My mom asked me if I was depressed.. I didn’t know how to answer it so I just laughed it off. I feel like I just lost any chance I had to make conversation of the topic.

blech123 beat me to it ☺

I’ve been thinking about doing that too... but I feel like once I do that, they’ll want to talk to me about it.. and not through those playforms.. idk

@Mel Well yeah but then it’s a little better cause you’ve said all the hard stuff and you’ve opened up the conversation:) I wish you the best of luck! My parents can be very dismissive of mental health so I still haven’t really talked about it with them

@sophie02 Yep same with me. Their go to answers are “it’s because you’re on your phone” or “pray about it”

@Mel OMG LMAO ACTUALLY SAME. and when i get a compulsion or extra touchy or sensitive about something that’s a trigger or a theme to me and say something like “I’m sorry it’s my ocd” they’re like “no you are using ocd as an excuse, your just weird” or they will literally say “just relax” and shit like that as if it’s that easy?

@sophie02 YES!!!! Me too! And whenever I actually make an effort to talk about it... 2 things will happen. 1 they won’t let me finish explaining and switch the subject or 2. Tie it back to me not being “active” enough and that if I just pray more it’ll get better. And I’m like... ok and walk away

@Mel okay we actually have the same parents LMAO cause that happens to me too! It always becomes a conversation about what I’m not doing right or how the problem all stems back to me not doing something. And they ALWAYS change the subject. It’ll go from “I don’t like when you call me a psychopath because I have a theme about psychopathy” to “you are so sensitive that’s stupid. Maybe if you had a better relationship with god you wouldn’t have so much anxiety” like HUH?

@sophie02 YES OMG!!!!!! Exactly the same for me!! And then you just kinda give up... and go sit in your room and continue feeling like crap and kinda just get into a deep dark state of mind when the only thing you have IS your phone... and outlets like this app. Having it just makes you feel a little bit better and a little bit less isolated. But at the same time you just really wish you could actually TALK to your parents about this stuff.. so you don’t have to turn to apps like this and get actual therapy and stuff to help you.

@Mel LITERALLY!! like I’ll just go and in my room and cry for a long time in my bed and then just turn to this app because it’s my only outlet and way for help. Totally feel you! I hate going to that dark place:/

@sophie02 Yesssssss!! But then my mom will yell at me to get up and to “quit being lazy” and I’m like omgg I’m not lazy I just need to process all the stimuli... but no that’s just me being “lazy”

@Mel EXACTLY. It’s like no I’m not being lazy I just have the worlds most horrific slideshow in my head and I’m trying to deal with it

@sophie02 Yep! And plus... because of the constant slide show and compulsions to comphensate... I don’t sleep normal hours!!!! So of course I’m tired! I can’t function properly as it is, but if you yell at me... THATS NOT MUCH HELP

@Mel Literally I haven’t slept in three days and when I sleep it’s in between the hours 4:30 in the morning to 10:30 in the morning but literally why do they think yelling some how helps? Like thank you for yelling at me because I didn’t sleep it’s not like I didn’t want to haha. Barely functioning at this point.

@sophie02 Exactly! And... if you even TRY to defend yourself it’s “talking back” which honestly dehumanizes me and it’s not fair that they get such a big standpoint and I barely get any ledge to stand up for myself

@Mel LITERALLY. Like they tell me I’m trying to argue like no I’m just trying to have a conversation it’s so frustrating. Totally not fair they just say the shit they want to and then I can’t tell them how I feel or how they are wrong

@sophie02 Yup! Or they’ll say “it’s just hormones” and it’s like they have to stay in denial that I’m not okay. Cuz I’m not and that’s the problem.. it’s like a vicious cycle.. but with my parents?? I already have one with mental illness... but on top of that another with my parents

@Mel totally get it, it’s just an endless cycle and they blame everything on things like oh your hormonal or they’ll just call me crazy but they never really want to address the real issues

@sophie02 Exactly!!! I don’t understand why they just can’t except it

@Mel Right it’s like they just want to pretend my ocd doesn’t exist cause it’s easier for them to ignore it

@sophie02 Yeah! Instead of actually getting you the help you need... and so your only option is to turn to this kind of thing. You can’t get payed therapy cuz you’re underage so this is the best I’ve seen so far

@Mel exactly like they don’t really believe in therapy and I can’t afford it and I’m underage anyways so?. Lmao do u have an insta?

@sophie02 I can’t afford it either haha.. and yes I do it’s _puamelia_21