My zoophilia ocd is starting to be debilitating. I feel like just crying in bed I feel so guilty and terrible. I can’t even pet my dogs or give them a tummy rub without thinking I must have some sort of messed up motive or am somehow violating them. If I try to pick them up and accidentally touch them near their privates I feel disgusting like I must have done it on purpose. I love my dogs they are so sweet and I wouldn’t do anything to hurt them but these thoughts are ruining my life. Advice please!!

lizardgurl

Date posted: 4y

hi! i know it's really scary these thoughts and feelings, but that's all they are thoughts and feelings! they're not the truth, and they don't define who you are on the inside. you are just overwhelemed and getting anxiety over this! you have control how u react to these things, you got this!

sophie02

Date posted: 4y

Thank u! Your encouragement means so so much and it helps to know I’m not the only one who has struggled with this❤️

2dollars

Date posted: 4y

Its ok!! The fact that you are worried about it means you know that it's not ok and that you don't wanna do that to them! I hope you are able to get through this and you feel a little better!?

sophie02

Date posted: 4y

Thank you! Your support means a lot to me?

ARTnotOCD

Date posted: 4y

I’ve had to check my dog’s penis before for a tick, not just the hairy outside...the cool your jets part... (Thank goodness it was just dirt.). It felt so odd and I didn’t know what he thought about it, and then when it was only dirt, it was like, “Did I just want to do that deeper inspection? Like did I know it wasn’t a tick?” Ya know what? I just wanted to make sure my baby was safe. He just thought it was a nice belly rub except for when I removed that speck of dirt off him, which he was still ok with. Regular belly rubs resumed, and only OCD had anything more to say about it. I have so many other stories about how often I’ve felt weird because I touched his penis during a belly rub, or when I have to check his anal glands often, when girlfriends and I notice how muscular his legs are, or when he lies on my breast or my lap (but maybe with a foot on my crotch), or even when he would try to get on the bed if I was being intimate with my partner. (Hooray for closing doors or dog crates to solve that!). I know that I don’t want to harm my pup in anyway (even if I have an intrusive image of physical breaking his arms while I trim his nails.) I remember the OCD is not me. And I keep rubbing the belly, letting him lie on my lap however he’s comfortable, or whatever else triggers. I don’t really even have to sit with the anxiety at all anymore. At this point I just repeat that it’s the OCD and continue respectfully loving and caring for my boy.

sophie02

Date posted: 4y

Thank you!! This was so so helpful I feel like you really understand. The fact that you were able to get over it gives me so much hope and is so encouraging. Thank you?

Evelyn4416

Date posted: 4y

I have dealt with this before! It’s super hard because they’re like your babies! I was dealing with it with my dog and my cat, both intrusive thoughts of sexual and violent nature. The best way to overcomes this is to continue what your doing of petting and being around them. If you begin to start avoiding them, it’ll make it worse. At first it was very distressing to be around my cat having these thoughts, but I continued to have him close and “facing that fear” so to say, and not it barely bothers me anymore. I hope you are able to get through this, you got it ?

sophie02

Date posted: 4y

Thank you! The fact that you were able to overcome it gives me hope and is so encouraging. Sending hugs?

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 25w

Self pleasure and intrusive thoughts :/

I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh

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Brigitta

Date posted: 21w

OCD takes over me

I feel like one of the worst things about ocd are the disturbing images or the ‘little movies’ that replay in your head over and over again. I have the worst sexual images with one of my family members that actually so bad that I can’t even look in the mirror. And it’s even worse that I have a lovely boyfriend and I’m so disgusted of myself that I feel like I don’t deserve him and I feel like I can’t be with him because of these thoughts, even he is the most precious thing in my life. These sexual images are so horrible and what makes it even worse that in these pictures I always see myself as someone who enjoys it. I know how to deal with this anymore. My mind is trying to convince me that that I actually like these images and thoughts and this is the hardest part, that I’m doubting myself. These images pop up in my head so naturally that I always question myself if I actually don’t like it why it comes so naturally or how can my brain picture things like this if I don’t like it. It’s getting worse day by day. It’s in my head 24/7, can’t concentrate on anything else, I can’t eat because I’m constantly throwing up. And my mom has to sleep with me every night because I’m so disturbed by my own mind. My parents know that there’s something wrong with me, they think I’m depressed but sadly It’s not something I can talk openly about with them. I’m seeing a therapist next week but I’m genuinely scared to open up about these thoughts that I’m having.

Astjtoju13!

Date posted: 16w

Harm ocd

Someone please help me I’m having intrusive thoughts of hurting my pets and I’m really scared of myself and I want these thoughts to go away. Can someone please help me I’m scared and I don’t know if I’m a monster

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