My zoophilia ocd is starting to be debilitating. I feel like just crying in bed I feel so guilty and terrible. I can’t even pet my dogs or give them a tummy rub without thinking I must have some sort of messed up motive or am somehow violating them. If I try to pick them up and accidentally touch them near their privates I feel disgusting like I must have done it on purpose. I love my dogs they are so sweet and I wouldn’t do anything to hurt them but these thoughts are ruining my life. Advice please!!

lizardgurl

Date posted: 5y

hi! i know it's really scary these thoughts and feelings, but that's all they are thoughts and feelings! they're not the truth, and they don't define who you are on the inside. you are just overwhelemed and getting anxiety over this! you have control how u react to these things, you got this!

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

Thank u! Your encouragement means so so much and it helps to know I’m not the only one who has struggled with this❤️

2dollars

Date posted: 5y

Its ok!! The fact that you are worried about it means you know that it's not ok and that you don't wanna do that to them! I hope you are able to get through this and you feel a little better!?

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

Thank you! Your support means a lot to me?

ARTnotOCD

Date posted: 5y

I’ve had to check my dog’s penis before for a tick, not just the hairy outside...the cool your jets part... (Thank goodness it was just dirt.). It felt so odd and I didn’t know what he thought about it, and then when it was only dirt, it was like, “Did I just want to do that deeper inspection? Like did I know it wasn’t a tick?” Ya know what? I just wanted to make sure my baby was safe. He just thought it was a nice belly rub except for when I removed that speck of dirt off him, which he was still ok with. Regular belly rubs resumed, and only OCD had anything more to say about it. I have so many other stories about how often I’ve felt weird because I touched his penis during a belly rub, or when I have to check his anal glands often, when girlfriends and I notice how muscular his legs are, or when he lies on my breast or my lap (but maybe with a foot on my crotch), or even when he would try to get on the bed if I was being intimate with my partner. (Hooray for closing doors or dog crates to solve that!). I know that I don’t want to harm my pup in anyway (even if I have an intrusive image of physical breaking his arms while I trim his nails.) I remember the OCD is not me. And I keep rubbing the belly, letting him lie on my lap however he’s comfortable, or whatever else triggers. I don’t really even have to sit with the anxiety at all anymore. At this point I just repeat that it’s the OCD and continue respectfully loving and caring for my boy.

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

Thank you!! This was so so helpful I feel like you really understand. The fact that you were able to get over it gives me so much hope and is so encouraging. Thank you?

Evelyn4416

Date posted: 5y

I have dealt with this before! It’s super hard because they’re like your babies! I was dealing with it with my dog and my cat, both intrusive thoughts of sexual and violent nature. The best way to overcomes this is to continue what your doing of petting and being around them. If you begin to start avoiding them, it’ll make it worse. At first it was very distressing to be around my cat having these thoughts, but I continued to have him close and “facing that fear” so to say, and not it barely bothers me anymore. I hope you are able to get through this, you got it ?

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

Thank you! The fact that you were able to overcome it gives me hope and is so encouraging. Sending hugs?

Imnew@this

Date posted: 24w

I’m a monster. I know it.

(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I’ve been increasingly worried that I’m a zoophile (among other things) and that I’m attracted to my family dog. I love him and I take care of him—I take him out to poop and pee, I play with him, and I feed and water him. But I get nervous when I have to be around him for a long time—I get these thoughts and they just won’t stop. I’ll find myself looking at my dog’s privates and having these strange urges. I feel horrible—like I could’ve done something to him or touched him inappropriately and conveniently don’t remember. I don’t know what to do…

happygirl15

Date posted: 20w

POCD/ Intrusive thoughts & Images

so I’ve been seeking therapy for my OCD for a few years. The theme that I’ve been dealing with most recently is the fear of becoming a pedophile, which then has led to intrusive images of me doing things to kids.Which now is just causing me so much distress and 24/7 constant thought cycle. I am starting to not be able to tell the difference between thoughts that are wanted/ unwanted- the line has become some blurry and these things are starting to feel like someothing i want to do. My brain keeps telling me to just test these thoughts and the “maybe”or”i don’t know” isn’t working. This has become such a barrier because the second layer is that I’m afraid that if I just let the thoughts be there it’ll make me be OK with doing those things and the fear is what’s keeping me from actually doing something inappropriate. It’s also transitioned into intrusive thoughts and images of me doing something very disgusting to my dog and that when I’m cuddling with him I get the thoughts to just do it or try it to see if i am actually a p*do. it’s almost like the compulsion would be to do the inappropriate thing, even though I know it’s wrong just to see how it would make me feel. I feel like i can’t control these urges even though i’ve never acted on it. At any point i could just do it. I’ve never had these thoughts before up until about a year and a half ago when my friend‘s boyfriend got arrested for soliciting a minor then all these thoughts came to life.Has anyone experienced something like this and have any advice?

POCD

Angrymitski

Date posted: 16w

Sexual intrusive thoughts

I live everyday constantly having questions such as “what if you want to sleep with your dog”, “what if you want to sleep with _____’s child” and “what if you want to sleep with your sister”? Im so sick of these intrusive thoughts, POCD is my main, and most troubling, subtype and I’m just so sick of it; i dont know what to do, I constantly feel like a pedophile and I’m exhausted. My problem lies in the fact that Im starting OCD recovery but a lot of my compulsions regarding these thoughts are avoidant or purely mental, and considering the theme these feel too massive to combat. What’s some advice for beginning to battle these intrusive thoughts?

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