I feel so empty, so tired, so defeated. This is by far the worst I’ve ever felt in life. I hate being me I’m trapped in my own body and there’s nothing I can do about it. I want so desperately to live a normal life which I feel is impossible. At this point in my life I wish I was dead . I would no longer be a burden to my family.Every morning I wake up I hate it I hate living I just want to die in my sleep. There’s nothing I like about myself I feel two years old mentally and everyone can see it. I wish I could run from myself but I’m stuck being me for life. I’m just at a dead end . Life is so complex. I wish there was a button to press to end this miserable thing called life.

I'm currently dealing with joint depression and OCD issues, what's helped me the most is forcing myself to do something, even if it's just a tiny thing, like eating some toast, try and do a little more each day and you may find yourself having moments where you feel better. If you keep at it maybe feeling good will be the regular state and feeling empty will only be moments.

@JForrest Thank you ??

believe it or not, my third (and most serious) suicide attempt is what forced me to get the help i needed. my advice is to just take that leap to get help. tell your therapist straight up that you're suicidal and you need help. tell your psychiatrist that the meds aren't working and you want to try something else. tell people you love and are close w so they can support you. i didn't want to let my parents in on how much i was struggling for the longest time and i almost died because of it. it's never as bad as you expect it to be. sometimes the things we fear the most are the ones that will help us grow.

@dietcoke oh, and don't be afraid to call a hotline. i was always terrified that they'd call the cops on me bc i've heard horror stories. but sometimes saying it aloud to a person you don't know and is there to just listen is the most freeing. and the operator will usually say something that you never even knew you needed to hear.

It takes time and effort, but stick with it, do what you can and keep fighting. I agree with what others have said—make sure you are taking care of your needs, find little things to do each day. For me reaching out to friends really helped. I would also paint or do art to distract myself from my thoughts. You can find whatever works for you, try things out! Also therapy and medication were a huge help.

I’m going to second what dietcoke said. The more open and honest you are with the people trying to help you, the better they can help.