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you are safe and accepted here ❤️ therapy and medication will help so much, and we will all be here for you in the mean time. your thoughts do not define you :)
Now I feel like everyone on here is going to think I’m weird
What you shared took courage ☺. If I can take it, a trained therapist will likely be able to as well. Do you think that's something you could do?
hey don’t worry we don’t!! I get what you’re going through 100%, I also have a rare type of ocd that used to be super severe in the beginning but it’s gotten way better these last few months with therapy and medication. I know it might be scary but therapy helps Lots especially erp and cbt
Not one thing is strange that you’d saying. It is all ocd and it’s hell. But you will get better. Zoloft saved my life
I am currently on Zoloft and have been for a bit. But I am wondering if I need to up my dosage a bit because I still have some anxiety.
I take the highest dose 200 mg. It saved my life 20 years ago w harm ocd and my mind was so scary. I have tried others but no luck. So been on Zoloft through my two pregnancies as well. I have relationship ocd bad. So I’m going to try to switch meds if need be. But Zoloft is good for ocd. You may be better w higher dose. But e ocd you always need a higher dose. I have a 2 year old and a 3 month old So my hormones are not helping my ocd ?
Well I’m so glad to hear that it has helped you! I definitely think I might need to be on a higher dose then because I am only on 50 mg. When I first started it I felt like it got a lil worse an then I was feelin better. Then back down again .
@Pameladonald6530 50 is way too low for ocd. W ocd you need a way higher dose. I know this from my physiatrist I’ve been seeing for years. It was like omg hell for me 20 years ago. Mine is a lot of relationship ocd now
Was this your first time sharing this with anyone?
Yeah most of it I haven’t really talked about It with anyone .
Thank you for sharing. No judgments, other than that to tell you none of it is “weird”, if that even is a judgement. Therapy can be scary. Please talk to your doc about your meds, and maybe ask if they recommend someone who is an OCD specialist? There are also other ways to find one. We’re here with you! If possible, let us help you be brave to take the steps to be the best you for yourself and your family. Good wishes your way. ?
I kinda am really alone with this one. I got diagnosed 3 years ago and never went back to therapy. I don't really want help... I'm just here to kinda learn about other people. I've never met someone who has ocd like I do. You may think "they all say that" but I just never have. I got diagnosed when I told my therapist my obsession with gore/nercophilia. I can't believe I'm even talking about it right now. It makes me feel sick. I can't stand it. My mom has undiagnosed bpd. I may be wrong about this, I'm not a professional, but she has all the symptoms. Every single small thing about it too she has, and so do I. Having ocd along with it is even harder. I researched on having both and it's not common but also not impossible? If not, then if I don't have both, I would fit under the ocd title more than ocd. My point is, I feel alone. I just want someone to read this... I hate to admit it, but I want some sympathy. My partner has been really bad to me lately and I can't leave them cause I love them too much. So I don't beg him for comfort cause I know they might leave if I do. I feel like a burden. Please don't comment on that. Actually, are their even comments on this thing? Embarrassing if not..
Im so drained , I haven’t been diagnosed I’m too scared to go to a doctor and I did tell my mum I think I had ocd and she laughed at me with disbelief because Im not a clean freak . My last option is suicide if I’m being honest I’m only 17 and I’m already having these uncomfortable thoughts that make me cry for hours . I can’t go on social media I can’t speak to my family I can’t be around kids , animals without having a fear of getting turned on or feeling stuff or thinking stuff . The thoughts get so believable idk if there real or fake . It makes me extremely uncomfortable “what if I like this feeling “ I have to constantly check myself my body if a video comes up of a kid . What happens if I don’t even have ocd and I’m just a pedo . I’ve been through a lot of stuff but this has been the most draining , depressing period of my life . I can’t eat , I’m starting to think I’m depressed again . I can’t sleep , I don’t know myself anymore . I’m scared of myself , my future , what happens if Im becoming one , since I’m so young . I don’t want to be here anymore I don’t deserve it . I don’t deserve to have friends I don’t deserve anything but to rot in my room . I don’t believe I can get help I don’t believe I can get better . I just want to be normal I’m so jealous of people that just think normally .
It started a month ago on vacation. I started getting intrusive thoughts about harming my loved ones in their sleep and it scared me so bad. I thought it would stop but it only got worse. Here I am a month later and things have changed drastically. My thoughts have now shifted to becoming some serial killer. I am so worried it’s all I think about. I can’t stop thinking about the things I did as a kid and how it could validate all my thoughts. I don’t wanna hurt anyone or anything at all. I am so scared of the thought of the notorious serial killers that I’ve heard about in the past and I can’t stop comparing myself to these horrible people. I’m scared because I used to be mean to animals as a kid and people say this is the first thing to look for in serial killers. I remember still having a lot of empathy for them when I was young too. I look back and cant at all understand why I was like that. It makes me wanna breakdown and punch myself. All of that stopped a really long time ago and every since I have done nothing but helped and empathized with animals. I am every surrounded by them and consider them to be more family than pets. I get extremely upset over anything or anyone who is suffering. I just can’t get that memory of me doing that stuff out of my head and I’m afraid it means it validates my thoughts I’ve been having even though this is not what i want to happen. I’ve been completely avoidant of alcohol and refused to take a medication I was prescribed because irritability was a side effect and I’m afraid of snapping and hurting someone. I just can’t stop thinking about my past and how it could correlate to now. Even though I have grown up to have morals and respect for everything I have a fear that it’s all been a lie. I get so much anxiety from thinking about this stuff. I haven’t eaten in almost 3 days because my stomach is in a constant knot and when I do eat I feel too guilty to do so because I’m not paying attention to these thoughts and sometimes it makes me question whether I secretly want to do bad stuff which I don’t and that scared me so bad. I made an emergency appointment right after I started having these thoughts and they diagnosed me as having schizotypal personality disorder. They said I have been having ocd “tendencies “ because I have the thoughts and constantly googling everything which I guess would be a compulsion. I have been looking on forums for people with past actions similar to mine to see other peoples reactions. I’m not sure what this is anymore. Idk if this is ocd or I’m just using it as an excuse. All I know is that I’m extremely scared. I vowed if this stuff as everything something I would even think about doing I would take myself out before I ever hurt anyone else. It’s scary but it’s what I always tell myself when I doubt any of this.
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