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I've never actually seen that, sounds like a pretty disgusting manifestation of cancel culture which basically amounts to group bullying. It's 100% only people who are in glass houses who spend their time throwing stones, deflecting away from their own failures and shortcomings and projecting an image of themselves as 100% unproblematic and perfect since the womb. They're losers, Mars. There's a difference between accountability and cancelling/call-out group turdfests. In fact, the way to encourage accountability is to foster an environment of penance and forgiveness, not one of hostility and shaming. The people who do that aren't doing it to create a positive change in the world, they're quite literally doing it to feel less vulnerable themselves. Tbh this sort of atmosphere is why I left social media. But still, it sounds like the idea of what that experience would be like has become really vivid in your mind. It might help to think about how you'd cope with it if it did happen instead? For example, you'd be able to defend yourself. You'd also have other people defending you. You also wouldn't be obliged to take the opinions of people who had a particular negative experience as a reflection of the whole of what you're like as a person. There's no reason to think that other people in your life or who you meet would see it that way, either. We all certainly don't, so do try to give people a bit of credit. I find that actually going into my worst case scenarios and thinking about coping skills and contingencies makes me feel a lot less threatened. It also helps to have valued things (people, hobbies, interests, achievements etc) which can't be taken away from you by your worst case scenario, and to make them your grounding focus in life. Homeless people are often the most incredibly positive people you could meet, because they've lost everything people fear losing, often including even their family and their social acceptability, and they've survived it. With nothing much left to fear, they feel free.
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My friend group doesn’t believe cancel culture exists and if you get called out there’s a reason for it. So if I ever got called out I am very sure as much as I love my friends and as much as they love me they would not defend me for my mistakes. I’d have no one again. I’ve already lost so many people in my life either through trauma such as death and disease, all the way to my own mistakes and failures due to undiagnosed bpd. People who made promises they didn’t keep. It hurts. I’m scared of having no one again. Scared of my future being ruined before it even begins. I’m only 23 and yet it feels like it’s already over.
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@Mars Hi there! I am dealing with a very similar fear and obsession. I’m wondering how you made out? How goes your treatment? I hope you’re doing better! All the best.
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Can you explain again? I'm kind of confused about what you are saying?
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Like there will be a call out post on someone and people will add to the call out post like “oh yeah I interacted with this person / used to be friends with this person they were rly weird / creepy / gave me bad vibes” etc etc.
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So, negative talk about someone behind their back?
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Essentially except it’s in a public place like twitter
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@Mars Understand
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@Fear Strikes Out Is your fear that you will be a victim of being called out on social media?
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@Fear Strikes Out Yes big time. I have borderline and have trouble with boundaries (been workin on it in therapy) so I always fear of overstepping and or hurting others again like I did my ex best friend. I don’t wanna be another person people call out on social media as this horrible person. I keep feeling bad like I am and my therapist says I should be kinder to myself. I’m trying to be. It’s just tiring to balance ocd and bpd and keep myself in check while not obsessing about every little piece of my behavior.
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@Mars I am not very familiar with borderline personality disorder (were you diagnosed with BPD by your current therapist)? However, I do know that all of the anxiety that you are experiencing seems to be a never ending stream of rumination (worry about future happenings) and that can be a prescription for major depression for some. If you have never been there before, it's not a place you ever want to go. So, my advice would be to continue to work with your therapist about being able to embrace the uncertainty of not knowing whether or not you will be called out by people on social media. I agree that working on self-compassion is very important too. Is your therapist an OCD therapist?
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@Fear Strikes Out I was diagnosed last year by a psychologist at a mental hospital in my city when I went inpatient. Then I was confirmed I had it by an ex psychiatrist. BPD is... a lot. But yes I’ve been in a terrible depression bc of my bpd and ocd (like “what’s the point?” And “I should just isolate myself or disappear if I’m a terrible person”) it gets really really bad some days. No matter how many times I go to the hospital as inpatient it doesn’t do anything. I have a therapist rn who’s rly good, she is sadly not an ocd therapist and I haven’t found one in my state who would take my insurance and then also would work with my bpd as well. My therapist is rly good but we’ve focused more on my bpd bc every time I have a session I end up breaking down bc of trauma and my bpd brain warping everything. It’s hard balancing this and ocd.
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@Fear Strikes Out If I ever get called out on social media my life would be over and I’d lose everyone when I’ve already lost so many people in my life. So many bad things have happened in my adulthood already so my brain associates adulthood with tragedy and trauma so I just continue to prepare for the worst.
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@Mars Do you have any emotional support from family, relatives, or friends? Yes, as you know, inpatient hospitalization is for stabilizing the patient and very little about therapeutic treatment. Does your therapist ever discuss thought distortions with you?
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@Fear Strikes Out I have friends but I can’t talk about my ocd to my friends. At least not pocd. My mom has Alzheimer’s and my dad I don’t have much of a connection with even tho he is there. The person who I saw as my sister was my ex best friend of 10 years and she left me last year and it was my fault bc I hurt her extremely bad for years when I never even meant to it just happened. I have a therapist like I said but I’m not sure if we’ve spoken about thought distortions exactly. I know we’ve spoken about being kinder to myself and a bit of like the warped black and white thinking I have but most sessions I end up rambling every week into tears bc I get overwhelmed with my brain.
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