesn’t reassure me which is good for OCD. I’m so frustrated because I’m not feeling better yet. It’s SO FRUSTRATING. I’ve gotten my reassurance down from 200 times a day to like 5 times a day. It’s unbelievable. At the same time, I still feel horrible. I can go a few days with 0 reassurance, but then it will go back up to 10-15 reassurance a day. I get so bad at 0 reassurance that I give in. My ocd will tell me “you might not have ocd” and “this plan won’t work.” Then I get so discouraged. It literally convinces me I don’t have ocd. I NEED MOTIVATION TO do 0 reassurance FOREVER. I need motivation TO PUSH THROUGH A FEW WERKS OF TOUGHNESS AT 0 reassurance TO BEAT THIS. I also am not ruminating as much and I never avoid anymore. The main fear is that I don’t have ocd. I’m also getting frustrated lately because It will convince me on autopilot that “I can’t enjoy politics” and “I don’t like girls”. It attacks everything I love. I also feel like I’m so out of it sometimes. I’m working so hard. Just need that motivation to keep going. My ocd mainly makes me feel doom and down. That’s why it bothers me. I’m working on accepting it and not doing reassurance!

Jennnn

Date posted: 5y

Jake, please remember the path to recovery is not linear. There might be ups and down. Also, if your mind says, “it’s not OCD,” then use ERP for that thought! “It might or might not be my OCD, I am going to accept the uncertainty and move on.” Also, I feel like... you trying to see if you are feeling better is becoming part of your OCD. Maybe use ERP for that thought too? “I might never get better. Who knows.” I know it’s hard but you have come this far! I have faith you can do this. Just accept uncertainty & keep doing what you need to!

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Jakeman you got this bro. I'm going through the same thing. It's a debilitating and cruel disorder and it sucks. Keep fighting the fight.

Ocd_istheworst

Date posted: 5y

I’ve experienced this too at first, I’m a month in treatment and I’m seeing more progress. But I also go from 0 reassurance for a few days, to then all of a sudden asking for it like 7 times in one hour like AH. But listen, Don’t give up!! Like Jenn said, it’s not linear! And you are doing so well by cutting the number of reassurance down by so much! Celebrate those victories too. And Always keep doing scripts on each obsession it throws at you. Ocd gets threatened everytime you do ERP and it’ll keep throwing you more obsessions, but don’t worry because ocd does this when it’s being threatened and it wants to keep alive. Everytime it gives you another obsession, write a script/loop tape on it. Every single time. Don’t give up!!!! I promise you it gets better!!!!!

jakemen20

Date posted: 5y

Someone pls respond haha

OCDwon’tconq...

Date posted: 5y

Hello jake I’m going through the same thing well I was in a sort. I know that erp is tough and we have to be self disciplined and do not do compulsions. Though it’s hard, we have to just agree with the thought. Like “yeah okay” what you say. Is what I say. Some times when I haven’t been on top of my erp I get those feelings where this isn’t OCD this is reality. I remind myself that is exactly what ocd wants me to think. It’s playing tricks. So during some erp I have incorporated the it’s not ocd into my scripts. Such as “this isn’t ocd, this is real.” And I would respond like “yup, your sooo right” and laugh about it. Do this for 15 minutes give it a try or do it until you no longer feel bothered by it. Though we don’t want it to be real ocd wants us to think that way. So we must be smart. Agree with the thought accept uncertainty and move on

Jennnn

Date posted: 5y

We are with you! You got this!!

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