Guys I’m struggling. So I’ve been doing erp and my therapist is amazing. She’s supportive and doesn’t reassure me which is good for OCD. I’m so frustrated because I’m not feeling better yet. It’s SO FRUSTRATING. I’ve gotten my reassurance down from 200 times a day to like 5 times a day. It’s unbelievable. At the same time, I still feel horrible. I can go a few days with 0 reassurance, but then it will go back up to 10-15 reassurance a day. I get so bad at 0 reassurance that I give in. My ocd will tell me “you might not have ocd” and “this plan won’t work.” Then I get so discouraged. It literally convinces me I don’t have ocd. I NEED MOTIVATION TO do 0 reassurance FOREVER. I need motivation TO PUSH THROUGH A FEW WERKS OF TOUGHNESS AT 0 reassurance TO BEAT THIS. I also am not ruminating as much and I never avoid anymore. The main fear is that I don’t have ocd. I’m also getting frustrated lately because It will convince me on autopilot that “I can’t enjoy politics” and “I don’t like girls”. It attacks everything I love. I also feel like I’m so out of it sometimes. I’m working so hard. Just need that motivation to keep going. My ocd mainly makes me feel doom and down. That’s why it bothers me. I’m working on accepting it and not doing reassurance!

Username: JennnnJennnn

Date posted: 4y ago

Jake, please remember the path to recovery is not linear. There might be ups and down. Also, if your mind says, “it’s not OCD,” then use ERP for that thought! “It might or might not be my OCD, I am going to accept the uncertainty and move on.” Also, I feel like... you trying to see if you are feeling better is becoming part of your OCD. Maybe use ERP for that thought too? “I might never get better. Who knows.” I know it’s hard but you have come this far! I have faith you can do this. Just accept uncertainty & keep doing what you need to!

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 4y ago

Jakeman you got this bro. I'm going through the same thing. It's a debilitating and cruel disorder and it sucks. Keep fighting the fight.

Username: Ocd_istheworstOcd_istheworst

Date posted: 4y ago

I’ve experienced this too at first, I’m a month in treatment and I’m seeing more progress. But I also go from 0 reassurance for a few days, to then all of a sudden asking for it like 7 times in one hour like AH. But listen, Don’t give up!! Like Jenn said, it’s not linear! And you are doing so well by cutting the number of reassurance down by so much! Celebrate those victories too. And Always keep doing scripts on each obsession it throws at you. Ocd gets threatened everytime you do ERP and it’ll keep throwing you more obsessions, but don’t worry because ocd does this when it’s being threatened and it wants to keep alive. Everytime it gives you another obsession, write a script/loop tape on it. Every single time. Don’t give up!!!! I promise you it gets better!!!!!

Username: jakemen20jakemen20

Date posted: 4y ago

Someone pls respond haha

Username: OCDwon’tconquermeOCDwon’tconq...

Date posted: 4y ago

Hello jake I’m going through the same thing well I was in a sort. I know that erp is tough and we have to be self disciplined and do not do compulsions. Though it’s hard, we have to just agree with the thought. Like “yeah okay” what you say. Is what I say. Some times when I haven’t been on top of my erp I get those feelings where this isn’t OCD this is reality. I remind myself that is exactly what ocd wants me to think. It’s playing tricks. So during some erp I have incorporated the it’s not ocd into my scripts. Such as “this isn’t ocd, this is real.” And I would respond like “yup, your sooo right” and laugh about it. Do this for 15 minutes give it a try or do it until you no longer feel bothered by it. Though we don’t want it to be real ocd wants us to think that way. So we must be smart. Agree with the thought accept uncertainty and move on

Username: JennnnJennnn

Date posted: 4y ago

We are with you! You got this!!

Username: jakemen20

Date posted: 4y ago

I’m having a meltdown! Help! I have been reducing my reassurance lately. I went from 250 to now like 20 times. Huge jump in last month. But I feel absolutely awful still because it’s ERP and it gets worse before you get better. I’m so on edge so the slightest things trigger me. I’ve been having a horrible meltdown for an hour screaming at top of my lungs. I just want ERP TO Work!!! I’m putting in so much effort. I believe I’m getting closer but these meltdowns are horrible. Hopefully it’s a good sign that erp is working because the ocd is mad. Anyone else experience this in ERP? It’s such a huge change and I want my life back so bad! During this meltdown, my ocd has told me that I’m never going to get better and I’m scared.

Username: jakemen20

Date posted: 4y ago

Guys I’ve been working my butt off at ERP and getting my reassurance down to 0. At same time, I feel so awful and am so worked up over the fact that I’m not feeling better yet. I’m so worked up. I feel like this will never get better. I’m so sad. Idk what to do. I love my therapist and believe in my erp plan, but I don’t feel results yet after so much hard work. I’m drained and want my life back.

Username: joeyharringt...

Date posted: 3y ago

Anyone else find ERP incredibly difficult? My OCD does not want any part of it. I feel helpless because I keep giving into compulsions and a small part of me knows that the only way out is to stop compulsions. My OCD says otherwise, however. It has even gone so far to convince me that I actually cannot ever accept uncertainty and I find it so hard to not believe it. I know I will only ever find out if I stop compulsions but it is so damn hard and now OCD is getting in the way of my school work. One week I'm highly motivated and ready to fight, then the next week I'm so low and cannot stop ruminating. Then when I want to try again I know I'll just give in again. Much love for anyone suffering from this nonsense.

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