Slat208
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I suffered Hocd when I was 13. I’ve fully overcome it now but at the time it felt so real. Use the treatment methods and before you know it you’ll be back to your normal self.
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@pure093 It took me about a few months to fully overcome it, but as I used the treatment methods it did become easier.
AnonymousAnonymous
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Pm me
That1girlThat1girl
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If you could share your story it would really help!
AnonymousAnonymous
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@pure093 Insta
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@pure093 I never felt that way before, It was such a sudden change. I also felt a huge amount of anxiety and it was constantly on my mind.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Beetle juice Same with me
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@That1girl It started when I saw a gay dating app advertisement. Then there was a sudden feeling of anxiety and I began asking myself what if I was gay. It was very random and didn’t make much sense at the time. The month after that I didn’t know what is was and I kept telling my self I wasn’t gay and I was trying to prove to myself I wasn’t gay. Of course these are all compulsions but at the time I never knew. one day I decided to google my symptoms in a moment of desperation and luckily I saw some article about hocd. Then I went on YouTube and searched how to treat it and found a video of someone teaching the acceptance method. I began using this method and within another month I began to have control over my life again. It looks so stupid to me now but at the time it was so real. Let me know if you have any questions??
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@Beetle juice Did u ever think what if u like it and what if thought alike that, and also I’ve lost all attacks to girls and my brains saying I like it that way and stuff, but at first t made me feel sick
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@frghtfdfh All the time. When those thoughts come in, you have to accept the thoughts even though they are not a true reflection of you. When I was going through Hocd I lost all the feelings I had towards women and stuff I would normally enjoy
That1girlThat1girl
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@Beetle juice Did it ever make you feel like you liked the thoughts?
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@That1girl Yup. When you are going through Hocd your thoughts are not a reflection of you.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Beetle juice I have no attraction or anything and my head saying what if I want to be it it and what if
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@frghtfdfh When those thoughts come, the acceptance method is the best things for it. Say to yourself “ maybe I do like this” or “ maybe I am”. It is hard but the more you do it the less anxiety you will get and the thoughts won’t come as much.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Beetle juice But what does it mean if u don’t get anxiety
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This is not my comment I found it on another post but it describes the way I got rid of my Hocd perfectly. Hope it helps :) Intellectually you know that there's likely a grey area. Treating OCD can do wonders for getting how you feel about something to match up better with what you know. Trying to tell yourself arguments for why it's not true is a compulsion which makes the obsession worse and keeps you in a loop of uncertainty. Trying to accept what it says does the same thing, because a part of you kicks in and argues your own case again. It's a loop which never ends and increases your levels of distress and uncertainty. The solution is to stop treating the possibility as if it's a threat. No ruminating on it all day, no arguing with it, no looking for evidence, no analysing, no asking other people or yourself for reassurance that you're a good person, etc. When the fear pops up, you say to yourself "maybe", and refocus your attention to something else. You don't remind yourself of why you don't think it's true. You don't delve into it. You say "maybe that's true but either way I don't need to know right now", and you do something else. If you have time, you can sit and focus your mind on the feelings that being triggered caused in your body and lean into them fully. Feelings come, they digest and they go. You can survive feeling uncomfortable feelings, staying out of your head and in your body. Once the feelings are felt, you can focus on other things. Try to resist "checking" on your obsession, but I can guarantee that if you do this response prevention properly, you'll be able to look back on this worry and instead of getting sucked back into the back and forth, you'll see that it doesn't matter much either way.
Slat208Slat208
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Really appreciate it, but I think my case is different. Now I don’t have The urge to get a gf like I used to. It’s making me think I’m reallly bi??
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Slat208 Same thing here and it’s telling me I like it and want to he gay
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@Slat208 I went through that, I felt no interest in women. Say to yourself “ maybe I am bi”. You will have lots of anxiety but you have to sit through and it will go. Keep repeating this every time the thought come, Go towards the anxiety not away from it.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Beetle juice But I don’t get anxiety most of the time, that’s why it feels so real, I used to get it
Slat208Slat208
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@Beetle juice Yeah I have no more anxiety really and I’ve had it for 10 months
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@frghtfdfh When my anxiety went, I kept myself occupied and whenever the thoughts came I carried on using the acceptance method
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Slat208 It makes me feel like I like the thoughts and when I say I don’t want it makes me feel like I’m lying
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@frghtfdfh Saying you don’t want it is a compulsion and will create an endless cycle.
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@pure093 If you get the thought of “what if you like it”. Say to yourself “maybe I do” and carry on with what you are doing. When I was going through Hocd I also lost all lust for women, but your lust for women will return.
Slat208Slat208
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@Beetle juice Is this normal?, I have HOCD and it’s the worst thing I’ve ever had but when I say a girls attractive my OCD says that I say that cause I’m transgender and want to be her and it really makes me bamboozled
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@Slat208 Yep, it’s completely normal. It will start with one unwanted thought and then it will branch off into different thoughts. It is important when the next thoughts come in you should just accept them aswell. Try not to analyse them or think too deeply about them.
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@Beetle juice Sometimes it feels like I’m gonna be it and like it, like I don’t even know at first I felt sick and disgusted
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@frghtfdfh Keep yourself occupied, When they do come into your mind accept them. Also make sure you are looking after your mental health properly. Getting plenty of exercise and sleep and also try mindfulness meditation. You may not see the changes straight away but it really does help overall and in the long run.
AnonymousAnonymous
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Same my anxiety has gone but my attraction hasn’t come back and my heads saying what if I want to be gay, and I don’t
AnonymousAnonymous
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Like it use to make me disgusted
That1girlThat1girl
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Same :/
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Anonymous
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Am I even straight anymore?
I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
geodrimilis
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Hocd is literally a clown in my head.
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
confused writer
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HOCD made you feel horn.y?
Like I feel geroinals ALL DAY and it’s stuck… I think I’m bi. But this still drives me nuts.
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