Anonymous
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holleyholley
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SAME.
AnonymousAnonymous
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Like hips and boobs and everything, it’s like I’m pertuslly thrned on
AnonymousAnonymous
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@wellwellwell *perpetually
letsbeatocd letsbeatocd
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I can barely imagine myself with a man now. I love my boyfriend so much. I am so scared
AnonymousAnonymous
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Same here. Ruins every day for me. I feel like it’s destroying my relationship
letsbeatocd letsbeatocd
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@wellwellwell How do you deal with hocd?? The only times I feel happy are when I know I’m straight
AnonymousAnonymous
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@letsbeatocd I don’t honestly. I’m apppying to med school right now and this has made daily living impossible. It’s hard to even drag myself through writing essays. I feel like I can’t be straight or love him and I hate it. Sex is miserable and I don’t know how to get out of this
AnonymousAnonymous
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I’ll open up about my experience with HOCD. It was my first OCD when I was 14 (I’m 27 now). I started looking at porn and I really get off to lesbian porn. I started getting intrusive thoughts about this randomly one day and that’s when my OCD started. I grew up in a Turkish Muslim home so this is a taboo topic. I started confessing to my mom for reassurance and at first it didn’t go well. Then my mom started giving me reassurance because she does love me in the end. I struggled for a few years and I realised many straight girls get turned on by lesbian porn without actually wanting to do it in real life (if you google this you will see) and in this generation it’s pretty normal to be bicurious or fluid. Now I look at all kinds of porn including lesbian with no problem. When I went away to college after being sheltered like a pampered princess my whole life with no street smarts, I started drinking alcohol and doing things I said I would never do and getting myself into trouble. My resssurance seeking remained but the theme changed from HOCD to real event and pure o ocd. You will get though this!! Hang in there.
AnonymousAnonymous
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Thank you❤️ it’s not even porn, I would just look at pictures of naked women as a child and I still find some of it arousing. I’m glad to know you got over it, but boy does it suck
letsbeatocd letsbeatocd
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@wellwellwell Yes when I was younger, I feel like I looked a pics of naked women too and felt aroused but I could only have crushes on guys
AnonymousAnonymous
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@letsbeatocd Same here fuck this honestly
AnonymousAnonymous
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@wellwellwell Porn or naked pictures, any type of arousal response will trigger this ocd. I am not trying to give you reassurance because that also feeds the OCD but I remember being tortured by this when I was a teenager and feeling so alone and scared. But it is very normal. When it comes to porn, girls know what girls like rather than seeing some guy ramming a chick and not even knowing where the clit is, to be blunt lol. Even for pics too, fantasy is just a fantasy. It doesn’t reflect on what you want to do in your real life. Now I have real event ocd. My rebellious phase got so bad throughout the years my friend convinced me to try a sugar baby site to get out of debt and my abusive home. I got used and taken advantage of. Now I constantly check porn sites for myself because I randomly got an intrusive thought “what if I was secretly recorded? What if my reputation is ruined? What guy will date me now?” OCD SUCKS. And it’s even worse with PTSD and depression mixed in. Sending love your way ❤️
letsbeatocd letsbeatocd
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I’m not even attracted to girls. My brain just says I have to be with one:(((
AnonymousAnonymous
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Same. I hate it. If I didn’t have ocd I would probably not even give a shit
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