I know this sounds absolutely nuts, but has anyone ever requested CCTV camera footage from say like a bar for reassurance? Or has thought of wanting to?

uwotm8

Date posted: 5y

Don’t ask for it it’s a compulsion! Also you probably wouldn’t get it even if you asked lol I was threatened by a man at a train station years ago and they “couldn’t find the footage” even when police asked

gmrn23

Date posted: 5y

I know :/ sometimes I just wish I had a video of my nights out just so I can know for sure. Guess that’s the constant reassurance trying to get to me

Fear Strikes...

Date posted: 5y

@gmrn23 It's a rabbit hole...and a pipe dream.

uwotm8

Date posted: 5y

@Fear Strikes Out Aside from the ocd aspect too, I just want to add - you can’t always get cctv footage just because you asked to see it anyway. In my case, it was to try find the guy who essentially intimidated me for nearly 40 mins on a crowded train platform, and implied he could wipe me out and get away with it, then attempted to follow me home- ironically he was bold enough to say all of this to me because he claimed cctv was useless. Then they “couldn’t find any footage” despite the police and train staff being IMMEDIATELY informed. My point is, if you place importance on “I’ll be okay only when I see it” and then it CANT be provided, you’re essentially screwed then ?

Fear Strikes...

Date posted: 5y

@uwotm8 What a horrifying experience. Thankfully, you were not physically harmed by that creep.

uwotm8

Date posted: 5y

@Fear Strikes Out He was a fucking weirdo!! My (ex) was inconvenienced by waiting for me to make a police statement for 2 hours then lol ? I went the next day and he was giving me silent treatment for being too long while he waited in the car

Tyler11

Date posted: 5y

I’m pretty sure I had BDD before Hocd but every time a friend would record me and send it to someone I would always beg them to send it to me just to see how I looked so I didn’t look ugly or just ask them to see their phone so I could see the video or just tell them to delete it in general.

Tyler11

Date posted: 5y

I’d also go into the stalls at school in the bathroom and record myself to see if I looked good or bad.

AnxietyGuy

Date posted: 5y

Omg yes I have absolutely wanted to view video footage of myself at work to seek reassurance from one of my OCD spikes. Best advice is to NOT give in to it... it’s a compulsion and doing so would drive you’re journey towards mental healing backwards in the wrong direction. You want to be saying NO to compulsions and YES to uncertainty..

wegotthis

Date posted: 5y

Yesss! If available to me I would have definately in the past taken advantage of it. I used to suffer from rocd and my exhusband was the manager of a bar and had access to their security camera through his phone. Every night he came home even a little later then usual I’d get him to show me footage he was there before I was able to go to sleep. But my ocd led to my divorce lol (turned out to be blessing in disguise,) and should be proof that doing compulsions lead to bad things! Learn to live with the unknown, you can do it!

gmrn23

Date posted: 5y

Everyone I tell this to in my life is like DONT DO IT. they’re gonna think you’re crazy for asking and especially it being from a night from 2 years ago! Even before that night I was googling body cameras to wear haha it’s crazy what OCD drives you to do!

wegotthis

Date posted: 5y

@gmrn23 It is crazy and i literally even forgot that I used to do the same thing until I saw this thread ? it didn’t seem crazy at the time though when I was struggling so bad. Don’t even worry about if anyone sees you as crazy for it don’t do it because it literally is putting fuel on the fire. It would make you feel better for maybe a day and then you’d feel so much worse tomorrow. Trust me just settle with never knowing what may or may not have happened

gmrn23

Date posted: 5y

@wegotthis I doubt they’d even give me the footage lol. I know I get so close to sending an email to the bar and then I’m like don’t do it it’s not worth it. If something happened you would have known without a doubt that night. Our brains just want to check check check to make sure. I got over a previous night I went out and then my mind automatically jumped to another night lol

wegotthis

Date posted: 5y

@gmrn23 Yup! Lol that’s exactly what would happen even if they did give you the foodtage (which I doubt THEY even have,) your mind would jump to something else. It’s best to stop that fight ol

gmrn23

Date posted: 5y

@wegotthis Thank you for talking to me. Sometimes I feel so alone in this fight even though my family and boyfriend give me tons of support

wegotthis

Date posted: 5y

Of course! I have so many people that support me too and I feel so lucky but the truth is unless you go through it it’s super hard to understand! You got this!

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