My intrusive thoughts around how to perform therapy "properly" are constantly intruding. I try to disregard them & treat them as OCD using acceptance, mindfulness, etc.. I'm feeling hopeless. No matter what I do, my thoughts are always scanning for anything that could be OCD and telling me to go habituate to it. This is awful. If I don't like something, automatically OCD. If I prefer something, automatically OCD. If I have a distaste for something, OCD. If I like something, OCD. Make it the opposite of what you like for exposure. It's invading my whole world. Really tired, at my breaking point. I know a lot of other people are struggling with their own demons & I hate it. I wish OCD, or whatever this incessant, anxious noise is would leave us all alone so we could get some peace and get back to ourselves.

How did you overcome it? I constantly feel like I have to overcorrect everything in my life, so when I'm just sitting and watching TV or taking a shower for example, my mind will go "You need to rub soap everywhere and habituate to that. Since you don't like it, it's OCD." It does this with a lot of things and it's really freaking me out. It's been the primary theme of mine for the past few years. If I'm content with something, that's not okay, and I need to do the opposite of what I want for "exposure". But I actually think this is just the OCD playing tricks. It's really hard because it's so sly at convincing me it's true. I also wish I could find a therapist that'll help me with this because it's becoming too much. It's good to hear you were able to move on & dismiss these thoughts as OCD.

@canigetawitness At times I still slip up, it’s normal when recovering from it. But what really helped was to take a step back and realize that I’m obsessing over what is ocd and what isn’t. Then I brought compassion to myself and told myself that whatever I was feeling was completely okay, even “negative feelings” I still gave compassion to them. So if I felt angry I would just let myself feel angry and tell myself that was okay that they’re just feelings. I would journal as well. It helps to full connect to your body at the moment and you’ll start noticing if you’re really anxious about something in particular at the moment or if your mind just made you obsess about it right now. I’d just try to be in tune with my body and at times I’d notice that I was forcing myself to do an exposure for no reason even if I wasn’t anxious or worried about something initially but simply because I believed I needed to do it to be okay and prevent an obsession from “getting worse”. Realizing that most times I didn’t need exposures and if I felt I needed to do one (if not I’d get anxious) I knew it was my ocd playing tricks on me. So I’d purposely not do one. It’s complicated but the root of help for me was bringing compassion, self awareness, and allowing myself to just learn as time goes by. I feel most times since we deal with ocd, as we start to get better we obsess with healing and preventing new obsessions and that’s an obsession within Itself. So I just allow myself to learn new techniques and catch myself naturally if I’m obsessing about something, work on it and keep a positive attitude. What has helped for me is I take a course on my particular ocd which is ROCD (the course is called awaken into love) but her course shows many valuable techniques for ocd in general. I also watch her YouTube channel on ROCD which is also called awaken into love. I hear podcasts dealing with ocd, particularly her podcast with the same name. I journal constantly everyday when I get triggered or get a thought about something and just allow myself to let it out and move on. Writing down things you’re grateful for and that you love about yourself is also a great excercise. Whenever you have a trigger or thought and you don’t know whether it’s ocd or not simply just mark it as OCD, it helps a lot. Be kind to yourself!!! That is the most important. I’m looking into activity books as well right now for ocd and saw some good ones on amazon! Hope this helped!