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you are safe and accepted here ❤️ therapy and medication will help so much, and we will all be here for you in the mean time. your thoughts do not define you :)
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Now I feel like everyone on here is going to think I’m weird
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What you shared took courage ☺. If I can take it, a trained therapist will likely be able to as well. Do you think that's something you could do?
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hey don’t worry we don’t!! I get what you’re going through 100%, I also have a rare type of ocd that used to be super severe in the beginning but it’s gotten way better these last few months with therapy and medication. I know it might be scary but therapy helps Lots especially erp and cbt
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Not one thing is strange that you’d saying. It is all ocd and it’s hell. But you will get better. Zoloft saved my life
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I am currently on Zoloft and have been for a bit. But I am wondering if I need to up my dosage a bit because I still have some anxiety.
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I take the highest dose 200 mg. It saved my life 20 years ago w harm ocd and my mind was so scary. I have tried others but no luck. So been on Zoloft through my two pregnancies as well. I have relationship ocd bad. So I’m going to try to switch meds if need be. But Zoloft is good for ocd. You may be better w higher dose. But e ocd you always need a higher dose. I have a 2 year old and a 3 month old So my hormones are not helping my ocd ?
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Well I’m so glad to hear that it has helped you! I definitely think I might need to be on a higher dose then because I am only on 50 mg. When I first started it I felt like it got a lil worse an then I was feelin better. Then back down again .
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@Pameladonald6530 50 is way too low for ocd. W ocd you need a way higher dose. I know this from my physiatrist I’ve been seeing for years. It was like omg hell for me 20 years ago. Mine is a lot of relationship ocd now
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Was this your first time sharing this with anyone?
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Yeah most of it I haven’t really talked about It with anyone .
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Thank you for sharing. No judgments, other than that to tell you none of it is “weird”, if that even is a judgement. Therapy can be scary. Please talk to your doc about your meds, and maybe ask if they recommend someone who is an OCD specialist? There are also other ways to find one. We’re here with you! If possible, let us help you be brave to take the steps to be the best you for yourself and your family. Good wishes your way. ?
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Yeah I’m pretty sure I have that . I had went to the er before and talked to them about it and they had mentioned Harm OCD .
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I feel like one of the worst things about ocd are the disturbing images or the ‘little movies’ that replay in your head over and over again. I have the worst sexual images with one of my family members that actually so bad that I can’t even look in the mirror. And it’s even worse that I have a lovely boyfriend and I’m so disgusted of myself that I feel like I don’t deserve him and I feel like I can’t be with him because of these thoughts, even he is the most precious thing in my life. These sexual images are so horrible and what makes it even worse that in these pictures I always see myself as someone who enjoys it. I know how to deal with this anymore. My mind is trying to convince me that that I actually like these images and thoughts and this is the hardest part, that I’m doubting myself. These images pop up in my head so naturally that I always question myself if I actually don’t like it why it comes so naturally or how can my brain picture things like this if I don’t like it. It’s getting worse day by day. It’s in my head 24/7, can’t concentrate on anything else, I can’t eat because I’m constantly throwing up. And my mom has to sleep with me every night because I’m so disturbed by my own mind. My parents know that there’s something wrong with me, they think I’m depressed but sadly It’s not something I can talk openly about with them. I’m seeing a therapist next week but I’m genuinely scared to open up about these thoughts that I’m having.
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Hi, I'm 17,about to be 18. I've been struggling with these thoughts for the past 8 months. I was wondering if someone experienced ever the same because I feel im "different". BACKGROUND: (I'm not diagnosed with Ocd but seeing a local counselor) About 9 months ago I cheated on my boyfriend with this guy S (who blackmailed, manipulated and molested me). Since then when I realized that what i did was very WRONG and so I started ruminating picking apart every single interaction and telling my boyfriend, i tried to remember every single detail because otherwise I felt like i was being a fraud and hiding things to save myself, i had many crisis about it because I had also what i think was false memory ocd. My boyfriend forgave me idk how tbh I still wonder. CURRENT STRUGGLE: Months ago I was sure I didn't wanna S in any way and i was sure even when everything happened. For the past 2 months tho I've been having thoughts like " Do I love S?" "I love S" "S is hot" "Would S find me hot?" "What if I want S?" " What if I don't love my boyfriend enough?" "What if I secretly want S?" "What if I see my boyfriend as a friend only?Do I?" And I tried testing my reaction to intimate scenarios with S, I'm scared I like it i dont really wanna love S or have any secret attraction, I wish I didn't have any of this and I want to be sure of my feelings for my boyfriend because I know I wanna be with him and I see a future with him like he brings me comfort. But a part of me keeps trying to convince me otherwise. Sometimes I think I'd rather die than have these thoughts. Im so scared of not being able to control my feelings, im scared I can't resist S and its giving me anxiety and making me cry. Sometimes when i think of those sexual scenarios with S or I get those thoughts my mind tells me to smile because i like it because I find it funny. It makes me doubt myself all over again. Like I'm always like I need to test if I'd feel aroused to intimate scenarios with S, lately im trying to fight this urge to test and test but my mind is like "just do it this once so you can be sure. I can never watch anything romantic or sexual or whatever because my mind would be like "you and S" or sometimes I'm just enjoying time with my bf and im like " yes we can just have a sneaky cheating thing thats ok" and it makes me want to figure it out to find an answer a solution because idk it just does like I need to find the meaning of it if it means the truth and all. Im worried im just an awful person and these thoughts just ruin my quality of life . Today i had a crisis where i ended up doinf swlf harm, I'm so scared of finding someone that's not my boyfriend desirable or sexual appealing or whatever it is, I also have bodily reactions when I try to imagine and test my reaction to scenarios. Now i keep groing everytime and I dont know why but i have this sensation and I dont want to havebit especially when its something S related. Does someone experience the same thoughts? Am I alone in this? Is this ROCD? What should i do?
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i’ve been dealing with this “thing” since i was 15. (i’m 23 now) if i have a bad memory that i have done when i was really young or just an intrusive thought i feel like i need to tell my mom or boyfriend. it’s been on and off ever since but since January hit it’s been an everyday thing about the littlest things. mostly about my relationship. an example is i was talking to someone random at my job and we were talking about taxes and when im in deep thought or just thinking i do a thing where i bite my lip (not in the sexual way) and i had a thought when it happened “was that sexual?” and i felt like i did something wrong and i went for a while thinking that until i told my boyfriend about it. or like my ex’s face has popped up in my head in the most inappropriate times and i feel the need that i have to tell him. (my ex was not a good person) i feel like im a prisoner in my head everyday, trying to justify thoughts or remind myself that its just a thought. i didnt know that this was or could be a form of ocd. it runs in my family but i’ve just never considered it being this. i always called it anxiety or depression but i always felt like it is more than that.
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