can we do this thing that if you see this comment your worst intrusive thought or thoughts. this of course is a judgement free zone. feel like it would be helpful

Ocd thoughts that are basically statements are the scariest in my opinion, those feel real af. Its hard to shake them and move on from them

@luchalysol Yes. so true. i felt like my life was ending every day and every day was the last time i will see my friends, pet and family. those days were like Sh*t.

@willypoveda I feel you. I stated my worst thought on thus thread as well and I have not been able to shake it. So much so that its hard to even speak to my son on video chat (he is in anither state with his dad rn and I call him every night). Because I feel so guilty over that thought. Im a little better today but still. These thoughts are super hard to shake off and forgive yourself for. They're horrible

@luchalysol a technique that has been working for me is the mindfulness. if you havent tried it you should try it. when the stream of toughts and anxiety is high what i do is realising that im the one hearing the tought, like there is this voice talking and talking and its me hearing those things. when i tried it for the first time it was magical. if you're interested there is this book called "the power of now" by eckhart tolle

@willypoveda Thank you! I do have a book on mindfulness I bought over a year that I haven't read. I took it to work just haven't started reading it yet. Ill definitely get that one too, thank you!

I have suicidal OCD as well!

@tella4 My brother now has a son, he's about a year old now. I do believe its a huge reason my ocd was triggered. I have an akmost 7yr old and I never had intrusive thoughts of harm until I found out my brother was gonna have a child.

@tella4 Ive heard a lot of good things and that he cares for his son/my nephew, but it is hard to shake that fear when I can't protect him. We live in different states and my brother has been cut off for almost 5yrs. I really do hope my ocd is feeding off of my fear of being like my brother and projecting it onto my son and my loved ones. The coincidences are there, but its still scary to have these thoughts that feel so real.

@tella4 I start therapy though NOCD on Monday. Im really hoping things can improve. Yeah, I love my brother, but it simply wasn't healthy for me to have him in my life. I wish I could meet my nephew, but idk. It has been hard, but Imma do my best to be the best me that I can be and be a mom my son could be proud of.

@tella4 I start on Monday! Im super excited. Im glad it worked for you! Gives me hope