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Congrats on handing that so well and being able to return! I’m so sorry that OCD just doesn’t take a day off and that triggers can happen at always the worst time. Rooting for you!!!
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i relate 100% omg. two of my triggers are mentions of suicide and mentions of drugs and especially being in high school, drugs are mentioned a lot and honestly i’ve been paralysed in fear say with my friends and none of them have noticed as they talk about it and it’s awful because you wonder what kind of person you are that you want to cry at the mention of weed. i also have a really strong response to caroline flack.
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i totally get that and it’s unfortunate that it was your dad who triggered it because i know it’s 10x worse when someone you know triggers you. my brain started having an anxiety reaction to my mum because she was trying to help by saying all this stuff about suicide (in a sense of, you’re not alone) and it just made me feel worse. you’re not alone x
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Yes exactly! It’s hurts more so because he knows I struggle with specially suicidal OCD yet he will say stuff like that is obviously triggering. Thank you ?
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i’ve experienced something similar to this. for context, a good chunk of my ocd revolves around health - constantly believing that i’m ill or that i’ll become ill, and this can range from both physical and mental disorders. i’m more typically fixated on this one certain mental health disorder. it was at college in my psychology lesson and we were having to make a solid argument for how mental health disorders can be affected by nature/nurture. we all got allocated different ones, my group’s being depression, but it wasn’t until i heard the disorder i feared mentioned behind me that i started to panic. because i fear so much that i have or will eventually get the disorder, even hearing the word made me so nervous. it got to the point where i couldn’t focus on my work and i had to ask to leave the room. i started feeling so guilty because i believed i was such a horrible person for not even being able to hear the word of the disorder - why can’t i just educate myself peacefully? why does it have to be a fixation that i have? a lot of people who don’t have ocd don’t really understand that there are certain themes that can trigger somebody - it’s not just obsessively cleaning, and it’s not really just compulsions. we can become so afraid of something that even hearing it makes us emotionally react. i think it’s super important for people around to be educated, especially so ocd isn’t used as an adjective (because that’s rather infuriating ??). your emotional reaction, like mine too and everyone else that goes through this, was completely justified. through our recoveries we’re definitely going to have ups as well as downs. you’re not alone :)
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Thank you so much for sharing your story. I usually just deal with what seem like frequent intrusive thoughts triggered by anything but this was out loud and surprising that I knew it was definitely a big trigger. There definitely needs to be more education. Even before I was diagnosed I didn’t know much about it, and when I did I didn’t realize how complex it was
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- 24w
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I'm currently crying rn as I write this post. I feel horrible and scared. I recently had an argument with my dad. I hate being angry because my intrusive thoughts get so much worse. We were arguing in a heated way and he came up to my face and I noticed my own reaction which was that my fists clenched up (I become very hyper aware of myself) Anyway I realized they were clenched and that they twitched in anger. I remember telling myself "please no please this doesn't mean I'll act out. Please no don't think. I really do not want to hurt anyone. Please I'm not losing control. Please dont act out." And I started to cry I stopped arguing but began to cry in anger and fear. I'm scared this means I was going to act out. I didn't want to talk to him anymore I just shut down and he asked me what's wrong with me and I just responded with "you're making me very angry. I need some space now okay?" And he said he wasn't very angry with me and I shouldn't be angry with him and he left me alone but I feel so guilty. Did I want to hurt him? This is causing me way too much distress.
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I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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