dmuhnyyy
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AnonymousAnonymous
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Hi, I'm really sorry you're struggling so much. And I completely understand how terrifying and scary it can be. I'm dealing with the same issue. However, mine goes even further. Sometimes I have thoughts where I come up with excuses for paedophilia, such children are sweet and cute, and things like this. It's terrible as I can't tell if I mean or not, if it's actually me or just my OCD playing with me. To make it even more difficult, these thoughts don't even seems intrusive anymore... My heart is pounding so fast as I'm typing this. I feel a lot, lot of shame and guilt. I'm sorry.
dmuhnyyydmuhnyyy
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No it’s ok. I understand what you’re going through. That’s what my brain is doing, finding excuses for it. And it seems reasonable, but then you’re like ‘omg what?!’ It’s insane. I am so sorry you are going through this
AnonymousAnonymous
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@dmuhnyyy Yes, exactly, that's my reaction as well. I ask myself 'how am I able to think something like this?!'. I hate it more than anything. It's terrible.
dmuhnyyydmuhnyyy
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@corablue It really is. But we have to treat this like any other thoughts/feelings. Remember ocd can give you false feelings as well.
egg101egg101
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Easer said then done I know but everytime we argue with it or try to analyse it or take It personaly we confirm its right to be heard were engaging with it attention is what it wants and it gets it because it freaks us out
dmuhnyyydmuhnyyy
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You are right. I am engaging with it way too much and answering to it too much
egg101egg101
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Hi don't beat yourself up ocd can tell us anything Dont run with it don't play the game see it as what it is a thought nothing more
dmuhnyyydmuhnyyy
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I made the mistake and I’m trying to reason with it... and now it’s taken over
OCDkyleOCDkyle
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Happens to me all the time
dmuhnyyydmuhnyyy
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REALLY?! Ugh I know we shouldn’t seek reassurance but I feel like such a monster. I want to find out if I agree so bad, but I can’t keep giving it attention
nicehazardsnicehazards
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@dmuhnyyy Use exposure and other ERP techniques.
egg101egg101
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Yer it pulls on are attention but it helps if your aware what it's doing then you can try distencing yourself from it
dmuhnyyydmuhnyyy
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What do you mean?
sierrapandasierrapanda
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I myself am a mother and struggle with this alot trying to make sure that I'm not harming my children some how. I've been through sexual abuse as a child and have a hard time with intimate relationships as far as it goes with my husband because I have flash backs and thoughts that I'm harming or will harm my children but he knows that I'm not actually that way. I was scared of talking to a therapist about this cuz I thought my children would be taken away from me for being such a horrible person. But if you truly hate those thoughts and think you're a monster because of those thoughts then that shows you're the opposite of a monster. You just care so deeply that you don't want anyone hurt. ❤️ You're not alone. Don't suffer in silence. Many people don't understand this is simply just a disorder and nothing more.
dmuhnyyydmuhnyyy
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Thank you for this honey. I really do appreciate it. I have an appointment with my therapist today. I am so excited. I don’t want to think this way. I don’t want to feel sorry for pedophiles!!
egg101egg101
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Its a horrible condition I hate hearing people like you suffering this get well soon
dmuhnyyydmuhnyyy
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It is the worst thing to ever happen to me. But thank you. I appreciate your kindness and any advice
egg101egg101
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Your welcome
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