Hello, I joined here like seconds ago and started reading everything on community page and what can I say - at least we are in this together. But I really feel alone sometimes and I feel like I'm crazy or like the only one on this planet with such thoughts. As long as I can remember myself i was always scared. Not like heights, physical things or going on a crazy adventure. I was and still am a pretty adventurous person. I was scared mostly when I was alone. For example, when I was younger ghosts or something like that. And I always thought that I will grow out of it. I'm 20 now and I'm still scared of something bigger than me, I feel like something strange will happen if I dont do things that my mind tells me. There was a time when It got better and I wasn't so afraid, but for the last couple of months it's been the worst. I cant even go out for a run because I know that when I get home I will have to go through the hall way to my flat and im scared. Almost every night my boyfriend walks me to my door. I feel stupid and ashamed. I dont know what to do. I cant control these thoughts. While writing this I had like 5 of them. In the evening its always worse. Is there anyone like me? I really feel lost and alone..

Hi. You’re not alone, I have a lot of the same thoughts. You’re not crazy either; it’s the OCD making you feel like that. It’s worse at night for me too. I know it can be really hard to relax when you have intrusive thoughts. I don’t know what might help you, but for me I sometimes listen to podcasts or mediations and sometimes it makes the thoughts calm down a little. I hope maybe it will help you too. I want you to know that you’re not alone, and it won’t always be like this. Be well.

I totally understand you I'm just like you when I was younger I was scared of ghosts or something like that and like you as long as I remember myself I'm always scared of somethings but I'm not afraid of roller coasters or somethings like that for example now I'm scared of what if I became psychopath or schizophrenic or something like that so don't think that you're alone in this I hope you will get better soon

I have a friend who I believe has OCD but isn't diagnosed, she's exactly the same and can't stand being left alone or being in the dark, she also gets feelings that she's being watched if she is alone and gets hyper aware of her own behaviour. I'm very confident that with exposure to the stuff that scares you and finding that you can survive all of it, you can become a really confident and flexible person. Remember, courage isn't the absence of fear, it's doing what's best in spite of the fear. You don't have to feel stupid or ashamed.

I still suffer with the same theme. I currently have hocd on the front of my mind, but from like 11 on I stopped being able to comfortably sleep alone because I was afraid that I would wake up and see something standing over me. Creepy shit DID happen in my house, but nothing ever, ever, ever happened that should have made me react like that. I still hate sleeping alone it fucking terrifies me. As a teenager I would call my friend at like 1:00 AM to come get me so that I didn't have to sleep in a room alone. Now I live with my boyfriend and when he gets up to use the bathroom in the middle of the night I always wake up and have to cover my head with the blanket because I get scared. From the ages 11 to only like a year ago I alway used to have to sleep with my head covered with my blanket. If I sleep at my parent house I still have to. It's weird If I go literally anywhere other than my parents house that sleeping with the blanket over my head ritual goes away. It was really bad because I would get so hot under the blanket that I'd always wake up in a pool of sweat.

Im really scared of ghosts and feel paranoid at times :( I’m 21