I have an interesting subtype of OCD (I’ve been diagnosed) and just wanted to see if anyone has the same thing or similar compulsions. Ever since my first serious relationship, I’ve always been terrified that my significant other will cheat on me. I’ve been married almost 10 months now and since covid hit it’s like a whole new level. I cannot tell you how many sites or apps I’ve “checked” to try and see if he has accounts. Kik, WhatsApp, meetme, tons of dating apps, hookup sites, onlyfans, and the list goes on. I check various usernames and email addresses (even ones that could reasonably belong to another person) and it’s exhausting. If I don’t find anything, it’s not that it isn’t there, it’s just that I haven’t discovered it yet. It’s seriously so exhausting and logically I know it’s pointless because even if he is cheating on me he could probably find a way to hide it. Some days I feel a little better and don’t feel much need to check, but most of the time it’s all I think about and there have been times I’ve spent up to three hours a day checking random things. It sucks so bad ?

Yes.. I used to do something similar. The sooner you step, the better it’ll be. Reassurance seeking is like gambling.. “one more check”, “just one more”. The problem is.. there will always be one more if we let it. So we have to accept the uncertainty.

This is a part of rocd and I believe cheating ocd? Someone correct me if I'm wrong. My ocd used to be that my fiance must not love me, or hed cheat because he foesnt love me really. Let me tell you it does not get better until you begin to cut ocd off from all the things it loves like you checking everything.

I was also checking a lot in his social media’s accounts, his past, interrogating, comparing everything to our story. Every time a couple, love or sex reference I couldn’t only imagine and his ex until I understood it was my OCD. So I have stopped compulsions. At least the obvious ones. I’m still digging sometimes in my mind well I’m still learning (into therapy for 6 weeks). But it’s getting better and believe me it will for you!

Ive never had this specifically but I know how easy it is to inspect every detail of someone’s life via social media and it’s so toxic but it’s addicting and you feel like you’re missing something if you don’t check

I have the same one! So you’re not alone

Hey, I know this forum was created ages ago but I also identify with this type of ocd, it seems to be very rare but I would love to help each other with it if we can. I suffer really bad, literally spent all day today ruminating and checking. Wasted my entire day. I need help 😔

I too have this same type of OCD. I have even created dating site and porn site accounts to catch him. I never do but that “what if” drains me of everything good I have.