sophie02

Date posted: 5y

guys I’m honestly embarrassed to admit this and I feel really guilty but it’s an unhealthy habit that I think I should deal with. Sometimes, rarely I’ll like sext other strangers cause idk it’s like an escape or something from real life and I always hate myself afterwards, I never show pics or anything but it’s a way where I can feel more safe about getting rid of sexual feelings idk I usually hate the idea of sex cause I have pocd amongst other things and not knowing the other person takes off some of that tension cause I’m not constantly asking myself questions like why are you attracted to them? Etc. anyways I really am just hating myself right now I feel like the worst human ever any advice on this subject would mean the world to me I just don’t know how to deal with myself or forgive myself.

salvation

Date posted: 5y

Remember that OCD judges you much more than any person would ever judge another for the same act. Be cognizant of the fact that OCD will find a problem in anything (and if there is no problem, it will invent one), and just because OCD tortures you with guilt, that does not imply in any way that you are a bad person. It literally says nothing at all about who you are. If you know this, you will have an easier time getting to be comfortable with living with OCD.

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

Thank you! Needed this:) ❤️

Mel

Date posted: 5y

Ahhh yes! I did this a lot years ago, but something inside me snapped. I’m not too sure what it was. Maybe it was guilt? And so I just stopped it. I blocked all the people and that was that ?‍♀️

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

queen shit ?. Good to know I’m not alone. Like I know it’s fairly normal for teens to do and stuff but I still feel bad about it anyways. I only do it occasionally but ik I should just stop periodt

Mel

Date posted: 5y

@sophie02 It’s definitely a game changer, I’ll tell you that!

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

@Mel Thx! Sending hugs and support❤️

Ben84

Date posted: 5y

Did you check out my post ??

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

Yeah:) I just feel like a bad person and I don’t know how to deal with these feelings. any advice?

Ben84

Date posted: 5y

@sophie02 Well you already took a first step. You were vulnerable in sharing this and it gives us the opportunity to show you're not alone and that we still care about you just the same ☺!

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

@Ben84 Thank you! Really needed this. Sometimes I feel like I’m worthless and if no value especialky when I make mistakes

amineb04

Date posted: 5y

Just know that OCD will always be your biggest judge,noone or nothing else. Your negative feelings about this are because your OCD is attacking you. It'll be okay. If you want I can give you my snapchat in case you need a friend?

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

Thx! I don’t have a snap but my insta is sophie_delay :)

amineb04

Date posted: 5y

@sophie02 Okay I'll follow you :)

amineb04

Date posted: 5y

@sophie02 Have you got "Bob Dylan" in your bio?

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

@amineb04 Yup that’s me!

amineb04

Date posted: 5y

@sophie02 Ah I DMed you!

OCDMum87

Date posted: 5y

Why do you feel guilty? Do you have a partner? Unless you’re betraying someone else then there is absolutely nothing wrong with what you’re doing! You don’t need to feel guilty or forgive yourself because you haven’t done anything wrong.

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

No I’m single. Idk I just feel dirty afterwards in a way? Maybe it’s just society’s standards for women beating me up but it just feels not normal or like weird for me to do.

OCDMum87

Date posted: 5y

@sophie02 Sorry only just saw this as haven’t been on for a couple of days. I know what you mean but I do think it’s your own perceived view of it rather than you doing anything wrong at all. It’s definitely not weird - it’s totally normal.

sophie02

Date posted: 5y

@OCDMum87 Thank you!❤️

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