- Username
- Mel
- Date posted
- 4y ago
by not doing anything, do you mean compulsions ?
Yes, it’s Pure O OCD, so instead of physical compulsions, you’re likely engaging in mental ones. This could be avoiding things that might trigger you, mentally ruminating to try & find meaning or certainty in the thoughts about whether or not you would cause harm, neutralizing the thoughts by forcing good ones in their place, & literally anything else that mentally alleviates the anxiety/distress.
You have to remember EVERYONE gets intrusive thoughts. People with OCD get them alot more frequently. I believe OCD is on a spectrum from mild to severe so your anxiety level and frequency of thoughts would land somewhere between there. People with pure O usually don't have physical compulsions only mental ones.
While I do have compulsions for basically all the other aspects of OCD.. I have yet to compulse with harm ocd, however I still have intrusive thoughts on it.. I always have enough to talk myself out of it... (basically my anxiety telling me to stop it)
A compulsion is to alleviate anxiety so if you talk yourself out of it or calm yourself down there really isn't a need to have a compulsion. For my blasphemy OCD I would be talking to god and my intrusive thought would say repeatedly "F#$k God" and I would have to beg and plead with God saying that's not me which was a compulsion. For my hocd Its very hard to use a public restroom without high amounts of anxiety so I avoid them which is another compulsion.
Yea.. it’s like an internal fight between my ocd wanting me to compulse.. my social anxiety telling me not to cuz it’s “embarrassing” and then I do.. my anxiety gets mad.. but anxiety makes me compulse to alleviate.. but it makes it worse
@Meli It's a vicious cycle for sure I'm rooting for your happiness.
@Kc88 Thank you! ?
Some would say having to talk yourself out of it is a compulsion
Does anyone else ruminate nearly 24/7 about their Harm/Pure OCD thought or thoughts? For example, stating to themselves that “I don’t want to harm, hurt or kill anyone, etc.” Do you have anxiety while doing so and also even more anxiety after trying to stop the reassurance/compulsions. Thanks in advance!
Does anyone here have harm OCD that tries to attack every single action and thought they do during the day? Mine is about killing my spouse. Now every time I hear something that entails the future or “doing what I gotta do” I am afraid if the thoughts showing up. And as I try to think “do therapy”, “find hobbies”, “get into yoga” the intrusive though appears and it’s “kill your wife” or “kill your wife and yourself afterwards”. It could attack a happy event to. Like you finally get that reimbursement you were waiting for on an online shopping return. And now you get it and you’re like : “Nice, thats done” and the the intrusive thought comes “cool, now you can kill your wife”. I’m under the impression I am becoming schizophrenic. I don’t hear a voice or see things though, and some days there are less occurrences than other days. It’s days where I don’t work and have a day out with the wife doing fun activities that the occurrences are less. But if I sit alone working in my office all they they appear all the time. This is very distressing and causes severe anxiety. Loosing appetite, head aches, becoming extremely irritable. This is the hardest thing I have ever go through.
With Harm OCD, is it possible to obsess over a thought so much, that the brain acts it out subconsciously via sleepwalking?
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