I have so so much anxiety all the fucking time. I feel like I’m going to lose my mind.

Well the great news is your not alone. You just described to me my exact symptoms and side affects to a tee!! You can get better and the first step to conquering any anxiety or disorder of OCD is to first accept that you have it in the first place. What came first? The anxiety? Or the depression?? If your depressed because you’ve had severe anxiety for so kind that over time it has now become draining which has led to your depression then as soon as you can begin to correct your depression than your anxiety will begin to lift. By accepting your brain you will and can change. You need to jump off the potty me wagon and start to fucking live your life the way life is supposed to be lived. Hard childhood ?? Maybe !! Me too. Divorced? Trauma in life ? Or did you just grow up thinking negatively ?? It’s not the anxiety that’s your problem. People with anxiety and depression often get confused and believe that if only I was not anxious this would all go away. Everyone including every professional that treats anxiety will tell you they all have intrusive thoughts! The difference is between people like them and people like us is how we REACT to the thoughts to begin with. Your thoughts will not hurt you . Fear is not real it is simply an imagination of something that is likely to happen that almost never does. Worry.! Waste of fucking time. I’ve spent 36 years worried and nearly everything I have worries about is all irrational.. irrational to rational. Ask yourself with every thought you have is this real ? Or am I scaring myself again. Look at what has evidence in your life to your every thought. You have low self esteem, your insecure and your worried about the future. You can get your power back by taking the risk and using ERP combined with CBT. If your confused about those let me know some of your worst thoughts and I’ll give you examples on how to talk to yourself. Accept that part of your brain is broken and learn to live with your fears and thoughts. When your no longer afraid of your every move in life that you describe above then the fears stop coming and that is ERP. Challenging your brain. Bringing on the anxiety sitting with it no matter how fucking scary it is and believe in yourself. Good chance you have tons of amazingly great personal traits all people with anxiety do so focus on the good in your life. Open up to the ones that you are afraid to tell about your condition and you’ll find relief immediately. OCD is a beast and has very little care for us so don’t care for it. When your able to have a thought a fear a worry and actually ask for more say is that all you got. Demand more !! When you demand your fears when your not afraid you’ll find they will not come reason being is because your not afraid anymore and that’s when you get your power back. When you let your thoughts be they will let you be and your talking to someone who has had the worst fucking cases of OCD from ruminations, thoughts of killing my entire family for years ! Obsessions about being Schizophrenic or bi polar and thinking I’d be locked up if anyone knew my secret yet I’m one of the most successful people I know. I have an amazing wife and two beautiful boys. OCD will attack what’s most dear to your heart so keep that in mind because there is a real good chance that most of your thoughts are completely irrational and serve you very little purpose in life. If you wanna change you need to dedicate 100%. Eat right !! Wake early daily and I mean daily for morning meditation and exercise way before you even go to work ! Trust me. Knowledge is power so educate yourself on this condition. OCD stories ! Down load 11$ per month and listen to podcasts. Audible app and down load ocd anxiety panic attacks and related depression. 8 fucking hours of amazing shit that will get you on your way. DARE book on audible get it too great for depression. CBT every thought that hits your mind. Counter it but don’t make it a compulsion just make it your beliefs. Your thoughts are not real ! So don’t buy into the bull shit and start to figure out how you got this bad to begin with. When I look at myself I know where it stems from. Alcohol based family and growing up completely scared worrying you name it ive got it. I’ve lived a good life and I know who I am so I try focusing on all the good and oddly enough I’m now great ful that I just don’t let the thoughts ruin me like they used to. I still have trouble but it’s a matter of learning to love yourself again and knowing that it’s ok not to be ok because right now you are NOT ok with not being ok. Yiu need to change that mindset. When you let your thoughts be they will let you be and never be afraid of your mind! Challenge it! Walk towards don’t run and when you can learn that simple step you will start to find your way Curtis

Remember it is not your thoughts that is the problem. Thoughts can’t hurt you but how you react to your thoughts can fucking destroy you !!

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Let me know a few of your symptoms I might be able to point you in the right direction

I just feel it in my chest like something large is sitting on me. I have anxiety over literally everything. Driving, eating, walking, talking, getting ready for work, being at work, knowing I have to work a certain day, knowing I have to be anywhere a certain day, thinking of things I have to do, the list just goes on and on and on and my symptoms are basically me just laying in bed crying everyday because the anxiety of it all makes me give up and not do anything and then my depression sets in (I actually do suffer from severe depression I don’t use the term “depression setting in” as in just sadness. It is an extreme emptiness and feeling of failure at all the things I can’t deal with)