Everyday after 5pm I feel terrible... I don't know why, but since last year, when summer comes, i feel that. I don't know anymore what OCD I have, beacuse sometimes i have harm ocd, times like this i have existential ocd, because if i want something, i get this tought that, im really want it? Do i will be happy with that? Maybe nothing makes sens... and you always will feel like this... and than I feel terrible. Today i felt terrible because ocd makes me rude and i am sensitive and i get frustrated quickly, and than im rude with my family... and thats why i feel bad... Idk why i feel like nothings matter some times... i want this to end. I always was a nice with others, but this makes my so rude, that i hate it...I want my old life back! I will not let ocd win over me, so please guys, give me advices what i do when i feel these feelings and thoughs.My psychologist wont help, because she didn't know what ocd is... so guys if you help me i will appreciate it. And also is it possible to have multiple ocd?

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

Yes! I struggle with multiple themes and can go through 5 within a 2 week period

woahman

Date posted: 5y

And what you do against it?

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

@arnoldolasz Harm ocd, zoophelia ocd, pocd, thinking I’m going insane or becoming a psychopath, incest ocd, literally every ocd under the sun

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

@sophie02 I just meditate but I’m trying to start ocd

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

@sophie02 *erp. I’m sorry I keep writing the wrong things. Anyways doing exposures helps and also just remembering the thoughts are just thoughts

woahman

Date posted: 5y

@sophie02 And what if thounghs comes with emotions? Because most of the time i have this...

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

@arnoldolasz Yes often thoughts come with emotions! That’s okay:)

cwllms

Date posted: 5y

do you mean multiple themes? because absolutley! ocd shapeshifts to fill different parts of your life and it’s incredibly common to have multiple themes and for those to change. personally i have suicidal ocd and can also tend into sexuality ocd and relationship ocd depending on the day but those are no where near as bad as my main theme. some people are like me, some have two or three strong themes but honestly it varies from person to person

cwllms

Date posted: 5y

also ocd makes me a bitch sometimes too because i’m just so emotionally exhausted that i can’t deal with people. try not to worry about it

woahman

Date posted: 5y

@cwllms It's funny that everything you have describe i can relate too...i have suicidal ocd, and i was affraid that it is dangerous... but than i learned that that's not the case... So what you do against these things?

cwllms

Date posted: 5y

@arnoldolasz my suicidal ocd? i’ve done an awful amount of googling and i’ve told everyone i can think that deserves to know. i’m working on getting therapy and i’m on an SSRI because it was making me depressed (which is a fear of mine lmao). it gives me really bad obsessions that i’m going to get a bad mental health problem like BPD or Bipolar and i’ve googled those symptoms so many times i’m just trying to avoid my compulsions. for the ROCD, i tell my girlfriend when i’m anxious. it’s all about handling things in a way that isn’t feeding your OCD i guess

woahman

Date posted: 5y

@cwllms Omg I just can't believe how we are the same...??

woahman

Date posted: 5y

@cwllms Thank you for replying, have a nice day! :)

woahman

Date posted: 5y

@cwllms The problem is that ocd maked me not knowing who i am... i don't know what i want, because sometimes i figure out someting, but a thoughs comes and says that you dont want to do that... and than i feel bad... my fear is that i will lost myself totally... I was sure of everything before, now i feel lost...

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

When I was in 8th grade I had intense ocd about dying. It’s all I thought about and it was possibly the scariest theme I had. I googled every day looking up life after death. I understand existential ocd sucks and it’s especially hard at night when you’re alone with your thoughts.

Date posted: 5y

Me too! I was in 4th grade when a classmate of mine died of a severe asthma attack and after that I was having what I know now as panic attacks and was convinced that every litttle pain meant i was dying. I always compared myself to the main character in the movie “my girl” because she was a hypochondriac ?

Date posted: 5y

I have many ocd themes in a quick succession and it makes my head spin. I also always wish for a previous obsession because it “wasn’t as bad as this one”. But that’s just ocd playing it’s tricks because they are all equally trrrible for me lol

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