I have exams in this week, and after this end,i plan that i will buy myself an xbox or ps. I had the motivation to study because of that, i was happy, until today a random though and feeling ruind it. My though was that you don't need that, you won't be happy with that, you will be still sad,even that i don't was, but this made me... And my thoughs always want to persuade me that I have depression and i will always have... even that i know, and my therapist said it to, that i don't have, just a minimal, like i am more sensitive than others, but i not have deep depression... And sometimes my mind says that you have it and you never will feel happy, even that i was happy early today, but this ruind my day... Can this be OCD? OCD is only about "what if" questions, or OCD can make statements like "you don't deserve this, you won't be happy with that, or you will fail." Im just angry so bad, because I know that i want that console but this sh*t ruins it for me... and I always think when I'm like this that I will never feel gratitute and happyness, and than I freak out like omg why am i thinking like that, am i depressed?...

I had the same not so long ago, my mood was so variable sometimes, that i thinked that im bipolar... But I don't have, just OCD is playing with me. Sometimes when i read about illnesses, or mental illnesses, it's like my mind want to convince me that i have that, and i start to feel the symptoms... Hopefully this will pass or change, I know it just won't go away tomorrow, because i only been here about a week, but i trust it will pass over time! Thank you for replying, it really helps!:)

@arnoldolasz my worst compulsion is googling symptoms and the thing about that is it directly fuels the ocd. you can do this!

@cwllms I have the saaame. I did that over years, even when peoples said to me that don't do that, but i did that because it gaved me reassurance, and i felt happy after that... but the next day I had the same problem and i googled again... Until i find out that OCD make me do that and if i do it, it will be worse... So i stopped googling things like that... Actually i googled something yesterday. About that we should listen to our feelings? Because my psychologist says that it is very important, but sometimes my feelings say that you dont deserve this, or you always will be sad... she don't understand ocd that's the problem. So I found a very good youtube video where a guy says that don't listen always to your emotions because sometimes they can be fals, especialy if you have a wrong imagine of the world... So yes i need to learn so much, but i hope it will be fun, and that during this time i will meet many good people! :)

@arnoldolasz i think you might need to ask your psychologist to look into ocd and try to understand it