sophie02
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ShiningBrightShiningBright
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Hi friend ! I’m not a therapist at all but I been suffering all my life I am assuming this hocd and I had hocd for over a decade and thought I was a closet bisexual or lesbian ( cuz of social media culture ) but tbh porn make things worse and I had to learn the hard way . Especially cuz porn is sexual and anything sexual can arouse us but it doesn’t mean that we wanna act on it . Porn made my hocd soooo much worse and it almost ruined my life until I caught it last year . Again I’m no therapist but from experience porn will make it worse cuz it’s purpose is to arouse no matter what it is . Be strong you got this ??
sophie02sophie02
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Thank you this is so helpful! I don’t particularly struggle with hocd but this was still very good advice!?
san🌻san🌻
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Omg I can relate so much. Like idk why I watched Les porn t any porn tbh, it made so many things worse for me and I relapsed like 3 times because of it ?
sophie02sophie02
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@sanzida? Glad I’m not alone lmao idk I was just watching regular porn to idk feel something?? Anyways it was just a bad experiment and I just felt TERRIBLE. Here if you need any support!?
san🌻san🌻
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@sophie02 Aww thanks girl. Honestly watching Les porn messed me up :(. I literally regret it so much. I used to watch straight porn too but I didn't like it for some reason. But irl I had so many fantasies and desires for men sexually and romantically. I wish I never watched Les porn cause it got me so confused and its the root of my hocd :(((
ShiningBrightShiningBright
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@sanzida? It’s the same for me . I didn’t like watching straight porn and I still don’t not because I’m not heterosexual but because I’m still a virgin and when I watched straight porn I thought that’s how sex was going to be and it disturbed me only cuz it’s so male dominated. I watched girl on girl only cuz it’s women getting pleasured but I have no desire to be with a woman sexually and I don’t even like lesbian porn anymore it’s quite gross to me and also for me social media culture is a BIG part of it . They say all girls are bi and quick to label ppl and it’s so bad for us OCD suffers that’s why I disconnected from social media , I blame Tumblr and Twitter alot too . I am very pro lgbtq I have been for a long time but social media is where I had to draw the line cuz ppl on there say hocd isn’t real and that we should just be who we are and that’s such a dangerous thing to tell someone , people’s lives can spiral out of control because they are living a lie .
san🌻san🌻
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@Gotmyocdinachokehold Omg I relate to this so much. We really do live the same lives ?. Like really, you won't believe the amount of girls that have told me my body is too good for a guy :( and how I should be bi. I even forced myself to be bisexual. This fucked me up so much. I wish I never listened to them!! I wouldn't have been in this position now. Thank you for sharing your own story with me, I feel not alone and I feel a bit better yay!! :P
ARTnotOCDARTnotOCD
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I don’t know enough about what you’re specifically working on, but the gamete of porn goes from sweet-ish to OMG-WTF. I found this out the hard way with magazines for an art project years ago. Don’t feel guilty and terrible, you were trying to help yourself heal. But maybe edit your ERP exercise so you can feel glad you’re working on getting better rather than guilty. Good luck.
sophie02sophie02
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Thank you! So helpful?
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