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Jake, please remember the path to recovery is not linear. There might be ups and down. Also, if your mind says, “it’s not OCD,” then use ERP for that thought! “It might or might not be my OCD, I am going to accept the uncertainty and move on.” Also, I feel like... you trying to see if you are feeling better is becoming part of your OCD. Maybe use ERP for that thought too? “I might never get better. Who knows.” I know it’s hard but you have come this far! I have faith you can do this. Just accept uncertainty & keep doing what you need to!
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Jakeman you got this bro. I'm going through the same thing. It's a debilitating and cruel disorder and it sucks. Keep fighting the fight.
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I’ve experienced this too at first, I’m a month in treatment and I’m seeing more progress. But I also go from 0 reassurance for a few days, to then all of a sudden asking for it like 7 times in one hour like AH. But listen, Don’t give up!! Like Jenn said, it’s not linear! And you are doing so well by cutting the number of reassurance down by so much! Celebrate those victories too. And Always keep doing scripts on each obsession it throws at you. Ocd gets threatened everytime you do ERP and it’ll keep throwing you more obsessions, but don’t worry because ocd does this when it’s being threatened and it wants to keep alive. Everytime it gives you another obsession, write a script/loop tape on it. Every single time. Don’t give up!!!! I promise you it gets better!!!!!
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Someone pls respond haha
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Hello jake I’m going through the same thing well I was in a sort. I know that erp is tough and we have to be self disciplined and do not do compulsions. Though it’s hard, we have to just agree with the thought. Like “yeah okay” what you say. Is what I say. Some times when I haven’t been on top of my erp I get those feelings where this isn’t OCD this is reality. I remind myself that is exactly what ocd wants me to think. It’s playing tricks. So during some erp I have incorporated the it’s not ocd into my scripts. Such as “this isn’t ocd, this is real.” And I would respond like “yup, your sooo right” and laugh about it. Do this for 15 minutes give it a try or do it until you no longer feel bothered by it. Though we don’t want it to be real ocd wants us to think that way. So we must be smart. Agree with the thought accept uncertainty and move on
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We are with you! You got this!!
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Hey everyone it’s been a while since I posted on here. Honestly, I try to stay off of this app unless I really need advice because I find it triggering at times. But right now I’m feeling pretty down and just would like some hopeful and helpful advice. Has anyone ever felt like they’re just not capable of getting out of this? Has anyone ever felt like ERP therapy isn’t working or that they just can’t get it’s a click? . I’ve been in ERP therapy for over a year just about a year and a half actually and I literally feel so stagnant and stuck still. I show up every week I do my exposures, but my body is in such a chronic fight or fight all the time that it feels almost impossible to apply the tools. I’m super sensitive to begin with and I feel things very deeply and because of that it feels like I’m not gonna be able to ever change. It feels like no matter what I do or experience I’m just gonna always feel it so deeply and it’s gonna just rattle me all of the time. I’m honestly so frustrated. I’m tired and I’m overwhelmed. I so badly wanna change these patterns that I have and grow and be out of this OCD spiral, but everything just feels impossible. I’m just wondering if I’m alone here?? Has anyone ever felt this way? Has ERP taken a long time for anyone else or am I the only one that just can’t get my brain to click with it? Any encouraging and helpful words would be greatly appreciated thank you 🙏
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So been trying to do erp with my therapist for a while now, and tis really hard and feels like it's not working. Il get this weird sensation or feeling that makes me feel"gay" or as if I'm attracted to someone, and I know my therapist keeps telling me" you don't have to put meaning into the thoughts or feelings" but that seems impossible to do because and I'm sorry to say, it makes me feel that specific way. And I'll use the Erp quotes, "maybe maybe not" or"the more I struggle, the worse it gets" or"these feelings and thoughts are here, but I'm choosing to let them be" and I'll do nothing and try to let it be here but it's so distracting and feels very real, and it's like this sensation, small or big and it last all day, and even just sitting with it isn't working. And my therapist will tell me"you don't have to believe in it" and I'm sorry I feel like if it were that easy, OCD would have never been a problem in the first place, or live with uncertainty, however it doesn't feel like uncertainty, but feels very truthful or valid. Idk what I'm doing wrong tho
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