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If you want a good ERP excersize while you look for therapy (i HIGHLY recommend therapy through NOCD. It has helped me TREMENDOUSLY). Try to sit with the thoughts of maybe being or becoming a psychopath. Try to tell yourself "maybe i am or maybe im not its possible i may bea psychopath. I dont have the answer to that" WITHOUT doing any type of compulsions. You checking and searching and trying to find an answer is only making your OCD worse. If you feel comfortable with trying that i would HIGHLY recommend it. Good luck!! Let me know how it goes. P.S : it will be scary, it will be hard, you might want to do a lot of compulsions but the point is NOT to do them. Sit and focus on those thoughts of "maybe i am or maybe i will become one i dont know".
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Hey! Would you suggest this with any kind of thought? Like I feel like my morbid thoughts are just to fucked up for me to agree too ?
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@Pameladonald6530 Yes i highly suggest you do it with every thought that gives you anxiety or panic. Your not agreeing with those thoughts your just letting them be uncertain. "I might end up killing someone one day, i dont know. Well see what happens" or "i might not have any feelings but i dont know why maybe ill feel someday well have to find out"
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I honestly don't know if I can't do it, it's terrifying
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@Makki23 Maybe start with something a little less terrifying. Do you have any other subtypes or fears that dont give you AS much anxiety?
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@Kamil They are all kinda same tbh
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Honestly what I’d say to do is write this out just like this , and give it to your therapist. If you have one
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I'm possibly getting one
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I felt this way in my early teens and only now do i realise it was ocd my doctor and therapists have all reasured me that i was not and am not a psychopath intrusive thoughts all come in many forms and i would have empty feelings and sometimes feel completely nothing for months i did all the same googling but i too never wanted to hurt or enjoyed hurting others the utter fact you're concered about it and are asking is enough to say you're not a psychopath
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I just think about it so often, and get scared being numb will make me more likely to act on them even though I don't want to
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