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Congrats on handing that so well and being able to return! I’m so sorry that OCD just doesn’t take a day off and that triggers can happen at always the worst time. Rooting for you!!!
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i relate 100% omg. two of my triggers are mentions of suicide and mentions of drugs and especially being in high school, drugs are mentioned a lot and honestly i’ve been paralysed in fear say with my friends and none of them have noticed as they talk about it and it’s awful because you wonder what kind of person you are that you want to cry at the mention of weed. i also have a really strong response to caroline flack.
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i totally get that and it’s unfortunate that it was your dad who triggered it because i know it’s 10x worse when someone you know triggers you. my brain started having an anxiety reaction to my mum because she was trying to help by saying all this stuff about suicide (in a sense of, you’re not alone) and it just made me feel worse. you’re not alone x
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Yes exactly! It’s hurts more so because he knows I struggle with specially suicidal OCD yet he will say stuff like that is obviously triggering. Thank you ?
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i’ve experienced something similar to this. for context, a good chunk of my ocd revolves around health - constantly believing that i’m ill or that i’ll become ill, and this can range from both physical and mental disorders. i’m more typically fixated on this one certain mental health disorder. it was at college in my psychology lesson and we were having to make a solid argument for how mental health disorders can be affected by nature/nurture. we all got allocated different ones, my group’s being depression, but it wasn’t until i heard the disorder i feared mentioned behind me that i started to panic. because i fear so much that i have or will eventually get the disorder, even hearing the word made me so nervous. it got to the point where i couldn’t focus on my work and i had to ask to leave the room. i started feeling so guilty because i believed i was such a horrible person for not even being able to hear the word of the disorder - why can’t i just educate myself peacefully? why does it have to be a fixation that i have? a lot of people who don’t have ocd don’t really understand that there are certain themes that can trigger somebody - it’s not just obsessively cleaning, and it’s not really just compulsions. we can become so afraid of something that even hearing it makes us emotionally react. i think it’s super important for people around to be educated, especially so ocd isn’t used as an adjective (because that’s rather infuriating ??). your emotional reaction, like mine too and everyone else that goes through this, was completely justified. through our recoveries we’re definitely going to have ups as well as downs. you’re not alone :)
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Thank you so much for sharing your story. I usually just deal with what seem like frequent intrusive thoughts triggered by anything but this was out loud and surprising that I knew it was definitely a big trigger. There definitely needs to be more education. Even before I was diagnosed I didn’t know much about it, and when I did I didn’t realize how complex it was
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Starting in high school, I became very suicidal, and it became my “safety net” of all went wrong. I know it’s dark, but I was in a really bad head space and I saw suicide as my escape if I couldn’t fix my life. It got to the point where I was constantly thinking about suicide (literally every day, multiple times a day). Over the last year, I’ve gotten better and I think about it less. But then my OCD grabbed hold of it…. Now, if I do something wrong or embarrassing or if I struggle in a social situation (which is often 😅), my mind says “kys”, “jump off a bridge”, and so on. It’s like an automatic response with my OCD and it makes me so uncomfortable… I’m trying to get better. I don’t want to die. Sure, I still get pretty low, but I always push the thoughts away now instead of welcoming them like I used to. But with the intrusive thoughts being nearly constant now, it’s kind of scary. I dont know what to do to make them stop since the intrusive thoughts are just so automatic at the slightest feeling of discomfort. I have a therapist, but I dont know how to bring this up with her. I’m too nervous to even admit to suicidal thoughts, not to mention the intrusive thoughts they’ve turned into. It kind of feels like it’ll never go away.
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Hi! Just got this app. I don't have an OCD diagnosis, but I have some traits, such as a constant obsession over a topic that causes me distress. Like, fears. It's been pedophilia, racism, global warming, death, secrets I've kept, suicide... Basically everything I don't like the idea of. Now, it's the obsession of my dad passing away. I've come to the realization that if my dad died right now - I'd have to move in with my mom, 2,000 miles away from home. Not only would I lose my district scholarship, which would ruin my plans of going to college, but the room at my mom's house would not be big enough to house all of my belongings, so I'd have to get rid of most my stuff. All of my dad's belongings (books, video games, clothes) wouldn't fit either. Not that my mom would be pleased with me showing up with all of my dad's stuff (they're divorced and not on speaking terms.) I try to counteract these thoughts with things like "dad is not under an active threat" or "even if dad died, I'd figure it out." But I'm still plagued with little jabs from my brain about it. Yesterday, my dad expressed his excitement for this year. He's gotten a new job, we're making more money, we're happy - having the last few years be ruined by my mom running away and other fun things along those lines; we deserve to be excited about this new opportunity. But then he said: "I think this year is gonna be our year." As his daughter, I should be thinking "yeah!" or "right on!", but the only thing that came to my mind was in season 4 of Stranger Things when Eddie Munson says "It's my year, '86, baby!" Before getting eaten by demobats in the upside down. This morning, while driving to school, my dad expressed his happiness about the VaultBoy bobblehead on the dash standing up (there's a magnet on the dashboard that helps him stand, and in our old car, it always fell over.) I just said normal things like "yeah, that's cool, I'm glad." But my mind told me "if dad died right now, would you have time to grab the bobblehead to keep to remember him?" which led to "if dad died right now, would you have time to say goodbye?" I try to push the thoughts away because I tell myself I'm gonna jinx it, and thinking about it manifests it. I try journaling and justifying why none of this would happen, but the thing is; if my dad died, I really would have to move in with my mom, wether I like it or not. I would lose my scholarship, wether I like it or not. Another thought process I have is: "I'd never expect it if my dad died, because in all the stories, it happens when you least expect it." It's like I'm playing a game with my brain, just waiting for the timing of circumstances to lead my dad to his death. I think about it - I manifest it, I don't think about it - it's gonna happen because I'm not prepared. How can I cope with this?
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He has been diagnosed with PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, and OCD. He's always been a character for sure, very emotional and quick to get irrationally angry but he's been taking meds over the years. Not too long ago he said something about leaving my step mom and/or killing himself along with a few other things. Things were seemingly normal after that up until recently. Him and my step mom were yelling-arguing which they rarely ever do, and my step mom finally got to a point where she told him to go elsewhere if he was going to act that way and so he did. However, he did come back that night and they argued again in the morning. From what I've gathered, he wants space from her, but she's only ever in the same room with him working or on her phone. She loves him and only ever wants to help him get better. She's the whole reason he got medicated and DID get better. He would act this way when he was with MY mom and would lash out constantly. Today I saw that he had disabled his Facebook and Instagram accounts, which he has never done and I'm concerned. Although we both struggle with OCD, this is not what this is about. I simply just need some guidance on what to do and what could possibly be going on with him. I know no one else is going to know him like I do but we don't talk like that so I don't think he'd ever tell me. I'm so afraid of him taking his own life, I've always known he's had it in him but this time I just have a horrible feeling. If I lost my dad that way I'm not sure what I'd do because he's the only person who will ever understand the way my mind works, and I really just can't imagine losing him in general.
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