Hello everybody. Sometimes i go through a very serious and discomforting ocd episode. The anxity is so much that i think i cant take it anymore. I cant believe im alive because the pain is sooooooo much. The anxity is so hard that i wish to die. I really dont mean that never even tried to. Just the pain is soooo much. Like 10 from 10.And it makes me cry. I think my body cant handle that pain anymore. Like this pain is beyond my ability to survive. At that times i wish to die rather than living like this. Maybe i should not do the compulsion. But most of the times ocd wins in this situation.

Thank you❤️❤️i hope it gets better. I go to therapist once a week and am currently on medication. But its been a while that i feel medication dont have as much effect. The number of ocd thoughts are less But they severity has become worse for each episode.

@Nasim Ok, I get you. Is your therapist qualified to treat OCD? Maybe you need another medication?

Ok, good that you have an appointment in a few days! But thus is not the therapy recommended for OCD. It can get worse with that kind of therapy ( I have tried...) and they are often not aware of the danger of giving reassurance. The evidence based form of treatment for OCD is CBT including ERP. Psycodynamic psychotherapy can be very good to other problem s. Maybe you can talk about thus with your therapist.

@Estrid ^ This on steroids!

Yeah im better. Thank you. I have fear of harming other people and causing them die. Like if i made a mistake at my job it can be disaster.

@Nasim Sounds like you are in good hands by having an OCD therapist, medication, and insight into the obsessions and compulsions.

@Fear Strikes Out I hope one day i be strong enough to trust myself as much as i can trust others. Im trying and i really hope it pays off oneday.

Have you seen an OCD therapist before?

@Fear Strikes Out Yes for a while i saw someone. But he wasnt a good doctor in my opinion. He promised to cure me in 10 sessions. I dont think anybody can say that for certain. Every session i went there he told me to close my eyes and imagine your fear come true. And he told me to say when the anxity stops. But it didnt most of the times and because i couldn't bear it anymore i lied to him. He didnt let me go until i say it doesn't bother me anymore. And his sessions were insanly expensive.

@Nasim Have you considered an NOCD therapist to work specifically with your OCD. You can still keep the psychoanalytic therapist to help work through issues from the anal or phallic, etc., stages of development. ?

@Nasim I'm so sorry for your bad experinences, sounds like a crazy doctor to me...

@Fear Strikes Out The problem is i dont live in America

@Nasim What country do you reside?

@Fear Strikes Out Iran

@Nasim Yes, I think we chatted last week.

Thank you❤️❤️❤️

Thanks for your reply. I hope we'll be better soon??

How is OCD contributing to it? Sounds awful!

@Fear Strikes Out Ocd causes severe anxiety for me?