I'm starting to really doubt myself :(

Yeah..I always do. But I've been doubting that its OCD because of something that happened last night.i posted about it but no one said anything and I am starting to very badly over think..

@Hana240 What did you post that makes you doubt that you have OCD?

@Fear Strikes Out I'll copy and paste it as it might be gone now :)

@Fear Strikes Out This is what I posted : About groinal responses. I'm not sure if its groinal responses or arousal. With groinal reponses can you feel like you've gotten off? Like have that content kinda feeling and that feeling down below. Pretty much I was scrolling on insta and seen something that triggers me and gave me a gorinal response.. instead of clicking out of it I kept watching it in hope's the gorinal response would go away . Instead after watching it a good few times I kept getting groinal reponses then got a feeling like I had gotten off..( i feel like the feeling was building up but I was ignoring it for some reason) it was exactly like that feeling and in my head I was like " you just got off.. means you like these things" and " you were happy about it so it means you like it" like when I was going through the content stage my mind was like " you like it. Your going to do it again. It wasnt bad. You can start doing this again" then I freaked out of course but not like usual I think cause I was confused. I watched porn after (which I told myself I wasn't going to watch anymore) in hopes I would get off to that which would make me feel like I didn't get off to the other thing. It took me like 20 something seconds to get off..now I feel so confused. Like I haven't fully like panicked about it because I'm confused? I keep watching the video over and over again . And everytime I get a gorinal response I freak out but not as intense.. I keep watching it to like prove to myself im not into it but everytime I watch it i get a gorinal response and after I'm like "you watched it because you wanted to get off" Like everytime I think about it I feel like I'm not freaking out as much as I should be..like I'm fine with it..maybe it was just cause of the getting off feeling? I'm so confused.

@Hana240 Is it HOCD?

@Hana240 I’m not even gonna read this as it’s always the same: Any time you become aware of any part of your body (you can try it now with one hand) it begins to feel dynamic, it starts feeling a little warm and tingly, and obviously that can mimic arousal. And if you panic, and drop your attention into your groin suddenly, it'll feel like a lurch that makes the feeling stronger

@Fear Strikes Out No :(

@Hana240 Again, regardless. I’ve had HOCD and POCD.

@irllydislike Yeah I hope that was the reason..I kept watching and watching hoping to stop getting the reponse :(

@irllydislike Is it the same for any OCD? Or just HOCD and POCD?

@Hana240 Exactly the same.

@irllydislike Okay thank you:)

@Hana240 As do I.

@irllydislike Real event OCD?

@Hana240 My comment has deleted for some reason

@Hana240 @Hana240 I have real event OCD and it's due to that I have other OCD..like pocd and other ocds. ( I'll post it again lol)

@Hana240 Yes I have had POCD and HOCD brought on by real event ocd from when I was much younger