I feel so lonely and helpless. With transitioning from high school to college, I’ve completely lost touch of my old friend group. I haven’t really established a new friend group yet. I don’t go to therapy anymore because my mom dislikes my therapist. My mom refuses to accept any of the diagnosis or what my therapist has to say, so I haven’t seen her in months. I don’t have a boyfriend. I’ve never have. My family doesn’t care. I receive no support with my mental health sometimes not even my physical health. I’m always assumed to be over reacting, so even when I’m in pain they just get mad at me and tell me to get over it. I just don’t have anyone. I don’t know what to do. My OCD is starting to get bad again and recently I hurt my neck. I talked to my mom, dad, and sister about it. The general response was stop crying that doesn’t help, maybe if you weren’t so lazy, just put heat on it. I know crying doesn’t help, but it’s my response to my pain. Leave me alone. I’m in so much physical and emotional pain with no one to support me.

I see your hurting. I'm hurting with you just from reading that. I know it may not sound like a lot, but you have a community here that cares about you ☺.

I can emphasize with you as I’ve been told to ‘ just snap out of it’ lol. My mom is also quite ignorant to the severity of my illness. On the surface she accepts it but also thinks I should be able to think straight. I’ve accepted it’s not their fault, the people who do not understand mental illness, and of course you want the people closest to you to understand it . But Ultimately they do not need to understand. only you need to understand your illness, how it’s affecting you, and the symptoms you’re dealing with to get the help you need. It’s hard to help yourself when you are sick but if you make that a first priority and you get better then everything else in your life falls into place the right way. There is so much help out there it’s unbelievable. Ocd is a legitimate illness just like someone with diabetes maintaining their sugar levels, we have to maintain this illness through therapy and in most cases medication. Have you heard of OCA? It’s like alcoholics anonymous but instead obsessive compulsive anonymous. It’s a really wonderful support group. I wish you all the best! Just know you’re not alone there are a lot of others out there suffering and if you just stick with determination and commitment to recover, you’ll be just fine! With love, Jennie

You mention that you're in college. Many colleges have a counseling center where you can get therapy for free or at low cost. Also, if you are above 18 (at least in the US), your mom doesn't have the power to make medical decisions for you or to talk to your therapist.