Guys. I continue to go longer and longer without giving into my compulsions. My main compulsion is reassurance. I’ve gone so many days lately with not doing my compulsion once. It continues to be longer and longer that I don’t give into reassurance. At the same time, I gave in today and did some reassurance after going the most days without it since I started having ocd. So I’m not down on myself for that. I can sit with uncertainty and the doom longer and longer which is showing erp is clearly working. But then my ocd starts to doubt my erp treatment. When I’m calm and rationalize it, I clearly know this erp treatment is spot on what I need and is working. But when I get so worked up and the ocd becomes so convincing, I get convinced that I’m dojng the wrong thing. I’m legit retraining my brain and not giving into the noise. I continue to get horrible memories from when i used to react, which is like my brain trying to warn me I’m in danger. I’m working so hard, I just need continued motivation. I have this thing almost beat! I’m going so much longer without givin into compulsions which is so amazing and I’m so proud of myself. I gotta continue to sit with the doom and the intrusive thoughts of doubt. I’m so close to beating this and claiming my life back! Pls keep me motivated! My therapist is amazing and does a good job of putting me back on track as well

When you rationalise it, you may be doing a compulsion, same thing when you get worked up and sucked into what it says and think about it until you feel convinced. The ideas it sends you are suggestions which don't need to be argued against or ruminated on. They can last a fraction of a second when they pop up and then your job is to not do either of those things. It sounds like you're doing well, the more you utilise your own ability to redirect your attention away from the topic when you feel the need to wonder and weigh and analyse or go over your own reassuring reasoning for 'why the ERP is what you need and is working', the quicker things can go for you.

Hey dude, I don't know you, I'm so proud of you as well! Keep up the good fight. You've got this!

Keep up the good work. It’s great motivation for someone like me who is just starting!

If OCD is telling you that you don't have OCD and you shouldn't do ERP, I suggest you read this article: https://ocdla.com/doubt-denial-ocd-5342

Great post! You got this! I definitely get worked up too while my OCD is in full gear and it seems so convincing. You are 100% right when you said we are legit retraining our brains, it’s going to take time and most times it gets a lot worse before it gets better. @Scroggy made a good point. When you rationalize, you may be doing a compulsion. That’s what I believe is my big one along with reassurance. But sounds like you’re on the right track!