Y’all this is dumb but I’ve been looking into the past about early signs of ocd and I wanted to see if these things were ocd related or you experienced them. I feel like it may be obvious but here goes lmao TW for counting and possible scrupulosity? talking about demons and shit The thing that stands out to me the most are counting my steps when outside or in my house between sidewalk blocks and thresholds in my home. I would see other people not step in a block an even amount of times and be agitated or I would nearly trip and die trying to make sure I stepped in the sidewalk block just the right amount of times. I remember counting one day on my way to the bus stop for school and knowing that I didn’t do it right but I pushed forward anyway. I ended up going back because it distressed me knowing I didn’t do it right so I went and did it until it evened out. This went on well into high school and probably now without me noticing. In my dorm I would have to turn off the bathroom light and shut the door a certain way or a demon or ghost would be upset. The shower curtain had to be closed when I got out a certain way or it would be “a sign”. Even sometimes now (i think I lessened it some when I realized it might be a compulsion) that I would have to step between cabinets or around the kitchen a certain amount of times before the microwave got to a certain number or I would have to sell my soul to the devil. Anyway I’m not sure entirely if this was ocd or if I was obsessed with paranormal stuff and it just formulated that way? Or maybe both? Idk but lmk how u feel lol

geoboy

Date posted: 5y

Believe me this is ocd and I have the same problem...but I don't do that step thingy anymore...its more of counting numbers inside my head from 1 to 10 fast even number of times...before I so something...you know what we can talk if it's ok with you....our ocd is pretty similar

9jewels

Date posted: 5y

I don’t really count steps anymore and if I do I hardly notice it it’s like second nature to me until I stopped and went “oh that’s not normal”. I think if I have had ocd for a long time it looks a lot different now because I developed pocd around adulthood and that’s my main obsession now I think

9jewels

Date posted: 5y

Also I would love to talk but I don’t feel comfortable talking to minors (under 18)

geoboy

Date posted: 5y

@9jewels I am 18 I have dealt with intrusive ocd when I was just In my eighth grade for an entire year...all by myself cause I was too ashamed to tell it to people....so believe me I am quite mature.

chasingwelln...

Date posted: 5y

When I was little I used to count the words in sentences or songs with my fingers, and I’d try to get to a sentence that ended exactly when my fingers had counted to 10, idk if I’m explaining myself properly. Then when I was going to make my first communion and took all the lessons, I remember they talked one time about people selling their soul to the devil to get what they wanted, and so every night when I prayed I had to say “I will never sell my soul to the devil to get what I want” otherwise I felt like I’d do it. One time I also got supper obsessed with getting cancer after I watched a movie called “my sisters keeper” and I would check my body every single day to make sure I had non of the symptoms. ? now I’m struggling with hocd and it makes so much sense cause I’ve had these obsessing since I was little and I just never talked about them or asked for help.

noone.likes....

Date posted: 2y

I do this a lot too. There's is a constant "1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2..." in my head to make sure I have taken an even number of steps, and I get really anxious if I don't. I also do this with the colors of the ground, where I need to have the same amount texture/color touching my feet in total and if I miss one it makes me really anxious.

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