I’ve gotten bad again. I feel so alone and I’m so depressed. No one in my family cares no one gives a fuck And when I cry they just tell me to shut up or they tell me to stop being dramatic or cut it out. I hate myself, like I hate everything about myself my mind, my body. I keep thinking things would be better if I wasn’t here, everyone would be better, I wouldn’t just be a pain In the ass. I feel worthless. Nothing I do ever ends up meaning shit. No one notices or cares.

Hi! I’m noticing & I’m caring! I’m so sorry you feel like people around you don’t care- OCD is very very hard to understand for those who don’t have it. It’s hard for parents to admit that their children are not well be it physically or mentally. If they are making you feel bad about your pain then that is not okay. You maybe need to a have a real sit down with them- maybe even with a psychiatrist- to help them understand that what you are dealing with is painful & it is hurting you. The most important thing for you to do right now is practice self compassion. You are not worthless and the world would not be better without you here. Despite your families inability to understand, they care about you & so do your friends. And you should care about yourself too!! You are valuable & wonderful & you have & will do great things in the world! Even if you hold a door open for someone, you make someones day! You make the world a better place by doing small acts of kindness- that is valuable even when it seems easy to forget. You do good things without giving yourself credit. Pat yourself on the back & tell you that you love yourself. You deserve the self compassion❤️

You're gonna get through this, it's hard for them to understand the situation you're in but don't give up, you're not alone in this

Sending you love and compassion. I was reminded once that "not being here" is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This will pass. I am sorry that your family doesn't understand. The people who have made the most positive impact on others and this world are those who have overcome adversity, just as you will.

Reading this makes me think of myself so so much. I feel the exact way some days. You are trying really hard and you are strong give you yourself credit for that. It’s hard for family to accept and understand this. It’s hard but you matter ! You matter so much ♥️ sending all love and compassion too. Stay strong.

I’m sorry your family acts this way towards you. I have to ask—do you think you are in danger of harming or killing yourself? If so please call a hotline. 741741 is a text line in the us that has been helpful to me. I’ve also called the national suicide hotline a few times and found that helpful. Reminder: even if your family doesn’t understand, you have all of us behind you. Also, are there other relationships in your life (friendships, ect.) that you can maybe give time and attention to? Always here if you need me. ❤️