Just gave up, I get wasted drunk everyday, feel like it a better than suffering from HOCD for 6 years or forever ... fuck it

How did u quit drinking ?

@js94 I got a DUI and had to wear an anklet that monitored my blood alcohol for four months. That when I started to doing meth again because I couldn’t drink lol. But after a couple years of that I was just done with everything.

@hwill I got a DUI too.. never did meth tho, cocaine yes with the booze, it's a vicious cycle. R u on medicine at all ?

@js94 Oh yes. Wellbutrin, lamictal, and adderall. Antidepressant, mood stabilizer, ADD

@hwill I'm supposed to be on medicine but I haven't taken it because I drink too much

@js94 How much do you drink? I took medicine when I drank a lot and I feel like that is what helped me quit

@Pure_O_Warrior Zoloft gave me ED which was not fun. The ones I am now are working really well for me. I’m taking there online classes and making good marks. I feel focused and and less irritable. I meet with a psychiatrist every month. This regime has taken some trial and error to get to but I’m very thankful for they way I feel today. I am able to identify my ocd better and know that something is ocd. Just reading posts on here has helped me so much too! Also my misophonia that has TERRORIZED me since I can remember is like 10% down which is a huge thing for me. I was against meds for a long time too then I got into a relationship with such a good person and was willing to do whatever I could to make life easier on both of us. This is just my personal journey and what worked for me might. It work for anyone else, just sharing about it.

@hwill *three online classes, not “there”

@Pure_O_Warrior Also I get that they are still drugs that alter my mind, but my mind is fucked! If the drugs make me someone I’m not that’s actually a really good thing. If I die tomorrow than I know I got to feel “normal” today and happier because of it. I would take all the drugs I needed to, and I will, to have a fighting chance at happiness. My happiness might be artificial but I love myself a lot more on drugs than not on them.

@hwill I could drink anywhere from 20-30 beers a day sometimes

@js94 So, milk thistle is really good for the liver. Really good. At least start taking that. I take the Paradise Herbs brand. It’s not expensive and it is really strong. Or any milk thistle. At least until you figure things out, this way you won’t do long term damage to your liver. And turn yellow. Not a good look! Just know you WILL get better. God doesn’t want your life to fucking suck, I promise, but for whatever reason, you are right where you’re supposed to be. I really believe that! Just keep moving forward. The milk thistle would be a good place to start. Try drinking more water too. You can do these things and still drink that much and see a big difference in how you feel I promise :)

@hwill I'm on Prozac vraylar and anafranil