I’m so beyond upset. I’m trying to hold it together, but nothing in my life ever works out. I have to get my insulin refilled so I can pick it up. Noticed two weeks ago I didn’t have any on autofill at the pharmacy. Absolutely disgusting that I wouldn’t seeing as I go to my endocrinologist every three months and as a type 1 am insulin dependent. Call them to send over the order to Walgreens. Walgreens can’t accept it, says my insurance doesn’t cover it. I don’t understand how it can’t cover fucking INSULIN but have always had problems with Walgreens so fuck them and switched to CVS in target. They tell me they’re switching everything over and that they’ll call me when it’s done. A day passes and no phone call. Keep in mind I’m telling everyone this is a fucking emergency! As an insulin dependent diabetic you can’t just be off insulin until you get it. After hours of no insulin you become violently ill, by just 12 hours you have to be hospitalized, by a week death is a serious possibility. anyway fast forward and I became aware that I need to use my pharmacy at work and novalog instead of humalog. Call my doctors office tell them this is a fucking emergency and I’m fucking PISSED that I’ve been trying to get a hold of them for over a week and NOTHING, and now I have NO INSULIN. And to have the doctor call me back IMMEDIATELY. She tells me she will, that was at 4pm yesterday. It is now 6 am the following day and I have gotten no phone call. Luckily for me I found some insulin so I didn’t call back because I’m just so overwhelmed and tired of this bullshit. But now just realized my pod is going to die because I forgot to change the batteries and for some reason the whole devise shuts down when you do that and I’m going to need to change it, but I have NO INSULIN. How the FUCK can you call yourself a endocrinologist or someone who works in that office or fuck even a decent human being and not have the fucking decency to send over a fucking order for your patient that you are perfectly aware will die without the medication. I wish I could say this sort of thing has never happened before with different endocrinologists I’ve had but that would be a lie. I just want to be happy and stupid shit like this makes my depression spiral. Just been sitting in bed for days crying over this.

That is BULLSHIT. I don’t have diabetes but sometimes I feel that (kind of like ocd) it is sort of downplayed in the media and kind of portrayed as a quirk or a minor concern in a lot of movies I’ve seen rather than a life threatening condition! I’ll never forget when I read one of the babysitters club books and one of them got diabetes and she was basically like “on the plus side, no sugar means I’ll always be thin” or something like that! Anyway I’m so sorry this is happening to you and that you’re not being taken seriously by MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS. ❤️?????

It is very upsetting and you’re right it’s completely downplayed. I also hate the whole type 1, type 2 thing. There are so many stereotypes about type 2’s. But basically if you have the genes for it and are overweight you’re chances are high. For a lot of people it isn’t their fault but then again for so many of them it is. And then you’ve got them grouped in with type 1’s which is a autoimmune disease and so much more serious. But if you look it up it will say they’re comparable. So everyone I talk to thinks that. ? but yet endocrinologists will straight up tell you 2 is incomparable to the damage 1 does. And some insurance companies (mine does this too) can refuse treatment for type 2, but can No insurance company is allowed to refuse treatment for type 1. It’s a very scary life threatening thing that people overlook and I have been told more than a handful of times “at least I don’t have cancer” They say this not knowing the COUNTLESS times a week my vision, hearing and balance disappear as my sugar drops. The pounding headaches you get when your sugar rises. The fear you have going to sleep that you may not wake up in the morning. The numerous times I’ve had to leave work because something went wrong, the seizures I’ve had, the fainting, the inability to wake up due to low sugar, etc. I have lost people to cancer, I’m not saying it isn’t bad. What I’m saying is, what my dad said, cancer either gets better or gets worse. You beat it or you don’t. And people are there supporting you the whole time even years after it’s over. Diabetes is a battle that lasts a lifetime and unless you get hit by a car it will be what slowly kills you. You fight for your life every day with the mindset that “at least you don’t have cancer”