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hi! i know it's really scary these thoughts and feelings, but that's all they are thoughts and feelings! they're not the truth, and they don't define who you are on the inside. you are just overwhelemed and getting anxiety over this! you have control how u react to these things, you got this!
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Thank u! Your encouragement means so so much and it helps to know I’m not the only one who has struggled with this❤️
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Its ok!! The fact that you are worried about it means you know that it's not ok and that you don't wanna do that to them! I hope you are able to get through this and you feel a little better!?
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Thank you! Your support means a lot to me?
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I’ve had to check my dog’s penis before for a tick, not just the hairy outside...the cool your jets part... (Thank goodness it was just dirt.). It felt so odd and I didn’t know what he thought about it, and then when it was only dirt, it was like, “Did I just want to do that deeper inspection? Like did I know it wasn’t a tick?” Ya know what? I just wanted to make sure my baby was safe. He just thought it was a nice belly rub except for when I removed that speck of dirt off him, which he was still ok with. Regular belly rubs resumed, and only OCD had anything more to say about it. I have so many other stories about how often I’ve felt weird because I touched his penis during a belly rub, or when I have to check his anal glands often, when girlfriends and I notice how muscular his legs are, or when he lies on my breast or my lap (but maybe with a foot on my crotch), or even when he would try to get on the bed if I was being intimate with my partner. (Hooray for closing doors or dog crates to solve that!). I know that I don’t want to harm my pup in anyway (even if I have an intrusive image of physical breaking his arms while I trim his nails.) I remember the OCD is not me. And I keep rubbing the belly, letting him lie on my lap however he’s comfortable, or whatever else triggers. I don’t really even have to sit with the anxiety at all anymore. At this point I just repeat that it’s the OCD and continue respectfully loving and caring for my boy.
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Thank you!! This was so so helpful I feel like you really understand. The fact that you were able to get over it gives me so much hope and is so encouraging. Thank you?
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I have dealt with this before! It’s super hard because they’re like your babies! I was dealing with it with my dog and my cat, both intrusive thoughts of sexual and violent nature. The best way to overcomes this is to continue what your doing of petting and being around them. If you begin to start avoiding them, it’ll make it worse. At first it was very distressing to be around my cat having these thoughts, but I continued to have him close and “facing that fear” so to say, and not it barely bothers me anymore. I hope you are able to get through this, you got it ?
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Thank you! The fact that you were able to overcome it gives me hope and is so encouraging. Sending hugs?
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Someone please help me I’m having intrusive thoughts of hurting my pets and I’m really scared of myself and I want these thoughts to go away. Can someone please help me I’m scared and I don’t know if I’m a monster
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NSFW 17f So basically I did something sexual to the cat when I was younger. It wasn't like full on bestiality, my privates weren't touching the cat and I wasn't touching the cats privates but it was still sexual. I didn't know what I was doing was wrong. It didn't harm the cat in any way, but of course it's still horrible. So I developed real event ocd that ruined my life complitely. Most of the time I don't think I will male it to 20. Sometimes it's a living hell. I developed it more than a year ago and I barely even remember this year cause I was so consumed with guilt it was the only thing in my head. So i also developed zoophilia ocd because of it. And I feel so bad cause I can't interact with my cat anymore. Because she wants to and I have to ignore her. Slowly I started to be scared to let her on my bed. So I stopped. Then in my room. Stopped doing that too. I still tried to give her some attention just outside of my room. Then I got scared to touch her. So I stopped doing that, but I used her brush to pet her with it and her toys to play with her so i don't physically touch her. Then my ocd went like but what if you are subconsciously using her for sexual gratification when you look at her? So now I can't even look at my cat. I look away when she is around, block my sight with a hand, close my eyes or if I can I leave. But the heartbreaking part is. Before I remembered what I did I was giving my cat a lot of attention. Like everyone says I'm her favorite and she only allows me to hold her and pet her the certain ways. So for all that time she is desperately trying to get my attention. She jumps on my rooms door, meows for a long time, tries to sneak in my room and stuff like that. And It's so sad I just have to ignore her. Especially cause she doesn't understands why. She was getting so much love and then randomly she is being ignored?? idk her real age cause we took her from the street, but she lives with us for 13 years, so she is not young. She is pretty healthy so I don't think she is going to die any soon but still. if I never get over it she will spend her last years of life ignored. and this makes me want to cry and want to throw up. but I don't know what to do. if I touch her I start freaking out and convincing myself that I used her somehow for sexual stuff even if I didn't do anything like that. I'm so scared. and also sad for her. and I miss my cat tbh. like everhtime I have to close my door when she tried to enter I feel so bad. but I'm so scared. because after what I did to her I'm already a monster. I don't want to add anything else. but I also feel bad for ignoring her.
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tw: nsfw 17f I have a real even ocd from a sexual event with an animal (my cat) from where I was younger. Remembering it ruined my life and made it a living hell. It was bad. It's not one of those innocent events people always assume because I have ocd and then they get all surprised when it was actually bad and sexual. (animal wasn't harmed though) So basically I developed I fear of interacting or even looking at animals after I remembered so I was avoiding my cat like crazy, but then I realized that it's cruel to ignore an animal who wants love and attention, so I forced myself to overcome it kinda. I basically downloaded a habit tracker where I mark when I was able to pet my cat cause while it's triggering I want to give my cat love and I'm trying to pet her everyday So yesterday I was petting the cat. And she was extremely enthusiastic about it. Like she was almost throwing herself on me to get more pets like kinda agressive at this point to get pets. I started thinking how animals go in heat in spring. But she is like sterilized so I wasnt sure its possible for her. Like maybe they are just more active in spring? But what if the pets are somehow sexual for the cat? Then I thought maybe I shouldn't pet her then cause that's wrong. But then I thought like who cares and also then it will be like this the whole spring should I just not touch her the whole spring and ignore her again? I was also tired a bit so I wasn't thinking it all through that much Now I'm freaking out so bad. Like I knew there was a possibility that it was sexual for the cat and still continued petting her I didn't stop. It's so bad. Like I thought its whatever since it's not sexual for me but now I'm freaking out. Like the whole me being a better person and learning on my mistakes after that one earlier event was for nothing if I was able to do something like this I'm freaking out so bad
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