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Congrats on handing that so well and being able to return! I’m so sorry that OCD just doesn’t take a day off and that triggers can happen at always the worst time. Rooting for you!!!
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i relate 100% omg. two of my triggers are mentions of suicide and mentions of drugs and especially being in high school, drugs are mentioned a lot and honestly i’ve been paralysed in fear say with my friends and none of them have noticed as they talk about it and it’s awful because you wonder what kind of person you are that you want to cry at the mention of weed. i also have a really strong response to caroline flack.
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i totally get that and it’s unfortunate that it was your dad who triggered it because i know it’s 10x worse when someone you know triggers you. my brain started having an anxiety reaction to my mum because she was trying to help by saying all this stuff about suicide (in a sense of, you’re not alone) and it just made me feel worse. you’re not alone x
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- 4y ago
Yes exactly! It’s hurts more so because he knows I struggle with specially suicidal OCD yet he will say stuff like that is obviously triggering. Thank you ?
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i’ve experienced something similar to this. for context, a good chunk of my ocd revolves around health - constantly believing that i’m ill or that i’ll become ill, and this can range from both physical and mental disorders. i’m more typically fixated on this one certain mental health disorder. it was at college in my psychology lesson and we were having to make a solid argument for how mental health disorders can be affected by nature/nurture. we all got allocated different ones, my group’s being depression, but it wasn’t until i heard the disorder i feared mentioned behind me that i started to panic. because i fear so much that i have or will eventually get the disorder, even hearing the word made me so nervous. it got to the point where i couldn’t focus on my work and i had to ask to leave the room. i started feeling so guilty because i believed i was such a horrible person for not even being able to hear the word of the disorder - why can’t i just educate myself peacefully? why does it have to be a fixation that i have? a lot of people who don’t have ocd don’t really understand that there are certain themes that can trigger somebody - it’s not just obsessively cleaning, and it’s not really just compulsions. we can become so afraid of something that even hearing it makes us emotionally react. i think it’s super important for people around to be educated, especially so ocd isn’t used as an adjective (because that’s rather infuriating ??). your emotional reaction, like mine too and everyone else that goes through this, was completely justified. through our recoveries we’re definitely going to have ups as well as downs. you’re not alone :)
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- 4y ago
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I usually just deal with what seem like frequent intrusive thoughts triggered by anything but this was out loud and surprising that I knew it was definitely a big trigger. There definitely needs to be more education. Even before I was diagnosed I didn’t know much about it, and when I did I didn’t realize how complex it was
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- 22w ago
I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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- 21w ago
I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
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- 19w ago
I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.
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