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Congrats on handing that so well and being able to return! I’m so sorry that OCD just doesn’t take a day off and that triggers can happen at always the worst time. Rooting for you!!!
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i relate 100% omg. two of my triggers are mentions of suicide and mentions of drugs and especially being in high school, drugs are mentioned a lot and honestly i’ve been paralysed in fear say with my friends and none of them have noticed as they talk about it and it’s awful because you wonder what kind of person you are that you want to cry at the mention of weed. i also have a really strong response to caroline flack.
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i totally get that and it’s unfortunate that it was your dad who triggered it because i know it’s 10x worse when someone you know triggers you. my brain started having an anxiety reaction to my mum because she was trying to help by saying all this stuff about suicide (in a sense of, you’re not alone) and it just made me feel worse. you’re not alone x
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Yes exactly! It’s hurts more so because he knows I struggle with specially suicidal OCD yet he will say stuff like that is obviously triggering. Thank you ?
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i’ve experienced something similar to this. for context, a good chunk of my ocd revolves around health - constantly believing that i’m ill or that i’ll become ill, and this can range from both physical and mental disorders. i’m more typically fixated on this one certain mental health disorder. it was at college in my psychology lesson and we were having to make a solid argument for how mental health disorders can be affected by nature/nurture. we all got allocated different ones, my group’s being depression, but it wasn’t until i heard the disorder i feared mentioned behind me that i started to panic. because i fear so much that i have or will eventually get the disorder, even hearing the word made me so nervous. it got to the point where i couldn’t focus on my work and i had to ask to leave the room. i started feeling so guilty because i believed i was such a horrible person for not even being able to hear the word of the disorder - why can’t i just educate myself peacefully? why does it have to be a fixation that i have? a lot of people who don’t have ocd don’t really understand that there are certain themes that can trigger somebody - it’s not just obsessively cleaning, and it’s not really just compulsions. we can become so afraid of something that even hearing it makes us emotionally react. i think it’s super important for people around to be educated, especially so ocd isn’t used as an adjective (because that’s rather infuriating ??). your emotional reaction, like mine too and everyone else that goes through this, was completely justified. through our recoveries we’re definitely going to have ups as well as downs. you’re not alone :)
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Thank you so much for sharing your story. I usually just deal with what seem like frequent intrusive thoughts triggered by anything but this was out loud and surprising that I knew it was definitely a big trigger. There definitely needs to be more education. Even before I was diagnosed I didn’t know much about it, and when I did I didn’t realize how complex it was
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- 25w
I’ve always had OCD, and for most of my life it was little things that seemed manageable at the time or something that would phase out of my head within a couple days/weeks/months. But, the older I got the more severe it became, I’d find myself collapsing deeper and deeper within my own head trying to out think the thoughts that bothered me. About a year ago I had a thought that rattled me to my core. My brothers and I were watching a movie in our mother’s room when my youngest brother turned to me to say something. His close proximity to me triggered a fleeting sexually explicit image in my head and that thought caused me to spiral. Asking questions like, “are you attracted to your minor brother? Are you attracted to minors? Are you gay? Etc.” a couple days went by and my mental stability continued to crumble until I broke down to my mother, she was understanding and we found a a psychiatrist. I got on medication and for a while everything was slowly but surely trending in a positive direction. The thoughts would still pop into my head but they were becoming more manageable. As we all know OCD and mental illness comes in waves. Currently my OCD has been pretty severe. I feel those intrusive thoughts latching on in my head and it’s been very hard to kick them. It’s gotten to the point where I find myself being uncomfortable being in close proximity with my little brother because I feel as though I am capable of harming him in any way. And the more uncomfortable I become being around him the more I find myself lashing out in anger towards the people I care about the most. Those moments of anger cause me to spiral even farther as my head fills with ideas like “what if you are capable of hurting someone or even murdering them?” There’s times where these thoughts rattle me so much that I feel like it would be better to be in prison where I couldn’t harm someone or that even being dead would be a better solution than possibly running the risk of hurting someone in my life I care about. This is about the jist of it, a majority of the OCD I have is centered around the idea that I am capable of harming my little brother physically, mentally, sexually. It’s been exhausting and it feels like there is no end in sight.
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Hi again :c I’ve been having terrible thoughts of hurting my loved ones I’ve stopped watching horror movies which is my favorite genre and can’t even watch or read anything related to violence even if it’s just a video or movie talking about it, I get triggered so fast I really miss feeling that relief with my mom I miss my mom so much and I just don’t know what to do anymore I almost committed last weekend from how scared I was and Ik your thinking will you try again? idk I’m not sure, one day I might say “no” next I’ll plan it out, but truth be told I don’t want to die I want to live a normal life, I want to stay with my mom and my family, I love my family and my grandma and my older brother..I’m so sick of feeling this feeling, I’m tired of arguing with my brain, I want to be with my mom and spend time with her like I used to, but I can’t stand that thought of hurting them it makes me shake and I feel this pain in my chest, my OCD has been trying to convince me all those crime docs and stuff I’m into turned me this way but that’s impossible since I’ve never thought like this before I’m just tired that’s all Idek know what I’m looking for saying this..prolly just to vent or to know if this will ever go away..
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- 23w
He has been diagnosed with PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, and OCD. He's always been a character for sure, very emotional and quick to get irrationally angry but he's been taking meds over the years. Not too long ago he said something about leaving my step mom and/or killing himself along with a few other things. Things were seemingly normal after that up until recently. Him and my step mom were yelling-arguing which they rarely ever do, and my step mom finally got to a point where she told him to go elsewhere if he was going to act that way and so he did. However, he did come back that night and they argued again in the morning. From what I've gathered, he wants space from her, but she's only ever in the same room with him working or on her phone. She loves him and only ever wants to help him get better. She's the whole reason he got medicated and DID get better. He would act this way when he was with MY mom and would lash out constantly. Today I saw that he had disabled his Facebook and Instagram accounts, which he has never done and I'm concerned. Although we both struggle with OCD, this is not what this is about. I simply just need some guidance on what to do and what could possibly be going on with him. I know no one else is going to know him like I do but we don't talk like that so I don't think he'd ever tell me. I'm so afraid of him taking his own life, I've always known he's had it in him but this time I just have a horrible feeling. If I lost my dad that way I'm not sure what I'd do because he's the only person who will ever understand the way my mind works, and I really just can't imagine losing him in general.
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