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Hi. You’re not alone, I have a lot of the same thoughts. You’re not crazy either; it’s the OCD making you feel like that. It’s worse at night for me too. I know it can be really hard to relax when you have intrusive thoughts. I don’t know what might help you, but for me I sometimes listen to podcasts or mediations and sometimes it makes the thoughts calm down a little. I hope maybe it will help you too. I want you to know that you’re not alone, and it won’t always be like this. Be well.
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I've never been so open about this and I'm literally crying because I thought that I'm the only one. This means so much. It's a really great idea. I've noticed that I become more calm when I listen or watch something. I guess I just feel more stressed when I'm alone.
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I totally understand you I'm just like you when I was younger I was scared of ghosts or something like that and like you as long as I remember myself I'm always scared of somethings but I'm not afraid of roller coasters or somethings like that for example now I'm scared of what if I became psychopath or schizophrenic or something like that so don't think that you're alone in this I hope you will get better soon
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- 4y ago
I have a friend who I believe has OCD but isn't diagnosed, she's exactly the same and can't stand being left alone or being in the dark, she also gets feelings that she's being watched if she is alone and gets hyper aware of her own behaviour. I'm very confident that with exposure to the stuff that scares you and finding that you can survive all of it, you can become a really confident and flexible person. Remember, courage isn't the absence of fear, it's doing what's best in spite of the fear. You don't have to feel stupid or ashamed.
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I still suffer with the same theme. I currently have hocd on the front of my mind, but from like 11 on I stopped being able to comfortably sleep alone because I was afraid that I would wake up and see something standing over me. Creepy shit DID happen in my house, but nothing ever, ever, ever happened that should have made me react like that. I still hate sleeping alone it fucking terrifies me. As a teenager I would call my friend at like 1:00 AM to come get me so that I didn't have to sleep in a room alone. Now I live with my boyfriend and when he gets up to use the bathroom in the middle of the night I always wake up and have to cover my head with the blanket because I get scared. From the ages 11 to only like a year ago I alway used to have to sleep with my head covered with my blanket. If I sleep at my parent house I still have to. It's weird If I go literally anywhere other than my parents house that sleeping with the blanket over my head ritual goes away. It was really bad because I would get so hot under the blanket that I'd always wake up in a pool of sweat.
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I know exactly how you feel. I'm also scared to go to sleep. Sometimes I'm so so tired but I just dont try to fall asleep because I dont want to close my eyes. Sometimes i just see some messed up images in my head and I leave a light on because it makes me not that scared. I go to sleep like at 4 o'clock because then there is morning light outside, so I feel more comfortable.
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@LaBeta When I lived with my parents and that theme was really bad I used to stay up late because I would get caught up watching videos on my phone and stuff like that. If I realized that I wanted to go to sleep and it was too close to 3:00 AM I would force myself to stay awake until daylight broke as a compulsion.
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Im really scared of ghosts and feel paranoid at times :( I’m 21
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I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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Hi I kept seeing this app on repeat on TikTok over and over and I thought I give it a shot. I have never been diagnosed with OCD but I know that I have it. I’m a young adult and I found out the first time I had OCD was watching lelelons truth video? I was 14 at the time She had to resist sitting back down in a chair after her having sat down she started having a mental break down when she was told to resist. That’s when I knew. It started with myself going up and down a staircase twice buckling unbuckling my seat belt everytime I’m in the car ect I have always been super anti social but trying my best I can socialize but my mind wants to make it sexual with family and friends ughhhh I hate it because that’s not me when I graduated thoughts of hurting my loved ones corrupted my mind I broke down outside of church one time asking if this was really me or not i question if I’m a good enough friend or person in this world to begin with thinking everyone is judging me so so close how can I make this situation better did I do something wrong I struggle with depression as well not to bad but it’s there I come from a loving family but broken as well i believe in god and my OCD makes me go often he’s not real that stuff isn’t real no one is there to save you the list goes on. Anyway I struggle a lot and I really hope that this will help me because I feel extremely hopeless. Lucky for me I do have the ability to seek therapy and I am excited. The only person I ever tell my thoughts to is God no other human has heard so I’m really really hoping this helps me out if your reading this thank you it means a lot because this is my first time ever admitting all this it’s a lot to take in I know and I hope you are ok and that you have a great night and know that we got this
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does anyone else with this theme hate to be alone?? i deadass get panic attacks when i’m left alone and i sit and watch the time until whoever is coming back because im so scared. i get scared that when im alone im going to lose control and act on my thoughts. my mind goes “oh your alone now nobody would know” or “your alone so you won’t feel guilt”. i hate this so much and as much as i try to deal with it i feel it never gets better. it doesn’t help that i have agoraphobia now either. i need tips!
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