I did ERP today for Harm OCD and i was shocked that yes it helps... so yes maybe it's gonna be long, but life is not a run, it is a marathon! I have a question. Not so long ago i started to make music, and yesterday i posted on youtube. And i had that bad anxious thought, that what if i get bad replys? What if i get famous and end up being mentally unstable becouse of the fame and i become alcohoolic, my life falls apart and even i kill myself? (Yeah... i'm stupid i know...) And the question is that is this OCD or just anxiety? I totaly understand that fame is not a good thing, and i don't want to fall on that, i probably will have a mask, and my life will be private... i'm not that stupid, to share everything with everyone. But i have this thoughts like what if it will be to much stress, and so much negativity will destroy me, like not so long ago a women kill herself because of cyberbullying, and what if i will be like that? I don't know why i think like that, I know that i'm talented and i want to share that, but everytime i get this anxios thoughts and feelings... I don't even care what people say, if they don't like me, it is what it is, i don't care, my life is much more important then peoples negativity, but I always get these thoughts and compare myself to those who got destroyed by fame and ended up killing themself... so this can be OCD or it's just anxiety?

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

I would reframe the question. Instead of "is this thought OCD?", ask yourself "am I responding to this thought in an OCD way?". Thoughts are thoughts are thoughts. They aren't the problem. OCD is a disorder of how we respond to to thoughts

woahman

Date posted: 5y

So if I have these selfharm thoughts, what I don't like, than that's not OCD, that is me? I thought that OCD makes that thoughts a big deal, and i'm not responsible for that, but than it's my problem if i have these thoughts? Like I sad many times that i would not harm myself, but my mind always give me imaginations there is a moment when i feel like i do not control myself, but it's just a feeling, it passes so quickly, but during i have very bad anxiety... I'm affraid that i have a bad mental illness, and that these thoughts are real and dangerous... hope it's isn't the case. Thank you for replying, have a nice day! :)

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

@arnoldolasz If you have thoughts of harming yourself, and then DO hurt yourself, you have a self harm problem. If you have a thought of hurting yourself, and respond by only eating with plastic spoons, you have an OCD problem. If you have a thought of hurting yourself and go "woah, weird thought. That watermelon looks delicious" and cut up the watermelon, you don't have a problem at all (at least not related to the thought of harming yourself)

woahman

Date posted: 5y

No i have these "i will harm myself"(which i dont want and i never will) and i become anxious and maybe a little panick attack comes, because im affraid that i will say, okay im done... and than act what the thought say. My compulsion is never was like that what you mentioned, me compulsion is reassurance... and i didn't knew that that was compulsion until last week... i always searched about videos to make me safe, and i always asked others to say to me that im not in danger. So yeah, i think it's OCD but it's the wors one... but i hope i will beat this, and than i can help people who are in the same boat as i am right now.

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

It doesn't matter what the exact compulsion or thought is. The same principles apply

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