I finally got in contact with a therapist today after suffering in silence for almost a year. I am proud for making this step but I am so scared to. Does anyone have any advice? I don’t even know where to start. I feel I’ll just be crying my eyes out the whole time and that she’ll think I’m a bad person. I’m especially scared she’ll think I’m homophobic due to my HOCD and don’t know how to talk about it without sounding homophobic

I’ve suffered from HOCD and in no way think I am homophobic. I have no issues with anyone who is gay and don’t think it’s immortal or wrong and never have. It’s just something that I personally don’t idenfiy with, just like a gay person would be uncomfortable pursing a heterosexual relationship, straight people would feel the same way. I’m sure your therapist totally understands this and I’m sure it’s important to not hold back on how you feel. Especially if they specialize in OCD they will get it and you won’t be seen with judgement.

If it’s an OCD specialist she should completely understand, quite frankly they’ve heard everything lol. If it’s not, before you confide you can ask her some questions to get to know how well familiar she is with ocd. I’ve told my general physician & a regular therapist & even though they didn’t know it was OCD, they didn’t judge or think I was nutso lol, but I have heard people having a bad experience with those who don’t understand OCD...it just depends on the therapist.

Is it an OCD therapist? If it is dont be worried to tell about your thoughts. Start somewhere and you can also write it down if it feels easier. I think the most of us are scared in the beginning of therapy, nothing to be ashamed of. One step in a time, and remember that a therapist is there to help you. Wishing you luck and yes, you can be proud for making this step!