A false memorie can jump like an intrusive thoughts and instantly believe it? Im afraid if im suffering of real event ocd or false memorie ocd and i do not this lool really detailed.

Like a year ago, maybe two. I turn 20 this year.

@sunflowers You wanna talk about this? I just told my therapist about my potentially false memory.

@irllydislike I'm really scared, its about my sister and i just feel so horrible, so so so so so horrible

@sunflowers How old is your sister?

@irllydislike 24

@sunflowers Ohhhh I can’t imagine it’s that bad then. What is it?

@irllydislike I'm scared to tell because you are going to think I'm horrible

@sunflowers I promise you I won’t. Trust me, I just went through this same thing w a therapist.

@irllydislike Ok, i was sitting with my sister in a hammock, and my memory says that she was moving the hammock and suddenly i started to feel something down there and i like it, i remember that like a month ago maybe two weeks but i take it like"it wasn't my best moment but i can live with that" but then the anxiety get worse and like two days ago i was thinking about it and suddenly i "remember" that what i feel wasn't down there, it was in my leg, but i dont know what to believe.

@sunflowers Let me tell you, it doesn’t matter what you believe. Would you honestly and rationally have relations with your sister? No, no you wouldn’t. I have had my sibling accidentally rub something against me or bump into me and it has caused a similar reaction. False or not, it doesn’t mean you lust for your sibling. If I tickled you, I’m sure you would laugh, does that mean that you liked being tickled by me, or the action itself?

@irllydislike The thing is that i enjoy it, for like 3 or 5 minutes, thats what makes me feel like a horrible person, i would nevfr have relationships with my sister but this just make me feel like i should die

@sunflowers No you shouldn’t die. Let me tell you, my incident was far worse, granted I was a child at the time, but far far worse than this. Let this go. If someone went up and grabbed your genitals and started touching you, I’m sure you’d experience some arousal despite being like “hey man what the fuck!”. It’s not because of who or how it’s because we all have monkey brains and our body likes touches. You’re fineeee

@irllydislike Yeah, you are right, i mean the worse thing is that i enjoy it but i need to let it go, it was a mistake, we all commit mistakes, thank you for your help?

@sunflowers No it wasn’t a mistake. Because you couldn’t control it. My thing, that was a mistake. Yours was a proper reaction.

@irllydislike Well it wasn't a proper reaction because i choose to enjoy it, and maybe your thing is not that bad.

@sunflowers You did not choose.

@irllydislike Yeah i did, and thats the problem, i feel so terrible about it, like i dont want to look at her and i don't know if that happend because like i said before two days ago my head started to tell me something different.

@sunflowers Not a big deal and not a conscious choice bro. You’d be suprised how pleasure can take over.

@irllydislike Yeah, i think it wasnt conscious, uff but you are right not a big deal.

@sunflowers It doesn’t matter if it was conscious or not. Even if you wanted it who cares? It’s not like you banged your sis.