Not gonna lie guys but I’ve had a pretty up and down day. It’s not even having an unpleasant day but more like shifting pleasant and unpleasant moments as the day goes on. This whole weekend I’ve felt my anxiety shoot upwards as I’ve been having to deal with new intrusive thoughts surrounding my family. I’ve been working on pushing pass these fears by hanging out with my family regardless of what the thoughts say, doing my ERP practices, and learning to be less judgmental of myself for having the thoughts. The thoughts are not my own and have recently shown up, so I’ll lightly remind myself it’s OCD without diving into compulsions. I still struggle with compulsions in regard to my main theme of suicidal OCD because well it’s the scariest one I have. Any other intrusive thoughts I have lead back to this theme and really scares me that it’s someone a secret desire of mine or that I’ll just give up one day when that’s NOT what I want. I’ve even put the idea of starting medication back on the table since the fear and anxiety reaction can get overwhelming. I’m hoping that once I’m able to start a medication that works for me, as well as continuing my ERP, I’ll be advancing even more beautifully. But for now I’m working on combating the new thoughts surrounding my family (btw F you OCD for bringing my family into this - obviously OCD will attack what you care about and being with my family is my safe haven so now I feel like I’m freefalling a bit). However I know this is temporary and will pass. I have the resources available to me and I won’t allow OCD to win, no matter what. I am strong and have God on my side. Hope everyone is doing okay and I wish you all a blessed and peaceful night ?

Ben84

Date posted: 5y

You too ☺!

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

Great attitude. Good for you for doing the hard stuff, for spending time with your family anyway. That takes guts. You rock. ? I’ve found taking something and having a cleaner diet helped with the obsessive/intrusive thoughts. It’s like it created a buffer between me and the thoughts. They were still there, but it took more effort to ruminate and so gave me the space to say, “Nah. We’ll let that thought float in and out.”

Evelyn4416

Date posted: 5y

Oh wow that’s awesome! Would you mind going into more detail on what you’ve been taking and what changes you’ve done with your diet?

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

@Evelyn4416 St Johns Wort, actually! Tried a med. It felt not great lol. Trying to cut out processed foods and eat whole foods. Lots of fruit, veggies, clean meat, and nuts. Cut out most sugar and gluten.

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

@Alyosha But you could try a med! Some people handle the side effects better, or pros outweigh the cons.

Evelyn4416

Date posted: 5y

@Alyosha Thanks for the info! I’ll have to look into it. And I’ve heard similar things about the diet! I have a addiction to hot Cheetos so that’ll be tough haha

Dess

Date posted: 5y

For anxiety look into gaba and or NAC I personally haven’t taken it but I like the research on it. I’ll let you know if I end up taking NAC but I have tried inositol powder and it’s really helped with panic

Evelyn4416

Date posted: 5y

Haven’t heard of NAC but I’ve been taking GABA and L-Theanine for awhile! They have helped a lot with keeping the physical affects of OCD away, so if I get into that heightened anxiety I can still eat and sleep for the most part without that being taken away from me

Dess

Date posted: 5y

@Evelyn4416 I love l theanine!! Omg yay. How has gaba been?

Evelyn4416

Date posted: 5y

@Dess It’s been good! I take 1 capsule twice a day (morning and night) alongside 2 capsules night and day of the l-the anime. I also started taking magnesium glycinate but not as often (mostly because you’re supposed to eat it with food and when I normally take my supplements it’s either the first thing I eat in the morning or right before bed when I had dinner like hours ago haha)

Dess

Date posted: 5y

@Evelyn4416 Lol true that’s cool! Try magnesiom by moonjuice. Did wonders for me. You’re awesome Evelyn! I hope we can connect more I can relate to you so much !

Evelyn4416

Date posted: 5y

@Dess I’ll look into that! And of course we can! I’m available through Instagram or reddit whichever is best for you if you ever wanna talk more :)

Dess

Date posted: 5y

@Evelyn4416 What’s ur insta???

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